You may be saying, "What terrible people you have been talking about!" But you are just as bad, and you have no excuse! When you say they are wicked and should be punished, you are condemning yourself, for you do these very same things. Romans 2:1 (New Living Translation)
Happy Halloween Ya'll! Be Careful and Have a great one!
You may be saying, "What terrible people you have been talking about!" But you are just as bad, and you have no excuse! When you say they are wicked and should be punished, you are condemning yourself, for you do these very same things. Romans 2:1 (New Living Translation)
This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. John 15:12-15 New King James Version Bible
Hey Everybody! How is everyone? I hope everyone is doing well and blessed! Well, me and mom ended up postponing our grocery store run to today. So, we went grocery shopping. Now this sister is pooped! I do not think we need groceries for a while. My family we buy for the month so all we really need during the month is bread, milk, juice...little stuff. No Biggie! I am so glad to be home, groceries are up, had my chicken nuggets and fries from McDonalds, watched an eposide of Touched by an Angel, now for some down right Lindsey time.
I do not know if you guys know or not. I am a HUGE Twilight fan. Yes, as in the movie. Last year, around this time me and Robbie prepared ourseleves for the midnight showing in El Dorado of Twilight. Did we get tickets? Yes, we did... we got two of the last ten tickets! I guess I shouldn't of waitted. But, we got them. So, yesterday I called Stars to see if we could purchase New Moon (the sequal) tickets. The guy was very nice who answered the phone and said to me, "Ma'am you better hurry they are saleing out pretty fast!" I grabbed my debit card and ran to my computer and bought two. Did I get them? Yes, this sister did! So, on November 19th at midnight me and Robbie Sue will be watching New Moon!
Who is my favorite characters you might ask?
Okay, look at me guys and gals! I am an Alice! Robbie is most definately a Rosalie. Her mustang we have stickers. On her drivers side she has I am a Rosalie sticker with a pair of eyes. And, on the passenger side (where I sit) says I roll with my Alice. :). My ideal man is a Jasper for sure. Someone who is senestive, funny, charming, Southern. Me being an Alice..if you have read the books know how she is. She's energetic, fisty, loves fashion, makeup, and books. Lets see....yeap thats me. Robbie bought me and her jerseys like the baseball ones they were that have our men's name on em. Mine says Team Jasper...Smoother than you since whatever date. I am so excited and ready. Only downfall...I think Robbie is converting to Jacob. I told her she can not convert to the dark side. LOL!
Am I dressing up for New Moon?
Negative captain! I am wearing my black leggings, purple monk turtleneck, purple ballet flats, spike my hair, and my makeup... Okay... maybe it does sound a little Aliceish. But, this is how I usually dress really now! Robbie is not dressing up as Rosalie. Lets pray not! She has grad school that night. I don't think they would like a girl coming dressing up in a black dress and heels.
My favorite book out of the series?
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for sure! New Moon is my least favorite! I am not a Jacob fan. Sorry for the ones who do I just have my ways. I always wanted Bella with Edward. Jacob deserved someone but I do not see him with Bella. Sorry Jake!
My theory on Twilight:
Me and my dear friend Joshua one day were talking about Twilight and how it appeals to men and women. He came up on this theory. Yes, I will admit the MAN was...grr...I hate to say this... Right!
Every Man Wants A Part of Each Girl. Each Girl has a quality of Every Type of Girl.
1. Bella - The Sweet Loving Carefree Girl.
2. Alice - The Spunky Sweet Girl Every Guy Admires.
3. Rosalie - The Firecracker. The Girl who can fight on her own.
The Men of Twilight and What We See In Them:
1. Edward: The protecter.
2. Emmett: The teddy bear you can cuddle with.
3. Jasper: The sensative and understanding man.
Now, it is all prooven that I, Lindsey love and obessed with Twilight. I love yall and Keep Smiling!
