Keep your eyes on the SON

The LORD gave this command to Joshua son of Nun: "Be strong and courageous, for you will bring the Israelites into the land I promised them on oath, and I myself will be with you."
Deuteronomy 31:23Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9

I hope this blog finds everyone well, blessed, healthy, still standing, and a smile on their face or heart. I am just sitting here with Robbie at school, and taking some good ole' Lindsey time. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the prayers I have truely felt them. Sometimes we all get a little over welmed sometimes. Sometimes we all need to sit back, grab a cup of coffoe, tea, diet coke, whatever and just say, "I can not do this anymore, Jesus take the wheel of my life." It has been a rough five years for me as ya'll have read and I am enjoying the ever so important me time. I need time to breathe, to laugh, to cry, to hit something, to curl up and go to sleep all day if I have too. My eyes were opened wide when my dad died, realized we are not guarntted a tommorw, another minute, heck second.

I miss my dad every single moment of every single day. But, I know my dad is so very proud of me. I made mistakes, I did some lying, I stayed in a heap of trouble but he forgives me. Just like my heavenly father does. Forgiveness. I have to learn that reguardless, I am forgiven. Not to dwell on what happend, or what went on but learn that in the end it is not gonna matter or GOD already forgot about it. Sometimes, you just need to take a day, a hour, thirty minutes just for yourself. I know that is easier said than done sometimes. But I have learned, I need to take at least 30mins for me a day or I will not be right. Because that is how we hear our best lessons from GOD. Psalm 46:10 (New International Version)10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

I am learning to be proud of me, and know that I can do all things. Philippians 4:13 (New King James Version)13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Even when I fall on my face he still says I have the faith and the courage to move foward. I am so blessed to have such a loving Father that gives me the strength to do all things. I know that I am going to be the best counselor GOD is going to make me be. I am going to be a great girlfriend one day, a great fiance one day, a great wife, a great friend, a great daughter, a great bible study partner, and a great Chrstian. Some of these things I already am, but before you think I am getting cocky I'm not. I am working on these things daily and that is how I come to be whom I am.

I am learning it is okay to be Lindsey. I am an intresting soul. I am blessed of how GOD made me. He made me a Chinese loving, classic book reading, loves kelly green and pink, note taking machine, and Bible reader for a reason. I have faults - we all do every single one of us. I dare you to say you don't I will show you differently. I have struggles like any human. Mine might be different from yours but it is okay to be not perfect. I love to laugh, and I do not and will not regert doing so. I'm learning more and more about me as the days go by. I'm learning whom I can and can not trust. I am learning that I am not alone. My catchphrase in high school was You are not alone. But, one of my beautiful readers reminded me of that on a comment. Thank you sweetie, I love you for it.

When life throws lemons make lemonade. I am learning not only to make the lemonade but a lemon icebox pie (my favorite by the way). You gotta roll with the good AND the bad. I know it has only been a few days since my dramatic post but I have slept more and probably cried more I have in a very long time. I guess I needed the tears. I am learning to find the good and the bad and say, "It's gonna be okay." On a previous post, I listed things I want to do before I die. You know I really did NOT need to post that because what if I died right after I type this. Is it gonna truly matter if I did all those things. All, I want for myself is that my GOD, my family, and my friends know that I love them and how much my love for the LORD meant to me. I'm learning to love Lindsey.

So, what I am saying everyone is Thank You and your girl is still standing. I am still here, I am still me. But, I am doing better, stronger, and learning. Like a country song my dad use to sing to me, "Lifes a dance and we learn as we go." Because every time we look there is something we learn, learning is what makes us human everyone has the ability to learn. Sometimes we are just to hardheaded to listen. I guess I was to hardheaded to just listen. I love you guys more than words can say and Keep that smile.