Keep your eyes on the SON

New Blog

2011-11-07T22:23:00.000-08:00

Im gonna attempt a blog again its been almost two yrs and I have alot to say so: please go to the link and follow:

http://lifelessonswithlindsey.blogspot.com/

A Move For Lindsey

2011-04-17T21:57:00.001-07:00

http://lifelessonswithlindsey.blogspot.com/ I havent started writing yet but please come here and follow me! I love you and Keep Smiling!

Where Oh Where have I been?

2010-09-12T20:24:00.000-07:00

I am fully aware of me lacking in writing there has been alot going on and here I will tell you all my story.

How is Robbie (the best friend from home)? In June, Robbie's dad died. He was fiftysix years young. He had complained of chest pains all day while at the lake, funny thing is I was at the lake at the same time. For Christies bachelorette party. I left early to come home take a nap and Robbie called and wanted to go to Magnolia. We got to about Camden and her cell phone rung it was her brother, Jeremy saying their dad was getting Metlifed to Little Rock. Around three thirty that morning Jerry went home to the Lord. It has been a hard time for Robbie, Sonya (her mom), Jeremy, and PJ but my prayers and heart have been there with them.

How is Joshua (the high school love)? About a month ago he got married. No not to me. And, now he is divorced. He is going through a really tough time. I do not want to put all the busincess out there but my heart was telling him he is moving way to fast for this. But, sometimes you have to watch the people you love get burned. Just like he did with me of three years, now its my time to shed some tears for him. I am praying for him and one day he will learn to trust again and someday will find a woman worthy of his wonderful love.

How is my job? I am in love with it. Somedays are easier than others but I am in love. My kids are great they become like your babies. I work with a classroom of about 24 on average and they sure do keep ya on your toes. They are a true blessing and I see so much promise in each and everyone one of them. Waking up being Ms. Lindsey puts the brightest smile on my face.

How is my sister? Married. The wedding was beautiful, as soon I know how to work my scanner I will show some pictures. Very much purple and pink (lol)! She and I have gotten closer since she has been gone. I end up going back to Magnolia with her everytime she comes down it seems like. Me and Cody (her husband) have gotten closer and is more like a brother to me than a brother in law. About two weeks before they got married both of them accepted the LORD as their personal Savior and were baptisted. It made me cry to be honest with you. I love my sister, we shop together we get along so much better and I miss her alot.

How is my mom? Oh, shes mom. Same ole Same ole. She is going to doctor appointments, cooking rotating nights, putting up with me.

How is my relationship with Christ? For a while I felt it slip, but my heart is healing. I am learning to trust again, not only people but GOD. Trust is a big thing to have.

And, how am I? Im ...hm... Im making it. Hourly. Minutely. Secondly. Ive lost 30 pounds since last August. Do not know how but I have. I am not gonna say my heart was not broken when Joshua got married because it was very broken and for a moment I lost touch with Lindsey. But, I am okay now. Even though he is going through things I have to be strong for Lindsey. Because at the end of the day I answer for me and only me. I have been drying Robbie's tears she cries. I know the pain, the tears still make me cry. Her dad was like a dad to me growing up. This is short but I wanted you all to know I am still alive. I will write soon, dont know when or how but I will. I love you all and I have missed you.

Happy Easter Ya'll!

2010-04-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

Mark 9:9 And as they were coming down from the mountain, He gave them orders not to relate to anyone what they had seen, until the Son of Man should rise from the dead.

Hello my dear friends, Happy Easter to everyone! I hope this blog finds all of ya'll loved, blessed, and probably full of Easter goodies.

Yesterday, around two in the afternoon we moved my sister's fiance from Camden to Magnolia into this GOREGOUS 1bedroom apartment him and Christie will live in when they get married in June. We made two or three trips back and forth from Camden to Magnolia. And, I had not ate nothing all day, I know HUGE mistake, I was snippy at everyone and everyone kept calling me at the worst times. Well, me and momma were about to leave with the last load of stuff momma's cell phone rung and it was my Aunt Irene. She called to tell us my cousin (even though me and Christie call her Aunt) Jean was at a Easter egg hunt with Bailey, her granddaughter at the church and was feeling light headed so she headed back to the car and told her husband. When Dusty got to her she was unresponsive. At first they thought it might of been a stroke, but when me and momma went to see her she knew who all of us were. They think its just really bad seziures but they do not know what is causing them. She is now in Baptist in Little Rock, so everyone please praying for my dear cousin Jean. I will keep you guys posted as I find information out.