Be very careful, then, how you live -- not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.— Ephesians 5:15-16 (NIV)
most worn lipstick/ lipgloss: I wear mostly Pink Diamonds lip gloss from Mary Kay and Pink Passion from Mary Kay. You layer those it is absloutly beautiful.
most worn earrings: My silver hoops very classic. Simple and Elegant.
most worn shirt: I am HUGE t-shirt kind of girl. It would be probably be my Mulerider (giving away my college here) shirts, Razorbacks shirt, or John Deere ones.
most worn nail polish: I don't usually paint my nails so my nails are either natural or clear.
most worn shoes: My ballet flats. I have them in almost every color.
most worn hair products: Shampoo: Pantene Pro-V Ice Shine Conditionar: Same as shampoo Heat Defense: Treseme Heat Defender Hair Spray: Dove Pro-Age Gel: Some Dollar General brand (I hardly use gel) Moose: Dove Intense.
most worn perfume: If I am dressing up: Pink Fresh and Clean (I love that smell) Just going out for a little while: Moonlight Path
most worn handbag/ purse: My Wizard of Oz purse I got from my dad at Christmas we last had together
Where were you 3 hours ago? In my bed reading my Socail Problems
Who are you in love with? GOD, my family, friends, my followers.
Have you ever eaten a crayon? Ew no
Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yeap Fart Puddy!!
When is the last time you went to the mall? Oh my, I wanna say about two months ago
Are you wearing socks right now? nope
Does your family have a car worth over $2,000? We sure do! Momma just got a Ford Escape two weeks ago.
When was the last time you drove out of town? Thursday I went to Magnolia with Robbie
Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? No
Are you hot? Temperature? No I am fine
What was the last thing you had to drink? Sweet Tea
What are you wearing right now? Gray Mulerider shirt and atheltic pants.
Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it? depends
Last food that you ate? chicken nuggets but I shared with Reese
Where were you last week at this time? in bed like I should be now
Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Yes I bought some pantyhose does that count
When is the last time you ran? a little while ago to check on Salem
What's the last sporting event you watched? a football game i cant remember which one
What is your favorite animal? Monkeys and Frogs
Your dream vacation? Anywhere away from my town lol
Last person's house you were in? GOD's. Besides that Robbies.
Worst injury you've ever had? In kidnergarten I feel and busted my head open. 115 staples baby!
Have you been in love? once.
Do you miss anyone right now? Yes I do.
Last play you saw? The Scary Truth it was a play my churches youth did the other night.
What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? My smile, my eyes, and my personality
What are your plans for tonight? I don't know, I know I am going grocery shopping with momma later
Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment? Joshua
Next trip you are going to take? To Camden with momma!
Ever go to camp? yeap Camp Beverfork!
Were you an honor roll student in school? No, I made some C's darn that math!
What do you want to know about the future? Am I happy?
Are you wearing any perfume or cologne? BodyWash - Dove Intense Moisture
Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit? Some in November
Where is your best friend? Ones in bed, the other two are at work.
How is your best friend? One is doing okay frusturated, One is sick, last one is doing okay ready to graduate.
Do you have a tan? Hunny, I glow in the dark.
What are you listening to right now? Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin
Do you collect anything? Pencils (Nerd Alert), books, dvds, and makeup
Who is the biggest gossiper you know? no one i know
Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over? never have
Have you ever drank your soda from a straw? yes
What does your last text message say? I dont have texting
Do you like hot sauce? LOVE! I put it on everything
Last time you took a shower? few hours ago
Do you need to do laundry? I think i need to wash my underclothes... I think...
What is your heritage? Irish
Are you someone's best friend? Yeap Yeap
Are you rich?Not Hardly
What were you doing at 12AM last night? Sleeping
1. Thing you cannot leave the house without? My purse
2. Favorite brand of makeup? Mary Kay or CoverGirl
3. Favorite flower? Stargazers, Roses, Daises, Sunflowers.
4. Favorite clothing store? Old Navy
5. Favorite perfume ? Same as above
6. Heels or flats? Depends on the outfit
7. Do you make good grades? I have a 3.0 in college
8. Favorite colors? hot pink, kelly green, and black
9. Do you drink energy drinks? no i have enough energy
10. Do you drink juice? love juice
11. Do you like swimming? I cant swim
12. Do you eat fries with a fork? no
13. Favorite moisturizer? Dove Day Lotion if its not Dove Night Lotion
14. Do you want to get married later on in life? Sure
15. Do you get mad easily? Not hardly
16. Are you into ghost hunting? If someone took me that would be fun
17. Any phobias? Small spaces, Scary eyes.
18. Do you bite your nails? All the time
19. Have you ever had a near death experience? more than one
20. Do you drink coffee? Love it!
Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch? A box of envelopes
Before you started this survey, what were you doing? watching some videos on Youtube
What is the last thing you watched on TV? An hour or so ago
Without looking, guess what time it is 3:12AM
Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 3:15AM check it out! GO ME!
