And my eyes see...

And I'll praise You in this storm. And I will lift my hands. For You are who You are. No matter where I am. And every tear I've cried. You hold in Your hand. You never left my side. And though my heart is torn. I will praise You in this storm.

Instead of opening with a Bible Verse I thought I would open with my favorite song's chorus. It has been the most moving song to me these past few months. So much is going on in my life or in all of our lives, sometimes all we can do is reach up and say, "Take it GOD, Take it all"! I am learning day by day that you can not just give GOD a little bit, not half, you have to give it all to him. See, I have always tried to handle things myself, thinking oh GOD can get whats left. Nuh-uh Brothers and Sisters, that is the biggest mistake possible. As you might of noticed I have not blogged deeply in a very long time. For that I am deeply and truely sorry. This blog is my ministry and not only have I failed on ya'll I have failed on sharing the love of Jesus. So, I am asking for an apologize, dear ones.

If you have guys are new to my blog, hello to you, jump right on in..grab you a diet coke (in my case), a coke, coffee, hot cocoa, whatever tickles that funny bone. I am so glad you found my blog, welcome and I love you. For those whom have been following, grab a beverage and many hugs and blessings I send to yall and I love you also! So, my beauties whats new? Anyone scream at the computer already? I have! I feel so bad for not keeping up with you guys. I am gonna get better, I promise. It's just I am thinking I am so stressed the gray is gonna start poking out at 24, who is with me with the gray hair! *Laughing* . So lets do updated Lindsey time... then I will ask ya'll some questions sounds good to me.

Okay...where to begin. Okay lets see, as I meationed my beautiful baby sister is getting married in May. Correction in the program: She is getting married in June. June 19th to be exact. So praise our beautiful SAVIOR I get an extra three weeks to prepare myself. I know its all about Christie, but sweet mother pearl's this is why I am stressing. 1. I am Maid of Honor. 2. Me in a dress + and heals oh this is gonna be fun. But, all in all I am very excited for Christie. Its just mind boggling that my little sister whom I played finger paints with is getting married! My dad's youngest brother, Mickey will be walking Christie down the alie. Secondly, as I have wrote in a previous blog my mother has not been to church since my father died. It has been really hard for her. Well, my prayers have been answered she has for two weeks be going to church. She does not sit in her old spot, she actually likes her new spot better. And, she seems to be enjoying it. I go with her to morning services and in the evening ones me, her, Christie, and Cody (Christies fiance) go with her. So, everyone be praying she keeps up the good progress.

In the month and a half I have not blogged I been doing alot of thinking and soul searching. Through that time I have found my favorite song the lyrics I just posted. The first time I heard this song, I was listening to K-Love on my computer and it was this December and tears just started pouring out of my soul. And, I have never heard this song, I googled the lyrics and when the chorus came on, I had the lyrics up I had my hands up in my room, sobbing and singing along to the song. It has made that much of a difference in my life. GOD has never left me, even when I was torn to shreds he was always there for me to catch me. My daddy used to joke with me, do not fall for anyone whom is not willing to catch you. I have learned what matters, what to stress over, what to "worry" over, and sometimes all we can do is say, I give up. And, that is what I did I said I give up, and stopped fighting myself. I let GOD take it from my back, my heart, and my soul. I am learning to forgive and forget. And, I see the postive now.

On day a week or so ago my faith I could just feel it slipping from my grasp. I was conteplating shutting down this blog. Which, I am not now. Also that night, I found some evidence of my two ex's and on my facebook I have seen three of my high school classmates get engaged. And, I thought I am single and no one wants me. I must of done something wrong, I must of failed somewhere. It must be my fault I am alone. Maybe the man of three years was my prince charming and I screwed it up somehow. Or, maybe it was the ex I just recently had and thought maybe he was I just screwed that up too. I made a list that was two pages long of some of the mistakes I had made and was heart broken by what I saw. I flopped my Bible open, I lie none to you it showed up 1st Corithians 13: 4-8 the love definiton. And, I got to thinking about my heart, it needs to heal. I need to heal, I need to take a deep breathe and realize I am gonna be okay. I need time, for Lindsey. Love is does not come easy. And, I give Robbie advice about men all the time, and my number one advice to her is this. Maybe its not you GOD is waitting on maybe its the other end maybe GOD is working on him before you two get together.

So, with much prayer and daily steps towards a better tomorrow I am getting stronger. And, my ministry is going to be back on track. You guys have been some of the most wonderful readers, and my new ones welcome. I am looking foward to getting to know you. I have missed you all, I truely have. I hope and pray all of you are wonderful and things are going okay. If you have prayer request do not hestiate to let me know. I pray for each and everyone of you. You are all so wonderful, beautiful, and talented. GOD loves you, GOD is so proud of you. Here I am gonna leave with some verses: I love you and Keep Smiling!

Psalms 119:28 My soul is weary with sorrow: strengthen me according to your word.
Isaiah 41:10 Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.
Psalms 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Psalms 138:1 Thessalonians 5:11-13 Therefore exhort one another, and build each other up, even as you also do. But we beg you, brothers, to know those who labor among you, and are over you in the Lord, and admonish you,and to respect and honor them in love for their work’s sake. In the day that I called, you answered me. You encouraged me with strength in my soul.

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