As for myself, I am we had ham, creamed potatos, green bean bundles, and rolls. Then tonight Robbie brought me some Jelly Belly Beans the Easter Bunny left at her house and a sweet card! This week has been crazy, and this week starting today is gonna be equally as crazy or madness. How many of ya'll went to Easter egg hunts? How many of yall went to parents home? Some of yall stay home and was like I am not moving. LOL! As for me and my house me and my mom went to church and ate thats about it. Well here has been a wrap up of my week and this week to come...

Okay, tomorrow I leave for Hot Springs for a day and a half of training for First Step! So, me and momma will be staying the night down there. Be praying as we travel, we will have to be there at 8AM! So, from our house it will be putting us at leaving at 6AM, yes I better have some coffee. I am very excited and this is a wonderful opportunity! I train in Hot Springs tomorrow and Tuesday and then come home on Wenesday and Thursday and train in Fordyce where I live. And then on Friday I am....

Working but besides that Robbie got with her refund me and her tickets to the Lady Antebellum and Tim McGraw tickets!!!! I am very excited, now if Tim sings daddy's song I might just have to cry a tear for my daddy. But I am very excited, this week is gonna be jam packed with goodies. So, this is a short blog but I need to get my rear end in bed. I love you all and if you have prayer request post below or email booknerd4christ@gmail.com Remember always, I love you and Keep Smiling!

These are a few of my favorite things...

2010-03-29T03:06:00.000-07:00

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
Matthew 6:25-27 New International Version

I found this tag going around list 50 things about yourself maybe others do not know, well I thought hmmm maybe I should give this a whirl I do love to tell you guys more about my life not just my spiritual life but what I am like off of the blog. So here goes..

1. I always check out at least three libary books.
2. I love photographs, it doesnt matter what I love taking them.
3. I’m not materialistic or spoiled.
4. As hard I know it won't happen my mother will never be proud of me or accept me.
5. I’m loyal to the people who have been there for me.
6. I love the way I look in glasses. I don’t even want contacts.
7. I have an awesome CD collection it goes from Judy Garland to Led Zepplin to Avalon to Backstreet Boys.
8. My mother constantly reminds me of how much I have messed up in life.
9. My parents were exact opposites in everyway.
10. I have a relationship with Jesus and know he loves me
11. I am rather quiet around my house because of the lack of someone to talk to but when I am with my friends I am the loudest.
12. I read all books expect romance novels, I find it boring and doesn't keep my intrest.
13. I cry real easy and find it hard to stop sometimes.
14. I do not cry at home, if I do I feel guility and stop as soon as I hear my mom's footsteps.
15. I am determined to be a friend to my kids as well as a parent.
16. Me and my sister are opposites she is slowly turning into my mother.
17. I love breakfast could eat it for every meal.
18. I do not mean to talk about my mom or sister but I feel very alone here.
19. Joshua, has been my best friend for 10yrs and he knows me better than anyone. I can type "hi" and he knows something is wrong.
20. Robbie, is a sister for another a mother, I tell her things that would make the cats meow.
21. I hate when people change when they get a boyfriend, married, engaged, or have a baby.
22. Until I met Lorna I did not have many friends, I spent most of the day with a book and was reading on a fifth grade level at five.
23. Sometimes I perfer to be alone than be with people, but at the end of the day I do not want to be alone.
24. I am working on my driving, I am very scared of it because my mother makes me feel like I am such a screwup.
25. The main I cry these days are because of the things my mothers blows in my face.
26. I have tried to kill myself before.
27. I miss my daddy so much. Even though we disagreed and had arguments he listened to my heart and did not make me feel guility.
28. I love Diet Coke and Diet Dr Pepper.
29. I refuse to wear strapless shirts or sleeveless if I wear sleeveless I have a small jacket to go with it.
30. I cry everytime I read The Wizard of Oz it makes me think of my dad reading to me when I was little.
31. My cat gets on my nerves but I love him reguardless.
32. I love calming smells. Like lavender and vanilla.
33. My Maid of Honor dress is strapless but I have a shaw to go with it. First strapless dress I've ever worn.
34. Unless Joshua goes with me I will not go to my high school reunion.
35. I love ballet flats, I have them in almost every color.
36. I try to make the best out of everything even when I am crying I try to make myself laugh.
37. About six months ago Joshua got me hooked on Mafia Wars on facebook, I think he has created a monster.
38. If you have not noticed Joshua is a big part of my life, he is very much so. We dated at seventeen I did not love him as my boyfriend then. But, at a twenty four year old single woman I love him beyond words.
39. If I make you a promise I try very hard to keep it.
40. I hope not only to make myself happy, but to show my mom I made it on the other side.
41. My kids will know Lorna as Aunt Lorna.
42. I want to have a little girl so bad one day I can taste it her name will be Emma Grace.
43. I also learned about Twilight from Joshua, are we sensing that this man has created a bad monster in pop culture.
44. I read my Bible three times a day and find verses that speak to my heart I write them down in my Bible Study journal.
45. My favorite Wizard of Oz character is the Scarecrow. He is very underestimated and he loves to make others laugh and a loyal friend. Sounds like me?
46. The literay character I relate to the most would be Jo March out of Little Women. I try to stay strong but when people step on my heart it breaks, I love to write, she loves actting in plays, and her best friend is a man.
47. I have post it's all around my computer screen's for a reminders of things. Some I need to throw away.
48. I do not pluck my eyebrows instead I get them waxed I do not have the patience for plucking.
49. I only trust a few people in this world there are only three men I trust: my father, GOD, and Joshua.
50. I try not to give up.