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? K-love on my computer
When did you last step outside? What were you doing? When I let Reese outside to take care of busincess
Did you dream last night? yeap
Do you remember your dreams? Yeap i write them down
When did you last laugh? a few mins ago
Do you remember why / at what? My room Salem ran into my door
What is on the walls of the room you are in? Lets see... The WIzard of oz poster, Twilight poster, Chinese calender, Gone with the Wind poster, a sign above my bed that says "The Princess of Oz sleeps here".
Seen anything weird lately? Not really
What do you think of this quiz? Its okay I hope my readers see more about me
What is the last film you saw? I watched the end of Working Girl
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Paris
If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? I'd donate some to church, charity, my family, school.
Tell me something about you that most people don't know. That I want to open my clinic. Ya'll know more about it than anyone in my real life do.
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? World Peace
Do you like to dance? Slow dance its been a very long time
Would you ever consider living abroad? sure
Does your name make any interesting anagrams? Love Dearly Men lol
Who made the last incoming call on your phone? Meredith
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? New Moon Soundtrack
Last time you swam in a pool? In Branson last March
Type of music you like most? Contempary Christian and Country
Type of music you dislike most? Rap
Are you listening to music right now? Yeap
What color is your bedroom carpet? Gold
If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? More booksheleves
What was the last thing you bought? a coke
Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? no but i want to so bad
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? heck ya!
Do you have a garden? no
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Sure do
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? Oh good gravy
If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? Robin Williams
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Old Navy or Barnes and Nobles
What time is bed time? When I get sleepy
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Once
How many tattoos do you have? none OW!
If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one? no
What did you do for your last birthday? i was at the lake with my ex and his family
Do you carry a donor card? yes
Who was the last person you ate dinner with? Robbie and Sunny (bible study sister!)
Is the glass half empty or half full? half empty
What's the farthest-away place you've been? New Mexico
When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Over the summer
Have you ever won a trophy? Yeap
Are you a good cook? I can be when I have the energy
Do you know how to pump your own gas? Robbie taught me
If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? Jesus? Or..L.Frank Baum
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? No
Do you touch-type? I type pretty fast
What's under your bed? Tuberware containers containing books and purses
Do you believe in love at first sight? No, thats called lust
Think fast, what do you like right now? Chinese food.
Where were you on Valentine's day? Me and Robbie went out for supper we were each others dates.
What time do you get up? depends
What was the name of your first pet? Copper
Who is the second to last person to call you? Robbie to say she was at my house
Is there anything going on this weekend? I am going to work at the church's halloween carnival for the kids.
How are you feeling right now? Crampy guhhh womanhood
What do you think about the most? My life.
What time do you get up in the morning? depends on my mood
If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? Instantly
Who would you tell first? My mommy and sister
What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? maybe a month ago, I can do all by myself (New Madea movie).
Do you sing in the shower? depends on my mood
What do you do most when you are bored? read
What do you do for a living? I'm working on that one
Do you love your job? I need a job
What did you want to be when you grew up? Christian Counselor
If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be? Christian Counselor
Which came first the chicken or the egg? egg
How many keys on your key ring? two
Where would you retire to? Probably Vermont
What kind of car do you drive? Dont have one but I want a Black Ford Escape
What are your best physical features? my eyes and smile I am told
What are your best characteristics? my personality and my faith
What kind of books do you like to read? Anything but romance novels
What is your favorite time of the day? afternoon
Where did you grow up? small bump in the road if you really wanna know where I live email me
How far away from your birthplace do you live now? I live here now
What are you reading now? The Bible (daily), The Widow of the South I start tomorrow, and Esther its tough being a woman bible study.
Are you a morning person or a night owl? night but with coffoe I can be a morning.
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no
Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? yeap
Do you have pets? a cat, Salem and dognephew, Reese
How many rings before you answer the phone? depends on who it is and how fast I get there
What is your best childhood memory? Ones with my dad and Lorna
What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? Ive always been a cashier
Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? This blog!
What is most important in life? Your walk in religon. I choose to follow GOD!
What Inspires You? Myself. I have other people that do. But in the end of the day its down to me and GOD. And, with that being said I can take on the world.
Thought yall would like to know me a bit more. I will write more later. I love you and Keep Smiling.
"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." Proverbs 4:23
Hey Everyone! Yes, this is going to be one of those serious blogs again. But, I am very passionate about this and I am going to rant for a minute about this. The other day I bought a ring a steerling silver ring that says, "Love is Patient, Love is Kind, and Love Endures all things."
