A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ, that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.” Maya Angelou.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.1 Peter 4:8
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.1 John 4:7
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.1 John 4:18
And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.Colossians 3:14
Hello Everyone, I hope this post finds everyone well and blessed. Today I decided to write about love, and the true meanings. The quote I first put on this blog, I have as my facebook status and my twitter account. I hold that quote close to my heart. I posted alot of Bible verses about love today because all of them touched me one way or another. I have had LOVE on my heart, mind, and spirit alot here lately. Maybe it's I'm lonely, maybe it's I need to take some time out for the day, or possibly I am glad with just being Lindsey for now. For those of you new to my blog a BIG welcome to you, I am sending out and all the LOVE in my heart to you as well.
As you guy's have read, I have not had the best of luck with dating. I have made mistakes, I have fallen on my face more than once. Even though I prayed with one boyfriend, went to church with two, that does not always mean GOD was in the relationship. I have been since the break-up with my last boyfriend for GOD to make his will in my life known. On his timing, not mine. I know I have set my standards really high for me to date someone but GOD knows what he wants with me. I do not in the slightest want to rush him or tell him what to do with my life. It is so hard now-days to find a great Christian man who respects you, and will understand you. I have on my left hand ring finger, a "LOVE" ring. Which means to me in my heart, I will not have sex again till I am married. But, it also means that I am all GOD's if he wants me to have the graces of a relationship he will bless it. My day will come. Someday my prince will come. I don't know when or how, but GOD always has your best intrest at heart. I heard from a youth minister one time that GOD answers things three ways: Yes, No, I have something better in store.
To me Love, is a hard for me to say or belive in sometimes. But, I know I have to turn it all over to GOD. Not just saying, "GOD take care of this for me." It is more of the lines of, "GOD, I turn to you and I give it ALL to you." Notice the word: ALL. Not just some, half, a little bit but ALL. The word all is defined as used with either mass or count nouns to indicate the whole number or amount. I also know that you can not just go to GOD when the storm gets rough, you have to go to him with ALL things. Are ya'll seeing a pattern of how I am loving the word ALL? We have to go to him when we have a headache to when we want his help or guidance. All things. I remember so many times, I am guility of when I am in a relationship to turn to the man I was with and say, "Fix it". Instead, I should of turned to GOD and said "GOD, Fix It". Because man has nothing on the Lord Jesus.
I know I am only day two of my diet, and boy its been a stressful two days. I been wanting Chinese like it is no tomorrow. But, every morning I get out of bed and pray for the new day GOD has given me. And, if it is to be my last so be it. You all know I love you, my family does, my friends, and I have nothing else to give or show for it. My diet has not only been a weight-loss plan but a get closer-to-GOD plan. I need to keep my eyes on the SON. I know that GOD has a beautiful planned, even if it is raining you have "Praise him in the storm." I know the meaning of the song, and it is very true. We have to praise GOD even though when times get rough. When we seem like there is no way. There are so many days I wanna stay in bed and think, "Ugh..I miss my dad I want to stay in bed." No, I get up and praise the GOD who gives because of him I was given a handsome and loving father. I still do, I have a father that loves me no matter what this world throws at me, or will hand me in return.
So, what I am saying my beautiful readers is I challenge ya'll is to tell someone you love them. I tell you every time I write because we never know it will be our last, it is true I do love you, and some of you the only time you hear it is through me. And, the keep smiling comes from usually when you tell someone you love them. A smile comes on that face, that just glows like the SON. You see how I got my catch phrase. I am gonna go work on some Social Problems. My email is open to prayer request, praise reports, diet recipes, just needing someone. My arms are open: booknerd4christ@gmail.com. I love you and Keep Smiling, Lindsey.
My Heart for the Lord
The Journey of Finding the Real Me Inside.
Matthew 5:39-46 But I tell you, don’t resist him who is evil; but whoever strikes you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also. If anyone sues you to take away your coat, let him have your cloak also. Whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two.Give to him who asks you, and don’t turn away him who desires to borrow from you.“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor, and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you, that you may be children of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the just and the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Don’t even the tax collectors do the same?