Are you lost and want to be found?

2010-03-28T03:49:00.000-07:00

This is from Chick Publications so this is just a direct copy and paste...

The Bible says there is only one way to Heaven
Jesus said: "I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father but by me." (John 14:6)

Good works cannot save you.
"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast." (Ephesians 2:8-9)

Trust Jesus Christ today! Here's what you must do:
1. Admit you are a sinner.
"For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;" (Romans 3:23)
"Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:" (Romans 5:12)
"If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us." (1 John 1:10)

2. Be willing to turn from sin (repent).
Jesus said: "I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish." (Luke 13:5)
"And the times of this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent:" (Acts 17:30)

3. Believe that Jesus Christ died for you, was buried, and rose from the dead.
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." (John 3:16)
"But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners. Christ died for us." (Romans 5:8)
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved." (Romans 10:9)

4. Through prayer, invite Jesus into your life to become your personal Saviour.
"For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." (Romans 10:10)
"For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." (Romans 10:13)

What to pray: Dear God, I am a sinner and need forgiveness. I believe that Jesus Christ shed His precious blood and died for my sin. I am willing to turn from sin. I now invite Christ to come into my heart and life as my personal Saviour.

"But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:" (John 1:12)
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." (2 Corinthians 5:17)

If you have received Jesus Christ as your Saviour, as a Christian you should:

1. Read your Bible every day to get to know Christ better.
"Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." (2 Timothy 2:15)
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." (Psalms 119:105)

2. Talk to God in prayer every day.
"And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive." (Matthew 21:22)
"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God." (Philippians 4:6)

3. Be baptized, worship, fellowship, and serve with other Christians in a church where Christ is preached and the Bible is the final authority.
"Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:" (Matthew 28:19)
"Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching." (Hebrews 10:25)
"All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:" (2 Timothy 3:16)

4. Tell others about Christ.
"And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature." (Mark 16:15)
"For though I preach the gospel, I have nothing to glory of: for necessity is laid upon me; yea, woe is unto me, if I preach not the gospel!" (1 Corinthians 9:16)
"For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek." (Romans 1:16)

Sometimes I forget that not only Christian read my blog or find it non-believers do too, and I thought posting the information from this website could be very useful. These are amazing Bible verses I have marked them in my Bible, I hope this falls into the lap of someone who needs it. I have woken up at 6AM with this on my heart and mind. Be praying for someone today, look over prayer list if you want to your choice email me (booknerd4christ@gmail.com) your prayer list and I will pray for them as well. Do not worry what you email me is between us unless you tell me it is okay to share. I would never put anyone on blast here. We are family here we just don't do that. I have a few that have been on my heart:
* I have not meationed to ya'll I passed my drivers test I now have my permit and I am learning to drive. Yesterday was my first time out since July and I think I did okay. We drove from my house, I packed out and turned with a signal on yesterday. It went really well, keep praying I have till September 24th till it expires.
* A few of my friends, like I said I won't put none on blast but be praying.
* Next Monday, I start training in Hot Springs for two days then come home and train here. So be praying for me and momma as we travel.
Thats about it for now, I will try to write more tonight if I don't please don't be angery with me. Remember I love you always, and Keep Smiling. Your sister in Christ, Lindsey.

Sillyness to brighten my day.

2010-03-25T22:15:00.000-07:00

How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news of peace and salvation, the news that the God of Israel reigns! Isaiah 52:7 (New Living Translation)

I love the fall
I love to read
I love playing with makeup
I have to balance my checkbook to the penny EVERY time
I would love to have a library in my next home
I love to smell new books/magazines... same goes for old books.
I talk so fast people wonder how I'm from the South.
I read an average of 2 books a week.
I LOVE Diet Coke.
The Lord is teaching me to trust Him in a deep way
I have the cast of Touched By An Angel's autography before Valerie Ber. joined the cast. I swore me and John Dye (Andrew) were gonna be married when I was 14. *Laughs*
i love eating fruitsnacks.
My best friend is a man get this guys and an ex. I guess it comes with ten years of putting up with each other. You know I love Joshua if you are reading this.
Always have a Bible Study in the works
I don't like syrup on my pancakes.
I eat my scrambled eggs with ketchup. I used to think this was gross till my dad died and he used to do it now I cant help it.
I love to laugh!
I LOVE making lists!