At the age of 20, I was dating a man I was with for a year and a half. He and I were very serious with one another. He admitted over and over he could not wait till we were married. We talked about marriage alot. We ended up dating three long years. He is the man I meation, that was also emotionally abusive, which I did not see till my eyes were opened by GOD. We ended up that V-day having sex that one and only time we ever did. It was painful, not just physically but emotionally and spiritually. The main reason I did is his reaction of "If you love me we will". "We are going to be together always Lindsey, why not?" I cried out to GOD and said "GOD, Please forgive me." The man I was with thought I was crazy and insane and never tempted me to have sex with him again much less talk about marriage. So, I knew that I just made the hugest mistake of my life.
I am now 24 years old. I understand fully I can never ever get my virginity back. My first time was also my last and only time. I have made a vow not only with myself but with GOD that I will wait for my husband till the night we are pronounced husband and wife. I can not do this to myself anymore, I am constantly reminded that I will not get it back. But, in my heart I have given my heart so fully and completly to GOD. The ring on my left finger is my ring I bought. I will call this in my life my "promise to myself ring". That everytime I get discouraged of thinking, "When is it my turn?" "Why can't I be like the other girl's and not worry about it?" It reminds me that the man that truely loves me and wants to be with me, will forgive me for the mistake I made and will love me enough to wait with me. Because if he does not choose to do those two things then obviously he must not be worth my time.
Parents, if you are reading I pray that you talk to your kids, boys or girls. Have that Bible time with them, tell them about dating. If they have made to keep a choice, it is so much more than a signing a pecie of paper or getting a ring and putting it on. It is a lifestyle choice. I wish I could take back what I did, but I know that I love myself, GOD, and my future husband enough to wait. Pray for your kids, talk to them, and be open to them about things. Purity is not only from sex, but anything sexual as in "petting". Let your heart be open to everything. Kid's are having sex so much younger and younger these day in age. I already pray for my future kids. It is never too early. I am not even in a relationship, dating or marriage, but I pray for my future spouse and my future babies.
The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body...Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said 'the two will become one flesh' ..." [I Corinthians 6:13-16]
"The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife. Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control." [I Corinthians 7:3-5]
GOD bless you all and remember I am always here. I love you and Keep Smiling. Love, Lindsey :)
The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.— Psalm 34:22
Hello Everyone! How is everyone? Gosh, I need to post more often..I promise I will be working on it. Any prayer request? Any praise reports? Anything you wanna talk about? I had such a wonderful day today! Well, today I went walking to enjoy the beautiful sights of fall in South Arkansas. It is just stunning. If my camera loves me I will take pictures soon of all the beautiful fall colorage (is that a word?) *laughs*. I came in took a shower and got ready to go the bank. As you all know, or if not I am telling you now, I am unemployed and my unemployment came in today and so I went to the bank to put it in my account. Me, mom, and Reese pull up and I see this little girl whom I recognize but do not truely recognize till I get out. It is my favorite customer from when I worked at Dollar General and Super Foods and her momma! They are like family, I have seen BreAnna (the little girl) grow from three years old to she is ten now. Mrs. Melina (her mom) and her husband knew my dad so that is how I know the family so well. They were getting to their car, and she called me over and we talked for a good ten minutes she handed me a recent picture of BreAnn and $20. She said, "GOD just told me to hand this too you, I miss seeing you so much." BreAnn was not in school because she is running a 101 fever, poor babygirl. Ya'll be praying for her. I need to post her Halloween picture from last year. It is of me and her at my old grocery store, her grandmother made her a fairy outfit and I dressed up as Alice Cullen from Twilight.
I went to Walmart today and bought a few things. I bought toliet tissue, Combos (I am addicted to pretzels), loaf of wheat bread, and a ring that says "Love is Patient, Love is Kind" on it. It is absloutely beautiful. I came home bought two Beth Moore bible studies. I love her so much, yall should check her out. Welcome my two new followers! What a blessing to have you!
I know this is gonna be short but I will write more later on, I love you and Keep SMiling.!
Matthew 6:27-29 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don't work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. (NLT)
Hey everyone, how is everyone on this cold (well its cold here) Monday night? I am doing okay I guess, just have alot on my mind. I am also taking a break from studying for my Socail Problems class midterm, joy joy joy. Okay, I have a series of questions and I want you all to answer them either comment them or email them: email@example.com. Here goes....