WOW! I had to use a long verse today! How is everyone? I hope everyone is well and extremely blessed! It is a goregous South Arkansas day it looks like. I am sitting here eatting my last waffle till I start my diet which I won't be able to have :( and drinking a cup of coffoe. I do not know how I make throughout my day without my four cups of coffoe. Yes, you heard me right I said four. This post is somewhat close to my heart, my mind, and my spirit. So, sit back get a Coke, coffoe, water, whatever you perfer and be prepared to enjoy. Well.. I hope anyway.
Last year around this time, I still was with the guy of three years we were in the midst of the rocky part of our relationship. We got in fights nightly on the phone, he wouldn't call at all some nights, and you would think that should of been a pure indicators that something was not right. We had "broken up" in July but we still talked every single day and still said I love you to each other and he kept saying, "Oh I want to be with you so bad, I just wanna be in person to ask you back again to." So, I asked him one night on one of our arguments, "Do you tell people your single or are you talking to someone?" He said, " I tell people I'm single." My mind thought, "Oh, okay I got ya." Well, Christmas was coming up I had bought his presents already, gotten a new red sweater to wear on our time together, gotten my nails done because he liked it when my nails were done. Well, he would usually come home the second week in December so that way we would have almost a month together. He ended up calling me on his lunch hour and said, "Lindsey, we need to talk." I thought, "Oh, he's not gonna get to come home till next week, thats fine". He said, "I, dont know how to tell you this, but I have met someone." "I think she is wonderful, and um she wants to know I am completly devoted to her." I said, "Are you attracted to her? Like do you guys have stuff in common?" He said, "Well, yeah she doesn't know about you and well, I wanted to be honest with you about her."I was mad, very mad I said, "Okay, (his name here) I am done." So, we got off the phone I went to walmart returned his gifts got my money back. He called me that night, we talked it was the last time we talked till....
On December 30th, I got an email saying a Blackberry message. I thought, "Okay, I don't know anyone with a blackberry." So, I open it anyway...it's from him. He said, I am on my way to Arkansas to stay at mom and dad's me and you have alot of talking, truth telling to tell you, and tears to cry. Well, I called him as soon as I stepped away from the computer. To my suprise he picked up the phone, he sounded mad and sad at the same time. He admitted to cheating on me the whole three years, having sex with her, honestly loving her longer than I had known about her. He told me the truth about so much, and it nearly broke me inside.
On January 15, I had worked that day, all day open to close. I was wooped tired. I worked so much that day because we were understaff and I had taken the day off the day before because me and Robbie went to Little Rock for her birthday. I left my phone at home because I didn't have any signal at the store so I just left it. It said I have two missed calls and two new voicemails. I thought, "They are probably Robbie." Because alot of times I would call her on my break when I went outside. The number showed his number. I called the voicemail... the first one sounded like the him I knew, it sounded like he was trying to talk low so he wouldnt get in trouble. Well, the next voicemail was the exact opposite. It envolved him and her yelling at me on the phone. It sounded like a man who had gotten caught. That night, I asked my mom could I change my number and let her listen to the voicemial. Keep in mind, after the night he told me the truth I didnt speak to him ever again. No emails, facebook, myspace, nothing. He didn't exist to me. That night, I admited to having sex with him. My mom and I had a huge blow out, and it resulted in me leaving and going to Magnolia for two days. I ended up getting a new number that Tuesday.
Today...
I have not spoken to the man of three years since that night. I have to be completly honest, I do not miss him at all. I don't miss the lies, the abuse, the negleation, the non-christian situation he made. I have had the best year without him. I went to Branson with my friend Robbie, which I paid for on my own. I have met an amazing friend who is an ex but he is an amazing friend. Me and Joshua admitted to still loving each other after all these years. And, me and him forgave one another. I have gone camping for the first time, I had frog legs for the first time. I have laughed more this year more than any in my life. I get to go to New Moon Thursday at 12AM which I am super pumped over. My list goes on and on. I have had some heartbreaks this year but all and all it has been a wonderful and blessed year.
Through it all, I learned with him and I not together. I am so happy with me. I know I need to loose some weight but I am gonna work on that. I got closer to GOD, I realized how wonderful he is. I realized that everytime I had a problem instead of going to GOD I went to him, and that is not how it is suppose to be. I learned of what kind of counselor, role model I want to of this world. I found out, that Lindsey is not a bad person after all. That I am not and will not be the horrible person he claims that I am. I may be single, but you know I know GOD has a plan for me. If it is to be married, with kids, to date, to make my own minsitry. GOD is control in all things in my life. And, I love him forever more for it. I learned what my favorite Bible verses are.
Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
If you or you know someone dealing with abuse please talk to tell them, get your Bible out and speak from your heart. GOD will tell you what to say or do. Here are some numbers:
1−800−799−SAFE(7233) National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-4-A-CHILD The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
1.800.656.HOPE National Sexual Assault Hotline
1-866-331-9474 National Teen Dating Abuse Helpline
This story and the information contain to it are very close to my heart, and I love you all so very much. And, if you need someone, anyone I am always here. My email for you guys is booknerd4christ@gmail.com. If you need me my heart is open. I love you and Keep Smiling.
Weight Loss For Lindsey
Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.Psalm 1:24
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in you.Psalm 33:22
Hey Everyone, I hope this post finds everyone well and blessed. Okay, as I have metioned I weight WAY too much. I am 5'4 and weight 214. YIKES! Gosh, that was hard to admit. I am starting Next Monday a diet and a steady workout routine. So, what do I ask of ya'll. Here goes:
1. What are good eatting diet tips ya'll can give?
2. Besides breads (which includes rice and pasta) and sweets what do I need to stay away from?
3. I plan on going two times a day once in the morning and another at night. Anything else you guys can think of as work out I can do?
4. What are good snacks to have, keep in mind I can't do to much sweet?
My goal is 140, I know that is a LONG goal but I believe in myself and with effort and prayer and timing I will get there. Thank you for the prayers, advice, and yelling at me to get it speeches you might send. I love you all and Keep Smiling.
Lindsey's Top 5's Updated
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. (Psalm 27: 1, 3)
Top 5 Books: This is really hard so I will pick one out of each catagory I think of.
Classic Literature: To Kill A Mockingbird - A must read for anyone, it will change the way you think.
Mystery: The Hound of Baskervilles - A Sherlock Holmes mystery
Fantasy: The Neverending Story - I so wanted to be Bastian when I was a kid. I went through a phase wanting to name my future kid Bastian.
Children's Lit: The Wonderful Wizard of Oz series. I can't chose one, if and only IF I had to besides the first book I would say "Ozma of Oz" is my favorite.
Poem: The Road Not Take - Deep meaning to me. Robert Frost is awesome.
Book Series: (Besides Oz) Probably either Babysitters Club or American Girl.
Play: Othello. Shakespeare is a must in every form of the world.
Romance: I will call this romance... The Notebook I love Allie and Noah so much its not even funny.
Bible Book: Proverbs or 1st Corithains I rotate back and forth.
5 favorite movies: One's ya'll do not hear me talking about alot. So that means no "Wizard of Oz" talk.
1. My Girl - I totally relate to Vada, how she misses her mom (in my case dad) and her best friend dies. Weeping Willow her poem at the end none stop waterworks over here.
2. Little Women - I love Jo! I fell in love with Christian Bale because of this movie. Jo was always my favorite character in the book. When I was younger I was pissed her and Laurie did not end up together but now that I am older, I see so much heat between her and Frederick.
3. Twister - This movie had me hooked by the first time I watched in 8th grade, Mr. Sims Science class. I loved the idea of chasing storms. Even though I am terrifed of bad weather myself.
4. Young Sherlock Holmes. My mom got me hooked on this movie when I was gosh maybe 10. She knew I loved Sir Aruther Connan Doyle so why not show me the movie.
5. The Little Princess - I loved Laviana! Even though she was a spoilt brat still loved her. Sara also states a very good point in this movie. "All girls are princesses!"
My Top 5 things I munch on:
1. Gum - I am huge gum chewer, since I quit smoking I found gum to be an easier to pop then light up. I perfer Speariment or something fruity.
2. Combos - for those who don't know what Combos are, they are pretzels packed with cheese or some kind of flavor. My favorites are pizza one's.
3. Sour Patch Kids - I love something sweet every once in a while and these those cravings.
4. Beef Jerkey - I love it regular, hot and spicy, teraiki, however you do it I love it.
5. Nachos - With Jalapenos please.
5 Best TV Shows:
1. Gilmore Girls - There is a longer debate over I am a Lorelai or a Rory. I say I am a Rory, but my friends whom have seen the show say I am a Loreali. It is a great and funny show.