Happy Birthday Lorna!

2010-03-25T00:03:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 17:9 Love prospers when a fault is forgiven, but dwelling on it separates close friends. 1 Peter 4:8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Hey Everyone, I hope this blog finds everyone well and blessed. Today is a specail day in my heart and in my life. My darling friend, Lorna would of been 25 today.

In the first picture of me and Lorna in dresses was at our Senior Night. Senior Night was when the Junior Class would honor the seniors. They predicted me and Lorna would be in the nursing homes chasing each other in our hot pink wheelchairs. We were exact opposites in physicality, she was skinny and I was not, she was blonde and I was a burnette. We both stood at 5'4 however. Every summer we would spend together until she went to her sister Leslies and the night she came back we would get together have tacos and a movie night. Lorna and I both did not have junior prom dates so we decided to be each other's. We had a blast we danced with each other, took many pictures on disposible cameras together.

I met Lorna when I was seven years old in second grade. Lorna and I both had Mrs. Freer as a teacher on the first day she set me and Lorna close to each other. We both were very shy, and had nearly matching shirts. Our mothers went to school together that were not that close but knew each other. Me and Lorna on that first day went and played together on recess talked about books and dolls. She gave me her phone number and her exact words were, "I see a friend in you". Over our second grade year we were moved alot because we got so close and the teacher could not shut either one of me and her up. Two shy girls became the best friends. Lorna showed me the power of friendship any more ways than one. As we grew into women, our friendship did not fade. We would go to church together and eventually she is the one who led me to be a Christian. Every weekend either she was over here at my house or I was at her's. By the time we turned nine I was forbidden to call her parents Mr. and Mrs. Thompson it was Momma and Daddy just like it was over here. Lorna was one of six kids she was the baby girl. All the sister's had L names and funny thing is Lorna used to joke and say, "Your just another L over here". My first and only horror movie, Carrie was watched "together". I could not spend the night with her that Halloween because I had gotten sick but we rented the same horror movies and talked on the phone so we could be "together". We watched Carrie and when the hand pops out of the grave I think Lorna slept with her momma that night. I know I did.

In high school we had our up's and our downs but at the end of the day the fighting was over with. Lorna and I our sophomore year had every class together but two and even then we were right next door to one another. I was in band she was in the next room in Art. I was in Biology, she was in Physical Science. I was teased alot in high school for being overweight and still am by some of my classmates. You would think they would be grown up by now? Through my tears I laughed, she always had that way of lifting me up. Lorna left behind a handsome son I have so much to tell when he gets older. His name is Dakota, and what a blessing he is indeed. Here is the following of what Fordyce News Advocate had wrote up for her service:

Lorna Kay Pennington 1985 - 2006 Lorna Kay Pennington, 21, of Fordyce, died Wednesday September 27, 2006 in Camden. She was born in Warren, AR on March 25, 1985. Lorna was a homemaker and a member of the Temple Baptist Church in Fordyce. She is survived by her parents Myzell & Janet Thompson of Fordyce, Ar; her husband James Michael Pennington of Fordyce, AR; a son Dakota Raye Pennington of Fordyce, AR; a brother, Christopher Thompson of Magnolia, AR; four sisters, Laura Herrington of Rison, AR, Leslie Hesselbein of Dover, AR, Renee Reaves of Fordyce, AR, Lana Massey of Camden, AR; and her grandmother, Ivanette Williams of Fordyce, AR. Funeral services are 2:00 pm Friday September 29, 2006 at the Benton Funeral Home Chapel. Burial in Wheeler Cemetery, with the Rev. Mike McEuen & Rev. Bobby Hartgen officiating. Arrangements by Benton Funeral Home of Fordyce.