1. My blog I think the world of, and I am constantly shocked at the outpour of love ya'll have given me. My question is this: Do you think I should change anything about my blog?
2. Any topics you wish I would talk about or you would like my opinon on?
3. Are there certain topics you want me to keep away from? I would hate to hurt any of yall's feelings!
4. I know I am young, I am 24 for the ones who do not know, do you think I am too young to be talking about the trails and tribulations I have had in my life?
5. I am working on pictures, are there any in paticular you want of my life?
6. If I shut my blog down would we all still keep in touch through email? I do not plan on shutting it down I am just curious.
7. Any comments or suggestions for my blog as more advanced bloggers, is there anything I can do to make it better? Keep it the same? Just delete it? Its ya'll call!
8. Lastly, I do not know if some of yall notice but at the end of every blog I say that I love you and Keep Smiling. Do you want me to stop saying that to yall.
Thanks so much, Lindsey.
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." – John 14:1-4
Hey Everyone, I hope everyone is doing well! I know 99% of yall do not know me personally and were sent emails by me to come to my blog. Which I love all the postive feedback I have gotten from ya'll. Ya'll have been wonderful. No, this is not a blog to say I am closing my blog this is a blog saying I am changing contact emails you can reach me at. The email you guys have is my personal email for my bills, school work, my writing, and etc. This email is the one I want ya'll and only ya'll to contact me: firstname.lastname@example.org. Whole lot shorter huh? Feel free to email me anything, anytime. I will be having some more people responding to my emails from my yahoo and as they come through I will be directing them to this addy as well. I hope you guys understand. I love yall and Keep Smiling.
How we thank God, who gives us victory over sin and death through Jesus Christ our Lord!1 Corinthians 15:57 (New Living Translation)
What is in my purse?
Lets see.. Pink Flat Wallet, Arkansas Razorbacks phone holder, journal, pink calender, bookmark, The Pearl by John Steinbeck, travel size Dove hairspray, hairbrush, CG compact base in Creamy Natural, Mary Kay Compact I got for my birthday, Jurty Duty letter, Sonic straw, Love my lips lipstick in Creme Mauve Delight, Bath and Body Works Lotion in Brown Sugar and Fig best fall scent, Mary Kay Lipstick in Pink Passion, Carmax, Shinylicious in Cola Float, Great Value Iced Tea Peach 5 stick pack, Doctor Burts Bee's Res-Q Ointment, Burt's Bees Hand Salve, Germx, Midol, 5 tampons, keys: house, LKT (Lorna) love LDM (me), pink flip flop, a scraecrow head, beaded Lindsey, Bestie that is a Ladybug (that is from Robbie whom has the other half). 5 pens, Tynoel, Buy one Pepsi get one Free, post its, eye glass cleaner, and my sunglasses.What is my style?
Comfort! I am a plus size woman, I wear a size 18/20. I try my best to look wonderful when I go out. Unless I am just running to my local grocery store or the Walmart here. I usually love jeans, I love jeans. I also own leggings, and capris in the summer and one pair of shorts. If I am wearing something plain I try to dress it up with acessories such as a ring or a braclet. My makeup is a must, Robbie still kids about the time I wore makeup when we went to clean out her car. I am adictted to ballet flats, I got use to wearing them on my days off from work and now where I go I wear them. I try to be fashionable. I can not stand to tight of clothes. I also love high heels and being five foot four that is good too unless your hunny or friends are the same heigh or shorter. My hair is shorter now so I usually spike out the ends of it and spray with hairspray. I wash my hair daily, and I take a bath daily. My apperance means alot to me, because one I am studying to be a counselor and two I just feel better about myself.
Ten Things I love:
4. My books
5. Chinese Foods
6. Bible Study
7. Mint Choc Ice Cream
9. The Wizard of Oz
10. My Future
Things I dislike:
2. The word "hate".
3. Romance Novels
4. Twitter (I am so sorry but I am not into it)
6. Finding the cutest outfit and its not in my size :(
7. People picking on folks
8. Painting my nails
9. My desktop, I want a laptop
10. My dad not being around.
My Top 5 Purfumes:
1. PINK Fresh and Clean
2. Bath and Body Works: Moonlight Path
3. Mary Kay: Velocity
4. Victoria Secert: Dream Angels (Knock off is what I have)
5. Bath and Body Works Brown Sugar and Fig
My Top 5 Favorite Colors:
2. Kelly Green
Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”—Romans 10:9-13
I was requested to do a blog on my walk with GOD, I promised to do this yesterday but my day was swamped and by the time I got home I was warn plum straight out. But, I did keep my promise I did do it this weekend. How is everyone before I start? I hope all is wonderful with everyone and everyone is having a safe weekend. My salavation story is very hard for me to tell but I am more than happy to tell you. I will be sheading a few tears as I give it.
