Keep your eyes on the SON

Trust in the Lord, and do good;dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.Delight yourself in the Lord,and he will give you the desires of your heart.Commit your way to the Lord;trust in him, and he will act.He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,and your justice as the noonday.—Psalm 37:3-6

Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is doing well and is having such a blessed day. It is another goregous day here in South Arkansas. I am sitting at school with Robbie, and thought I would take a minute and write from my heart for a minute. Things in life, it seems are going by faster and faster. This year to me has flown by, things are changing, people are changing. And, hearts are changing. I do not know what to think sometimes, say or even know if it is worth in the end sometimes. Things are also changing at a pace in my life, I do not sometimes if I can keep up with. People in my life are tugging me so many ways. Ways sometimes I do not want to be pulled. My eyes bellow up in tears, I know I am not responsible for anyones happiness but my own. I just wish people knew that, its like no matter what sometimes your best is not good enough.

I am 24 years old, single, no job, no children, husband, wanting to go back to school so bad it is not funny anymore. And, in my mothers eyes I am a huge mistake. My mom have a very strange relationship, like I meationed in my post. She is one day my best friend and the next day she can not stand me. It is very confusing at times. She tells people how much I do not do. She embarsses me by telling them things about my past. It is hard for me not to dwell in my past when my negative is always blown in my face. I guess that is one of the many reasons I named my blog, Keep Your Eyes On the Son. Because, in the end, it is not going to matter what she or anyone else says but it is between me and GOD. My mom was married three years by the time she was my age.

Romantic Love? Do I believe in it? Yes, with all my heart I believe in it. It is something that can not pushed, texted, called, it is a choice. Now, keep in mind this is my opinon but I think love is a choice. Love is not saying oh I think we been together this long so I must love you. No, you can be with someone your whole life and not know them. You can not push or make someone love you. You have to be yourself and only yourself. Not, okay today I am gonna be country or tomorow I will be hardcore, or next week I will be needy. You have got to find yourself and learn to love and accept yourself before anyone else can make that choice to love you in return. I understand it is hard, and I am single maybe I do not know. But, I personally believe that you should pray for your future. If you want a loving husband/wife that is a Christian pray for them. Odds are, they are probably praying for you as well. Pray for your future children, either you have them naturally or not. They will be children one way or another.

Why must we wait? GOD never said life would be easy, but he did say it would be worth it in the end. We are to TRUST him in all that we do. Trust is something I can personally say is my hardspot. I think "oh so many people have hurt me" and let that get in the way of GOD I give it to you and I trust what your gonna do. Your gonna bring me a GOD-loving husband and give me children. And, if not I praise you till my last breathe. You have trust GOD will take care of you no matter what the opsticle. I have been without a job since May, I know people who have been without longer, but we all have to hold hands and get on our knees and realize GOD is and always will take care of us. You have to trust GOD, he know the thoughts, sorrows, pains, and wants that are on our hearts. I was told by a youth pastor one time GOD answers things three ways: Yes, No, I have something better in store. I belive that statement.

Blaming/Questioning GOD? Things in life are not supposed to be handed to us but they are however will be rewarding. I saw all the beautiful fall colors today, and I thought you know this is so beautiful. When we have troubles it seems like the first question that comes out of our mouths is, "GOD, why did this happen?" As much as we would all love to know the answers to the questions, today is not that day. One day we will have the answers, I think GOD has a compostion notebook full of questions from me. I am so guility of this one. We sometimes blame GOD for things like alcholoism, drug use, sexual addictions, anything really we can blame GOD on. This is my favorite Bible Verse Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9.

Okay, this is my rant for the day and I hope everyone is well and being blessed. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling. Forever in Christ Love, Lindsey!