Heres What the Camden Paper had to say:

Camden News Paper:By DONNA COLLINSStaff Writer

The condition of a Fordyce man and his child have improved after they were injured when the car the father was driving hir a building earlier this week. The man's wife was killed in the accidentAccording to St. Joseph's Mercy Hospital in Hot Springs James Michael Pennington was listed in stable condition today, an improvement from fair condition on Thursday.Pennington's wife, Lorna, was killed in the Wednesday accident on Adams Avenue. The couple's one-year-old child, Dakota, was airlefted from Ouachita County Medical Center to Arkansas Children's Hospital in Little Rock.Dakota's condition was listed today as good, according to a Children's Hospital spoleswoman.Lorna Penningtin, 21, who was reportedly seven months pregnant, was killed when the coupl'e car hit the building at the corner of Adams and Center that once was the Zodiac Club. The builing was being used for storage.Police believe the couple was in route to Ouachita County Medical Center.Lt. DeMoyne Gray of the Camden Police Department's Criminal Investigation Division said today that he spoken to family members who said they had given the couple directions to the hospital.Gray said he hopes to travel to Hot Springs today to interview Pennington, but added that if he did talk to Pennington, the conversation could be limited based on Pennington's condition. Gray say police do not suspect any illegal behavior, but police do want to know as much as possible about what may have contributed to the accident.Witnesses have told police that the car was speeding, ran a red light at Grinstead and Adams, then while attempting to pass a wehicle, clipped and damaged that car, went out of control and hit the building

The night Lorna died I wrote the following poem:

Beautiful Angel Written By: Lindsey Denise Martin

Beautiful Angel in the sky up so high.
Beautiful Angel spread your wings and keep us safe.
Beautiful Angel shed no tears and take away all our fears.
Beautiful Angel reach up so high and then down low for hug to us.
Beautiful Angel with the beautiful eyes watch us and lead not a stray.
Beautiful Angel with the pale skin send no rain but sun full a ray.
Beautiful Angel with the beautiful voice sing us one last song.
Beautiful Angel was just like you and me she did right and wrong.
Beautiful Angel what song is it that sing you sing so might.
Beautiful Angel sings of her family and her friends were her light.
Beautiful Angel sends love to her mate and a kiss or two.
Beautiful Angel sends hugs to her mommy forever and before she parts a quick I love you.
Beautiful Angel takes her daddys hands and hugs him tight and says I love you too.
Beautiful Angel takes her sisters as a group hug and smiles and laughs and before she parts another quick I love you too.
Beautiful Angel takes her brothers hand and smiles and hugs him tighter and says take care of them for me and I love you oh so much.
Beautiful Angel takes her grandmas hand and smiles and hugs her and tells her thank you for everything and I love you and kiss on the cheek.
Beautiful Angel takes her friends and in the middle how she knew that were not just one friend but a whole bunch.
Beautiful Angel whispers to them all I love you and don’t ever give up because I’m not far away.
Beautiful Angel takes her baby boy and spins him round and round laughter fills the heavens and Beautiful Angel sheds a tear.
Beautiful Angel is scared is that he will never know about her that is her one fear.
Beautiful Angel looks back at the people she loves and whisper tell him about me please.
Beautiful Angel hands him back to daddy and says don’t forget to tell him.
Beautiful Angel says tell him how I was and the woman I grew up to be she tells her family.
Beautiful Angel says tell him I love him everyday and how live life to the fullest.
Beautiful Angel sees the gates open up oh so big and bright.
Beautiful Angel beings to glow in the beautiful glow of God’s love.
Beautiful Angel runs to give one more group hug and I love you to all.
Beautiful Angel goes to set on her cloud next to our Lord Savior and smiles and says I will be waiting for you all.
As the gates close quiet the reflection of our sweet angel stays in our hearts and our mind.

To my: sister, best friend, and the angel of music, Happy Birthday Lorna we love you so much and miss you.

Yes its nearly 5AM in Arkansas and I can not for the like of me sleep!

2010-03-20T02:49:00.000-07:00

PSA 37:7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret--it leads only to evil. 9. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.

Hey Everyone, I hope this blog finds everyone wonderful and blessed. How has your week been so far? How many of ya'll are on Spring Break? As for me, I am doing okay, just having one of those nights...well okay its 5AM we can say it..mornings. I been doing a lot of thinking..praying here lately about my life and the life of those around me. Sometimes it so easy to get distracted in the way things work in life that we forget to stop and thank GOD for all the wonderful things he has given to us. This week so much has changed my life for the better. I got the job at First Step I cannot thank GOD enough over, and you guys praying for me. This job is different from any other job I have had, it is a "big-girl job" I like to call it. I just pray and hope I do the best I can do. One of hte questions during my interview was, "Why Do I want to work for First Step?" Here was my answer....