I was fifteen years old a high school freshman, and I had everything I could imagine. I had an amazing best friend, Lorna. Had other friends whom I adored, was in band, hung out with my friends. I had watched for the first time the movie "The Craft". I was going through this, "I do not care attitude", "I will put a spell on you attitude". In the process of doing that I started hanging around a different bunch of girls. I did not start the drinking or smoking that they did, but I did however pick up a habit that I really till this day come in conflict with of not doing. That was cutting. I will always remember my first time, I was in my history class and the guy who still picks on me till this day (LAMEO) was embarssing me and the teacher just ignored him actted like he was doing nothing. I asked to go the rest room. I sit there crying, embarssed, I rampaged in my pockets and all I could find was a pack of gum and a paper clip. I remember unravling that paper clip and even though it was not that big of something to just slice my arm. I remember scrapping my arm with it. It hurt really bad, but I let it go. It seemed like everytime I was made fun of: I would ask to go to the bathroom and cut. Cut with mostly paper clips sometimes staples. This was in April almost May, and no one knew what I was going through at all. I had told Lorna because I wore long sleeves nearly every time I spent the night to spend the night with her. She told our counselor at the school, and she told my parents. My parents were pissed for lack of better words. And, till this day my mom always tells me to think. During that weekend, she invited to go to her revial at her church and they were talking about death in the Bible. I remember getting on my hands and knees sobbing like a mess I thought for so long that if I ended my life that I would make so many people's lives better. Like my familes, Lornas, my other friends. I am so glad that night I decided I did not want to die and I wanted to be one of his own children. I think back now to what on earth was I thinking? I would of missed out on Lorna's son being born, the last few years of Lornas life, my dads life fulfilling, me being a counselor myself. I guess this is one reason I want to be a counselor so bad.
Eight Years Later....
I still have struggles to be strong not to worry. But, as I got older I dropped the attitude of "The Craft" but I added to I wanted to be one of his children. I want to be a mission to all not only by my counseling but by my blog as well. It can be a two in one deal. I am not saying I am perfect, or I do not make mistakes but I am so very blessed that my best friend saved my life that night. I read my bible three times a day, I enjoy it my bibles expect one is written in with notes and highlights. I want to travel and do missions. When a girl or boy comes to says I want to kill myself I am so sick of living, I know exactly what they are going through. If a girl says my best friend just died... I have been there hunny. My blog is my testimony of how GOD works in all our lives. I am so blessed to have my blog and that GOD gave me that second chance. And, I think Lorna everyday for telling on me, not just to the counselor but my ultimate FATHER. I guess that is why she is so close in my heart. I wish I could of saved her's but I know that I have so much to tell Dakota when he gets older about how his momma was my lifesaver. And, why is my blog have its title? Because if you KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE SON.... he will never ever leave you or forsake you. Oh, how I love each and everyone of you.
"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke uponyou and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Matthew 11:28
I love you and Keep Smiling... I will write more later.
Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD. - Leviticus 19:18
I am taking care of some request be more than happy to post more I do not mind answering them at all. That makes my day when you guys ask. Oh, by the way I have missed you guys the old readers and welcome aboard new readers of my blog!
For the ones that requested pictures: I am working on them my camera is being a meanie. I will be posting some pictures of what Robbie looks like, a better pic of me and my sister how we look now, of me and my mom, my school I attend, what Meredith and Russell look like, Joshua (whom will have a blog in November all about him), and I am thinking about posting some younger pictures of me like high school memories. I am working on it and I am not ignoring your cry for the pictures. :)
What are the top five things that describe your life, personality, passions, how God wired you?
Adventerous: My life is never a dull moment I am always doing something. Either writing, taking a photograph, reading, counseling, fighting, loving, on the phone, school work, trying to find a job. It is always something. And, you never know what I will say next.
Stressful: As you have read, my father died five years ago in January it will be. And, I believe it to be MY responability to be the glue of this family. So stressful.