2. The Nanny - I loved this show when I was younger and now that is on Nick at Nite I stay up to watch it.
3. Sex and the City - I love this show. The TBS version sure does water it down some though.
4. Jepodary - I fond memories of me and my dad watching this and see how knows more.
5. Touched by an Angel - I was so in love with John Dye, you folks don't even know. I have my autograph cast photo around here.
Bands I would love to see live:
1. David Crowder Band
2. Casting Crowns
3. Skillet
4. Chris Tomlin
5. Avalon
Things I would blow major money if I won the lottery:
1. Donate some to the church
2. Pay off the student loan I have now
3. Get an apartment of my own
4. Pay for school
5. Save it.
My Top 5 favorite songs at the moment are:
1. Second Chance
2. Amazing Grace (my chains are gone)
3. I praise you with the dance
4. Who Am I?
5. I run to you
My top 5 favorite smells:
1. Gasoline
2. Moonlight Path from B&BW
3. Sugar Cookies Baking
4. Fresh Cut Grass
5. PINK Fresh and Clean by VS
My top 5 travel destinations:
1. Paris, France
2. Rome, Italy
3. Atlanta, GA
4. Vermont
5. Dublin, Ireland
My top 5 things I want to learn to do:
1. Play an acoustic guitar
2. Learn to speak Italian
3. Sign Lanauge.
4. Ride horseback
5. Paint
My top 5 things I hate doing:
1. Shaving my legs
2. Washing Dishes
3. Clean up Salem's furball's
4. Not having enough hours in the day
5. Standing in long lines.
My top 5 things websites I visit daily:
1. School's website
2. Gmail/Yahoo
3. Google
4. Facebook
5. Youtube
Five things you would need to put in a trap to lir me in:
1. A pile of books which includes a Bible
2. Chinese food
3. COLD Dt. Dr Pepper
4. My friends
5. A notebook with pens
My top 5 favorite things to drink:
1. Coffoe
2. Dt Mt Dew
3. Dt Dr Pepper
4. Dt Coke
5. Sweet Tea
Learning to trust GOD.
Trust in the Lord, and do good;dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.Delight yourself in the Lord,and he will give you the desires of your heart.Commit your way to the Lord;trust in him, and he will act.He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,and your justice as the noonday.—Psalm 37:3-6
Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is doing well and is having such a blessed day. It is another goregous day here in South Arkansas. I am sitting at school with Robbie, and thought I would take a minute and write from my heart for a minute. Things in life, it seems are going by faster and faster. This year to me has flown by, things are changing, people are changing. And, hearts are changing. I do not know what to think sometimes, say or even know if it is worth in the end sometimes. Things are also changing at a pace in my life, I do not sometimes if I can keep up with. People in my life are tugging me so many ways. Ways sometimes I do not want to be pulled. My eyes bellow up in tears, I know I am not responsible for anyones happiness but my own. I just wish people knew that, its like no matter what sometimes your best is not good enough.
I am 24 years old, single, no job, no children, husband, wanting to go back to school so bad it is not funny anymore. And, in my mothers eyes I am a huge mistake. My mom have a very strange relationship, like I meationed in my post. She is one day my best friend and the next day she can not stand me. It is very confusing at times. She tells people how much I do not do. She embarsses me by telling them things about my past. It is hard for me not to dwell in my past when my negative is always blown in my face. I guess that is one of the many reasons I named my blog, Keep Your Eyes On the Son. Because, in the end, it is not going to matter what she or anyone else says but it is between me and GOD. My mom was married three years by the time she was my age.
Romantic Love? Do I believe in it? Yes, with all my heart I believe in it. It is something that can not pushed, texted, called, it is a choice. Now, keep in mind this is my opinon but I think love is a choice. Love is not saying oh I think we been together this long so I must love you. No, you can be with someone your whole life and not know them. You can not push or make someone love you. You have to be yourself and only yourself. Not, okay today I am gonna be country or tomorow I will be hardcore, or next week I will be needy. You have got to find yourself and learn to love and accept yourself before anyone else can make that choice to love you in return. I understand it is hard, and I am single maybe I do not know. But, I personally believe that you should pray for your future. If you want a loving husband/wife that is a Christian pray for them. Odds are, they are probably praying for you as well. Pray for your future children, either you have them naturally or not. They will be children one way or another.