Some of these children do not have postive role models at home, which personally breaks my heart. I know I can not be "momma" to be these kids, but I want to be something postive to them. Maybe all they hear is yelling, fighting, cussing here at this school they feel safe and I want to be the teacher of a place they can call home. I believe every single children deserves a chance, a chance to learn, a chance to grow into a strong indiviual, and the chance of love. Years from now I want a child to look back and say Ms. Lindsey, gave me a chance and she had so much love in her. It might not be my first bunch of kids that go through me but one day in my heart it will happen and for that I will be forever blessed. So, the answer to the question it is plain simple to give the love and support and teach these children who might needed a safe haven and who might of been pushed to the side and I refuse for that to happen to anyone of my children, family, or my students.

So..what do you think? Yes, guarnetted these are three and four year olds but I believe learning starts young and the gift of love starts young as well. If they see love they will react to love, if they see violence they react to be a violent towards others. I am very excited about my job. I go to Hot Springs for training on April 5th and 6th, come home and train at the school here. I was totally shocked I got the job, but it just shows us how awesome GOD is when we least expect something he always has a way to turn around and say, "Do not worry I got you, my child". My job will not be easy, but it will be a blessing. I hope to be a hero somewhere out there. Anyone really. There is so much I want to do in my life, and I hope this is one of the gifts GOD has instore for me.

The other day, I got to thinking about charity work. Every year I donate money to the American Heart Association and American Diabetes Association in memory of wonderful daddy. But, there is ever so much more I want to do. I want to be a missionary, I know I have made my mistakes and my faults but that is what makes us all stronger and that is what human relates to. Yes, they relate to humans that have a good life but as someone who was once lost I would also love to hear how someone came from a pit of no return to who they are today. Kinda like a Cinderella story of the Christian lifestyle! I want to change the world and all the people in it. I know I can not change all people but you know guys know what I am saying. I guess that is why I love this blog so much, because in a small way this is my ministry. I let you guys into my life and also you see a glimpse of GOD in every post.

Sometimes, I wonder if I am ever going to get married or have a family. It hurts sometimes I see people all around me getting engaged, in relationships, having families. And, I just take a heavy sigh and say, "One day, Lindsey". But, I know GOD hears every whisper and every tear I shed over that. I know I am only 24 years old and I have alot of life ahead of me it just gets lonely sometimes. My younger sister is getting married in June, and I am not jealous of her at all its just WOW! I am afraid I will go to my ten yr reunion in a few years and having to show for myself. It will be very hard going, they do a memorial for the classmates whom have gone on. And, Lorna was in my class, and Lorna and I always had plans to go to the 10yr reunion together kinda like Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion kinda thing. Its just hard seeing my classmates, I feel like I am exactly where they thought I would be. I just praying for my future spouse and family, and maybe one day "My Prince Will Come".

So, my loves I am gonna close for now and I will write more soon. I changed my layout for a change. Ya'll tell me what yall think. I am so blessed to "know" each and everyone of you. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling. Your Sister in Christ, Lindsey

Questions about Lindsey

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Who are my heros? Jesus first and foremost, my daddy, and Beth Moore. Boy, that is an intresting mix of people.

If you were a crayon what color would you be? Pink! You would think green would be but no dear ones I say pink because it stands out in a crowd and I want to be that to people the one who sticks out.

Am I doing what I really want to do? Yes, after a long time waitting. I about to start a job that will change the lives of children with special needs. I have always wanted to make difference in a person's life. And, I have this blog which I see as ministry. I try to reach out to everyone.

What am I grateful for? My GOD, My Family, My friends, My Books, My education, and the personality GOD put into my body!

Have I seen enough of the world? In my humble opinon, no not hardly. I want to go ministering one day in all 50 states. So far I have accomplished four...Texas, Arkansas, Missouri, and New Mexico. 46 more to go!

What was the toughest time in my life? I've had a few. The day my dad was put to rest, it was like we were burying my best friend. My father was one of the most laid back human beings on this planet. And, saying, "I see you later, Daddy", was heartbreaking. When the man of three years tried to crumble my spirit, when he admitted every single thing he did while we together. This was a man I saw a future in, a man that I thought loved me. I mentally (thank GOD did not go through) bought the wedding dress, wedding ring, and had the kids with! Forgiving him and letting go of him has been the hardest thing since burying my daddy!

What was the easiest time in my life? Learning to LOVE! Spite all my heartbreaks or sadness that has come in my life I have just kept on loving. I love so many people in this world, people I do not even know. Most of you my readers I do not know in real life but I love you all ever so much! That is why I tell you at the end of every blog I love you! Because, in GOD we are to love even when someone despises us, just keep on loving.

If you can meet one person of your choice, dead or alive, known or not, who would this be? Dead- L. Frank Baum, the writer of The Wizard of Oz series always loved his work. Alive- Jesus I am gonna get that one day and oh what a glorious day that will be!