Exciting: Even when I am crying I smile. I try to make the best out of everything. There are days that are a challenge but I try to make everyday the best day possible. Because you never know it will be your last one.
Warm: I try to be an inspiration to others even though I am the one that needs to be taking probably most of the advice.
God-sent: I feel so loved and honored that GOD gave me life. It took my parents 14 years to have me, my mom suffered three miscarriages and one of which was twins. They told my parents that they will have a hard time getting pregant and come to find out my mom could carry girls and not boys. Hence: Me and Christie.
Bubbly: Like I said I love to smile. When I worked at the grocery store I worked at I had an older gentlemen that use to come in the store and he called me "Bubbles". I said whys that? He said even though you might not wanna be here you always make your customers feel so welcome and warm when they see you. Your not afraid to go that extra mile.
Honest: I am always honest. Even though it hurts sometimes I try to be honest.
Hard headed: Yes I admit I want my way sometimes. I want to be right, I hate being told I am wrong.
Understanding: Even though so many people have run me over in my life I am always willing to give them that second chance. I always admit to my mistakes and know that every human does so that is why I understand so well I guess.
Loving: I am told by my friends I polled I am loving. As you see I always tell ya'll I love yall and keep smiling. It is because I do love yall so very much, because on the road of life we are all on this road together. And, honestly you never know some of yall may never hear I love you but by me and if I am responable for that. Good! The reason why I say keep smiling its because usually when you say I love you a smile comes on your face, am I right?
People: Most of you found out about my blog from an email I sent out. I love people, I like observing, talking, giving advice. I guess that is why GOD gave me the gift of counseling. My father was the same way he loved everyone. At his funeral they joked he was the un-offical greeting at Walmart here in my town. I love knowing about people, where they come from, their lives, their goals and loves.
Psychology: As you know this is one of my two majors in college. I love knowing not only people but why people think the way they do, why are people so mean or nice, why do others label themselves as better? I love learning the human mind.
My Faith: I will write blog tomorrow about how I became a Christian. But, I could of easily become atheist after my father died. I was that clinical depressed, but instead of blaming GOD for my father dying I praised him for giving him health again, and well probably a good fishing hole too (laughs). But, I enjoy reading my Bible...I read it three times a day. Morning. Afternoon. And Bed Time. I love learning something new everytime I open it. I love learning about GOD's love for us.
Learning new things: I have never been the kinda person to just sit back and let others do things for me. I want to learn, I want to Microbiology not because my degree because I want too. I want to take sign lanauge because I want too. The only thing I am scared of is learning to drive, but I know I can do it. I want to learn so many things. I took every history class at my old college not because I had to because I wanted too. I went to visit the professor in July and he said he is thinking about offering a "Introduction to Law" class. I told him to sign me up if he does and its online Id be there.
The Arts: Music, Photography, Books. I love to read (book review coming soon) my dad used to joke with people when I was younger that him and my mother never found me in the toys but in the books. I was reading on a high school level at age nine. I will always remember I was tweleve years old at my local libary and I wanted to read "Carrie" by Stephen King. The libarian said, "Dennis she is too young for this". "Sweetheart, the childrens books are over here." I looked right at her and said, "I have already read them all." My dad just laughed and said "The girl wants to read, let her read". Thats why my dad never complained if I wanted to buy a new book. Mom's a different story.