Why must we wait? GOD never said life would be easy, but he did say it would be worth it in the end. We are to TRUST him in all that we do. Trust is something I can personally say is my hardspot. I think "oh so many people have hurt me" and let that get in the way of GOD I give it to you and I trust what your gonna do. Your gonna bring me a GOD-loving husband and give me children. And, if not I praise you till my last breathe. You have trust GOD will take care of you no matter what the opsticle. I have been without a job since May, I know people who have been without longer, but we all have to hold hands and get on our knees and realize GOD is and always will take care of us. You have to trust GOD, he know the thoughts, sorrows, pains, and wants that are on our hearts. I was told by a youth pastor one time GOD answers things three ways: Yes, No, I have something better in store. I belive that statement.
Blaming/Questioning GOD? Things in life are not supposed to be handed to us but they are however will be rewarding. I saw all the beautiful fall colors today, and I thought you know this is so beautiful. When we have troubles it seems like the first question that comes out of our mouths is, "GOD, why did this happen?" As much as we would all love to know the answers to the questions, today is not that day. One day we will have the answers, I think GOD has a compostion notebook full of questions from me. I am so guility of this one. We sometimes blame GOD for things like alcholoism, drug use, sexual addictions, anything really we can blame GOD on. This is my favorite Bible Verse Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9.
Okay, this is my rant for the day and I hope everyone is well and being blessed. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling. Forever in Christ Love, Lindsey!
Happy Birthday Joshua!
PRO 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.
As you all know I have meationed a guy named Joshua for the past and now you get to know the skinny on the ever so famous Joshua!
I met Joshua when I was 14 years old, when I was dating his best friend at the time, Kyle. Joshua was sitting at the computer and had this huge smile and his brown eyes just sparkled. I remember smiling back, to this day he said that and my eyes were the first things he noticed about me. We talked a long time and soon exchanged email address to keep in touch since I did not know when I would ever see him again. Joshua and I talked that night for it seemed eternity we talked about how what kind of movies were into to what music we were into to families. Joshua told me he was one of three children and he was a middle child, he said I have an older brother and little bit younger brother. It is funny his younger brother and I share a birthday. Joshua and I are the same age but I am four months older. Joshua was also in band and we went to different schools. My dad one October wanted to go to that school's ballgame since our team was not doing well and two the high school Joshua went to is the same one my dad went too. How cool! So, I see Joshua march in with the saxophones and then I saw a replica of him marching in with the trumpets. I look at my dad, and say I never knew he was a twin!? Joshua still laugh about that everytime we talk so not cool. Joshua and I had our up's and down's of our friendship and first up till April of 2003.
On April 8, 2003 me and Joshua admitted to one another after the dramatic breakup of me and his best friend, to try to dating. He accepted my offer to be my senior prom date, we had a blast that night. That was the night we both shared our first kiss as a couple and admitted we love one another. We spent that summer together going to New Mexico to do missions with his church, to coming over and watching movies, to going to Applebee's for my birthday. Even going to church together was wonderful. Me and Joshua dated well up to my first semester at college, but broke up. The first few months of our break up were rocky. But, we soon came to the decesion of lets be friends. We all know the, "lets be friends" speech. I did not know how true this would be till January 2005 hit.
Joshua started college and him and his family moved to a different Arkansas. I hadn't got his new number or even know where to start to contact him. My father adored Joshua, loved him as a son. When news broke out my father had died, Joshua was crushed but not only for me but for my family and his heart was broken. I remember coming home that night from the hospital and the home phone was ringing and on the other end it was him. He was crying and said, "Lindsey, I am so sorry. Do you need me? I will be there." I remember crying so happy to hear his voice, I said "Yes, Joshua I need you". He made a promise to me for me to call him and let him know when the funeral was. I let him and I was very doubtful he would come. I was thinking the whole time getting ready for my dads funeral, "He's not coming, he won't. I know him". As soon as the funeral was over, and his friends got to walk by and pay their respects. I saw my friends, Jennifer, Luke, and Robbie walk by. And then, I looked down and Christie grabbed my hand and said "He Came!" I look up and I see his eyes on me. I remember running out to find him after the funeral. I will never forget that hug, he had tears pouring down his face and as well as I did. I kissed him, and said "Thank you, Joshua". He laughed, "He said, I don't make a promise I dont attend on keeping." He rode with me to graveside with my friends. My mom told me he could sit with me at graveside, I will never forget holding his hand and crying and his arm around me to keep me safe and warm since I was cold.