What do you like to do, generally, during the weekend? Movies, I love going to the movies, I do not however do horror movies. I love a good cry and a good laugh in the lack of better words. I love to go to bookstores and get a pile of books and find a chair or a clear space and read. Church is always a must on Sundays.

Your bedside book? I have three actually! Holy Bible- one of my many its a burgendy red color and a KJV. Secondly, we have The Invisible Man by H.G Wells which I will be starting tonight actually, and third we have The Friday Night Knitting Club got for $1 at a book sale we shall see if I enjoy!

The quotation, which you prefer? Helen Keller The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart. Have that on my coffee mug actually, got it at Romancing the Stone.

What will you bring with you on a desert island?? (5 max)?
1. Books lots and lots of books my Bible is in this pile!
2. Friends and Family a must.
3. Totliteres. Shampoo, Toliet Paper that kinda thing.
4. Diet Dr. Pepper
5. More clothing.

The best gift that somebody offers to you? Love.

What do you want people to say about you after you are no longer living? What is your legacy? She was a great person and loved GOD with all her heart. I leave my best friends behind if I was to die young. They have been my rocks. I hope one holds onto the journals of my everso running mind, I have faith in him holding onto them.

You can have one of the followingtwo things: trust/love? love because with love comes trust.. and vise versa

Think of the last person who youreally knew that died. You have thechance to give them 1 hour of lifeback, but you have to give one year ofyour life. Would you? Yes, I would call Lorna's mom and say hey you might wanna give Lorna a ride I am begging you.

When was the last time you told someone you loved them? In person: My mom, on the phone: Christie (sister), and on chat Joshua.

If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you had "no regrets" what would it be?" I am sure ya'll are thinking, the man of three years problem and boy are you WRONG. I would go back and stay home with my dad on his last day. Fake being sick to be with him, and get him some help.

Which is worse, failing or never trying? Like my dad used to tell me, "How do you know your gonna fail if you do not try".

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? What does not kill us, makes us stronger.

Just When I Thought About Giving Up!

2010-03-15T17:00:00.000-07:00

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. (Psalm 27: 1, 3)

Hey Guys and Gals, how is everyone? I hope this blog finds everyone wonderful and blessed! This will not be a long blog, for I have alot to do for tomorrow! Today around 2PM my home phone rung and my mom answered it was First Step! Yes, the special education school I had the preschool instructor job interview for last Monday! Well, as of today, March 15th I am now an employee of First Step School! I got the job!! Now, my next goal is to work on my driving. I stayed up nearly all night and last week praying that GOD's will be done. Just when I thought about giving up, and telling GOD I cannot handle it anymore. GOD shows me its okay Lindsey I got you! It has been almost a year since Super Foods closed down and this has been the only opporitunity GOD has shown me. My two year degree is in this field, and I was really hoping to get it. And, GOD showed me so much this week already and its only Monday. So, Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart for the prayers and the wonderful comments. I will write more soon. I love you all and Keep Smiling!!

T.G.I.F = Thank GOD Im Forgiven

2010-03-12T22:51:00.000-08:00

"Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need." (Hebrews 4:16) "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." (Matthew 11:28) "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9).

Hey Guys, how are yall?! I hope everyone is wonderful and blessed. If you are new to my blog or just stopping for a visit, welcome and my love goes to you. If you have been reading me for awhile, come on in my love goes to you as well! Grab yourself a snack and a nice cold or hot beverage and make yourself at home and know that you are in good hands and safe in my blog! Any prayer request post them as a comment or email me at booknerd4christ@gmail.com that email is just for you guys. If you have a funny foward and thought I would like it send it too. Send me email I love it and I promise you I will return something. I know I havent wrote in a little bit, I tell ya this sista is wooped. But, things are ever so much better. My heart is healing daily, my love for GOD grows every single moment of every single day, and things are looking I might have a light at the end of my tunnel.

Now, guys and gals have you ever thought about this concept...we are forgiven. For everything we ever done wrong, from the smallest of small to the biggest of big we are forgiven. We have a wonderful Savior that forgives us. Sometimes as humans, I know this be true I suffer with it, we want man's (human's) forgiveness, as Christians we are to forgive those whom have hurt us and we should forgive ourselves for hurting them and ourselves. But, have you set there and thought about this. Jesus died on the Christ for each and every one of us and we did not even ask him to HE just did. He died so we could be forgiven. It blows my mind that some of the mistakes I have made and will make he forgives me for.. is he insane, am I insane. WOW! We were forgiven and washed that beautiful blood (I know sounds werid and gross but roll with me) we did not even realize that when he died WE were on his mind. All of us, every single sin every single one of us was on his heart and mind. I cannot tell you how that blows my mind. There are things in my life that I ashamed of and I look in my heart and my life and I am like how can someone forgive me for all the wrong I have done. But you listen to that little voice and it says forgive yourself, I have forgiven you that moment it happend but you gotta go half way dear one, Amen!