So, heres the question I promised to answer. I hope everyone is well, and I have missed yall I will write more soon. I love ya'll with all my heart. And Keep Smiling.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:28-30
Oh how I love thee! Thank you for today, the breathe I just took, and the chair I sit in. Above All Thank You! Thank you for my family, for giving me a wonderful father who now joins you in heaven. He is a true blessing and I will care on his legacy of living life to the fullest. Thank you for my mother, yet hard as nails and rocks you gave her to me. She is a pistol and I pray that you keep her safe and show her the ways to live life and give her the strength. Thank you for my beautiful sister - as opposite as me and her are thank you for giving her to my parents. I pray that she seeks you in all that she does. Thank you Lord, for Cody and Reese whom have made my beautiful sister smile again. I pray that her and Cody seek you in their engagment, marriage, and all that they do. Protect little Reese, as he plays outside and as he plays with Salem. I pray that his seziures will not take him out of this world. Lord keep him safe. Lord, thank you so ever so much for sending Salem to our family he has brought laughter back into this house when it was so empty after daddy died. Thank you! Lord, I pray for my best friends Meredith and Russell. I pray that you put your love and your hands on the both of them and keep them safe. I pray to you that Russell finds a job, that one thing will be less stressful on them. I pray Lord you give Meredith the strength this year to grieve over loosing her father. Give her the courage to know that it will never better but it will be easier because you are her true FATHER and if she always keeps her eyes on you she will never be alone. I pray for their marriage, their future children, and their families. I pray that raise their children as wonderful and happily as they both plan too. Let them be healthy, strong, and GOD loving children. Dear Lord of Wonders, I pray for Robbie. I pray that Robbie as she goes to graduate school on Thursday. Give her to strength she can do all things if she seeks you first. Guard her heart, and protect her safe not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. I pray for her family, and keep them all safe and let them seek you in all their decesions they make. I rise Robbie up too you and lead her not to the path of tempetation. Lord, I pray for Lorna's family. I know that it is not easy for them right now, and perhaps it will never be. But, I left everyone of them up to you. Put your hands all around them. I pray that Dakota feels his mother's love all around him. And, know that he will indeed see her again. Lord, I pray for my friends in Magnolia. Some of them know you and some of them do not. I pray for the one's that do not find GOD's love in me or anyone else they pass and choose to pick up their cross and follow you as well. I pray for the ones who are Christian's. I pray as they work hard this week, as they prepare for the days ahead. Give them another day Lord. Let them know I love them all, and even though I have not seen them or probably will not see them as much. Let them know I love them and I am praying for them today Lord. Dear Lord, watch over Joshua. He is going through alot right now, he is working full time and going to school. He needs you Lord, I know he is a Christian but give him one more day LORD. Give him the drive that not only do I believe in him, but you believe in him. I pray for the man I was with for three years and you know who he is. I forgive him, Lord! I can not do this anymore to myself, I need to stop blaming myself for the pain he caused. The reason I cry at night is not because I am scared, it is because I feel like I am still being punished for the sin(s) that I did when I was with him. Oh, Lord I fall on my knees please forgive me. I want to scream, I want to punch something, but I know that is not the answer. Lord, I hide my face in so much shame because of him. I am scared to trust because of him, Oh Father please forgive me. Forgive me, for I do not want to walk around in shame or doubt anymore. I do not like to worry if people are talking about me because of him. My heartbreaks for him, how can a Christian man do this to someone? It is not my place to judge him, but Father I ask to protect him and his family. And, even though he might not see he did wrong....forgive him as well. I plan on being the stronger woman and forgive him, for I know you have forgiven me. Lord, I pray for our troops in the services keep them strong, and let them turn to you and return home to us safely. Protect the wives, the children, the mothers, the fathers, who have to wait everyday to know that if they son or daughter made it another day on this earth. Lord, protect their hearts. Lord, I pray for my wonderful readers. Most of which, I do not know in "real-life" but in your heart and eyes we are all brothers and sisters. I love them all so much. That is why I tell them at the end of every blog I love them. Becuase I truely do, and you never know that might be the only time they hear it in their life. Lord, I am drying my eyes and opening my ears to you and know that you have me in the palms of your hands. I pray that I will be a good counselor, a good student, a good wife, mother, best friend, blogger, girlfriend, and strength to the world. Forgive me Lord when I have fallen, help me back up. Dust me off and put me back on the trail of life. Even though I know it is a very long path and I may get scared time and time again. I know that you are always with me, when I stop to take a nap you guard me as I sleep. When I stop to eat, your there having food with me. I know you are with me always. Thank you, for sending your SON to die on the cross for us. I plan to Keep My Eyes On The SON, and never loose track of him. That is why I named my blog this because even though we all get lonely or scared, your always with us. Either one step ahead of us or one step behind us. Oh, I love you and thank you for making me the person I am and will become. Thank you for my tears I cry and the laugh I have. Give my dad a hug for me and tell him I love him. With all my love, Lindsey.
Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Ecclesiastes 3. 1-8 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
1. Do you like the fact I open up with a Bible Verse or would you like it at the end? I have read alot of blogs and it varies. I want to know what you guys think!
2. Any request? Like... you wanna know something in paticular about me I have not done or said yet? I will be writing about personal stuff?
3. Is there any subjects you wish I did not discuss? I dont wanna step any of ya'lls toes!
4. Do you want more pictures from my personal life? Like of my family or friends?
5. Lastly, do you want me to post prayer request that I have gotten from my town or from friends or anything?
I love you and Keep Smiling!