July of that year, I started dating the man of three years. Joshua and I talked alot on messanger. I still familar talks our laughs, our cries, our your so silly. I told Joshua about him, lets just say he was not happy. He tried to tell me, "He's too old for you." or "He's gonna hurt you." Did I listen? No. I thought, "Oh, he's being jealous, he's being a man." The night me and three year boyfriend had sex, I came home in tears and told Joshua. Joshua and I had it out, when I say had it out that is an understatement. Joshua knew I wanted to wait till I was married. He and I talked about that for a long time. He knew that my purity was important. In resulting in our fight I blocked him on my messanger. I hated him, I hated him for the way he down the man I loved, I hated how Joshua thought he knew me, how he thought he knew my heart better than I did. Well, Joshua was right yet again....
Two years later....I had just gotten dumped by the man of three years. Something in my heart told me, unblock Joshua, time heals all wounds. I did, and to my suprising he was online! I jumped online and poped up, "Joshua Edward!" He typed, "Hey!" Lets just say we dropped the fight meationed it and forgot and dropped it. I will always remember this, most men would of asked about the sex of "Was it good?", "How long was it?" Joshua said this and I will hear it forever in my heart, "I forgive you". I never in my life would of thought Joshua would forgive me over my stupid and dumbness. We met for lunch one time me and Robbie went to his towns college for which Robbie got her Bachelors at. We set in Mazzio's for six hours! We talked for as long as I can remember talked about everything and anything. I will remember he said to Robbie, " I hate me and her did not talk for two years, I sure did miss her." That broke my heart in so many pecies you have no idea. Joshua and I went on a date, before I got with my recent ex. The only reason I chose the reason I chose the current ex over Joshua is because. Joshua I still saw 17 year old Joshua, that I dated. Not the Joshua who has grown into this handsome, GOD worshipping, Bible reading, my match in every single way, man.
Joshua and I are best friends, through it all we have. We have feelings for one another but with him finishing school soon we simply do not know. He is the only ex, my friends love, my mom loves, my dad adored, and my sister loves. He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he makes say I hate you to him but in the next sentence its an I love you. Me and Joshua have this theory, GOD has kept close in each other's hearts for this long and we keep trusting him GOD will know what will become of us. If we are to be boyfriend and girlfriend...wonderful, if not we are so incridbly blessed to be each other's best friend. Through all our heartbreaks, to deaths, to countless pizza's we have enhaled, to the many tickle wars we have, I am glad to say that I love this man. It took me a long time to come to this point, to realize what it truly means to be happy. And, this is how I believe GOD told Joshua and I to keep our promises to one another. Best Friends to End.
Happy 24th Birthday Joshua! With all my Love. To my partner in crime, to my best friend, to my Luke Danes (Gilmore Girls joke), my Chinese food partner, my music of my heart, my Razorback football partner, the arms that lift up when I am down! I love you! Lindsey :).
Blessings...big and small
Matthew 21:21-22 Jesus answered them, "“Most certainly I tell you, if you have faith, and don’t doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you told this mountain, ‘Be taken up and cast into the sea,’ it would be done. All things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”"
How is everyone on this second day of November? I am doing well, and very productive. Paper done for my Socail Problems class, Bible Study for the morning was done, bookmarked where I will read for tonights lesson, and have drunk down two glasses of orange juice and sprite (mix together for a sore throat remedy). It was absloutly goregous here in South Arkansas today! I had the day mostly to myself today since my mom had gone to get my sister so they could take care of some busincess. I just laid in my bed observing the quietness of my life. I went outside in our big backyard and played with Reese some. Some neighbor, was burning leaves so I am thinking that is why my voice is bit raspy today. Better keep to the juice and sprite, huh? As, I look at the things around I see how incridibly blessed that I am.
Yes, I miss my daddy daily. Oh, ya'll I can not explain enough how much I miss him! I wish you all could of met him. He was funny, he was smart, talkative, always a pal to anyone who needed one, a Christian, I could see GOD's love just shine through those big brown eyes. But, GOD has BLESSED me. He gave me a wonderful father, he gave me a father who was not abusive or curel. And, even though on Father's Day I miss him. I do still however have a Father. A Heavenly Father that loves me beyond measure. I remember telling that to a few co-workers one time and they had no idea what I was talking about so that is another great time I witnessed. I pray for all of you and your families. And, if your fathers are still living tell your daddy's you love him daily. Call him and say "Hey I was thinking of you today and I love you". My sweet best friend, Meredith recently not even a year ago lost her handsome and loving father to a brain tumor. If you guys would like to contact to her she is on my followers. She is the only Meredith. She is my true GOD sister! I love you, Meredith keep your eyes on the son sweetheart.
Through me loosing Lorna, my best friend of fourteen years it has been hard. Yes, the last fews of her life we were not very close but she was my soulmate in so many ways. We made each other laugh, we were each other's dates to things before boys no longer had cotties. But, through her love that shines in my heart I am willing to trust the people who do like to call theirseleves my friends. I am so incridibly blessed to have the ones I do. I love each and everyone of them. I tell them daily how much I love them. Do not forget to tell your best friends or friends that you love them daily too. Me and my friends tried to do things together every chance we get. Me and Meredith get together when her and wonderful husband, Russell come into South Arkansas. We talk daily on the phone and I bet Russell gets a kick out of what we talk about. Joshua, my best friend of ten years, whom will have a blog in a few days for his birthday! Joshua and I do not date but gosh I love that man. He was my high school boyfriend, and ladies you know the "Oh, we will be friend" speech. This man has kept to his word. I will let you know more about him tomorrow. My darling, Robbie whom is my Rosalie to my Alice. Her home is my second home. We are always together. Did I meation she's Lorna's couison. Oh, how I love my Robbie-Sue. And, last but not least my Magnolia friends I am so close to all of them I can not say I am there for others more than the other. I see them some and we talk alot. I love and am so blessed for these people.
My sister, Christie, whom I see the SON is growing in. Christie will be 20 in January. Christie should still be my little sister whom would come in my room and be my patient, play fingerpaints with me in the yard, or ride bikes with down a hill who could get their faster. GOD told my parents it would not be possible for them to have kids. Well, here me and Christie are. I know me and Christie fight, disargee pull each others hair out. But, I can do those things no one else. We are exact opposites in so many ways more than one. I love her so much and would do anything and everything for her. I am so glad to be Auntie Lin Lin to Reese. She has become stronger in her walk, and with me since our dad died. I believe that it is because of the passing of our handsome daddy a day before her birthday. I love you, Christie and keep smiling baby!
My mother, Lennie, who is a light that flickers in the SONlight. As much as me and her fight, argue, hurt each others feelings she is my mother nonetheless. We have the relationship that reminds me Jesus and Judus had. Jesus loved Judus even though he hurt me more than once but Judus just knew what would hurt Jesus. But, Jesus took in the pain and suffering not from Judus but all the sinners of the world. I take on sometimes not only burdens, pains, and sadness I take on hers as well. There are days that we are best friends, there are days we maybe say 3 words to each other, and then are days we do not even speak. I pray for her daily, that she will realize that things are gonna be okay, they won't be better but with GOD he will give her the strength to be strong.
My school, Southern Arkansas University, I told you guys I would tell you what school I plan on going back too. I will be going back to SAU in the fall. I miss it so much. And, I will contiue to write to ya'll daily even if I have a huge test the next day you will get a line saying I am well and alive with pizza (laughs). I will be majoring in Psychology and Sociology a double major. I will also be active in Association of Baptist Students, that is my second home while I am at SAU. I absloutly all the wonderful people and friends there. I am aware alot of my friends I made while I was at SAU are gone. But, that is a perfect chance to get to know more people. And, fall in love with more people. And, this will be my first time with people in my major so I will be making new friends there as well. I also plan on start on a diet while I am there so I can loose some weight my goal is a size 12. Thats 8 sizes! Can I do it? We will see what happends when I put GOD in my diet plan as well.
My Bible Study family, we range from male to female, young to older adults. We do not call ourselves a class we call ourseleves a family. Becuase in heaven we will be just that a giagantic family whom I can not wait to see and worship the LORD together. I love them all so very much.
You, yes, you my readers are also a great blessing in my life! I love reading when each and everyone of you updates. I love your comments! You guys have no idea how much love I have recieved from ya'll. For a girl from small town Arkansas, who loves books, changing lives, and her beautiful SAVIOR. I sent most of ya'll emails about my blog, you could of said, "No", "No intrested". But, you have opened your heart open to me and for that I am incridibly blessed and thankful. I love you so and Keep Smiling.