Human forgiveness...now you might be asking Lindsey, what did they put in your diet coke, sweetie? But, go with me. Alot of times we want man to forgive us and we think, "Oh if man's forgiven me then I don't need to worry about GOD." Have you lost your marbles? You should go to GOD in forgiveness, not just that but everything. Yes, I tell the people I've done wrong to, I'm sorry. But, to me forgiveness is ever so much more than I am sorry! When I say I am sorry to GOD, you talk about some waterworks. I think alot of times us as humans do not see the BIG picture, its all about love at the end of the day. What does to say about LOVE? Lets see, Matthew 5:44 But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you....! So, What am I saying in that Bible Verse? Love everyone, yeap even the nosie neighbor across the street love him or her. Pray for those whom persecute you...sometimes we say, "Oh GOD can handle them". Yes, that is true but you pray for them as well. Because, maybe they know not what they do. Luke 23:34: But Jesus was saying, "Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing." And they cast lots, dividing up His garments among themselves.

In my life, in my Bible time which has grown to three times a day. Yes, I know that is alot of reading and that is alot of Diet Coke I assure you. I have a notebook I write sermon notes in, notes I've made on my free time, Beth Moore notes ( I love her so much!), and I have a section for prayer request that is why I urge the prayer reqest no prayer reqest is to small or to big send it on. My prayer list is two and half pages long. I pray for my family, my friends, my cat, my ex boyfriends, the couple that moved next door, you get what I am saying everyone. Even if these people do not see the pain they did or do to me I pray for them. I have some on that list that I have only met one time, don't know their names at all. Like, I have a old lady I met at the pharamcy who is having eye surgery that is her name lady at pharamcy having eye surgery. GOD knows who she is and what is going on. So, my challenge to you my wonderful readers, pray for someone today/tonight. Forgive someone. Remember I love you always and Keep Smiling.

Talk about a busy weekend!!

2010-03-07T23:43:00.000-08:00

Wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and every kind of evil.
James 3:16 (New Living Translation)

Holy Cow!, I have never been so happy to sit down in my life. So much has gone on this weekend. On Thursday, my beautiful sister came home earlier since her Friday class was canceled.

Friday morning me, momma, Christie, and her roomate and bridesmaid, Krissy loaded up and headed to Hot Springs to Hobby Lobby for wedding goodies. That we did! We were in Hobby Lobby maybe five minutes and my cell phone rung and it was from a number I did not recognize and it was First Step! First Step is a school here in my town that is for special needs children and adults. I applied about a week and a half ago about a preschool instructor job, and they called to see if I was still intrested in a job with them. I am no doubt, so I have an interview this Monday (8th) at 1PM! I was so happy I let out this huge burst of giggles in Hobby Lobby. Everyone be praying for me. I will post how the interview goes later today. Anyway, at Hobby Lobby we found flowers and other things. Christie is not gonna let us carry a boquet of flowers they are gonna be silk lavender and baby pink roses tied with a lavender ribbon! Goregous! We went to the mall, they did not buy anything. But, I did...I have a thing for purfumes and the awesome sales Victoria's Secert has. So, I got 8 body splashes for $35. Didnt need to spend that much, but I will use it. But, one was for Christie who loves the one I wear the most and a Vanilla Lace for Robbie who loves it and is out. We went to Ryans afterwards to eat, and ate too much. I love their rolls when they are super hot! Yumo!

Saturday...me, mom, Christie, and Melissa (a school friend of Christies) went to Little Rock. Christie had got an email from David's Bridal they were having a $99 wedding dress sale. So, she booked an appointment for 10:30. We got there in no time, had a blast! Christie was waitted on by a wonderful wedding cordinator, Marsha! We love her, so nice warm and fresh. Made Christie feel at ease. Christie tried on two dresses, yes two! And, her dress was the first one she tried on. Her dress is goregous, I could not take a picture because Cody would be find a way to see it and no peeking. LOL! It is breathe taking. Christie's wedding party will be getting a discount if we buy our dresses there. I am considering it, I just have to have a shawl I hate my arms. But, her dress was more that $99 I assure you. But, it is going to be a beautiful wedding. When Christie came out in the first dress, it was the dress mom was pointing in the book they gave her she loved. I started to cry for a minute, but got shortly over it. My dad is in heaven smiling. We also went to Hobby Lobby in Little Rock while they were in there I went to Mardels, bought a brown and pink journal with Joshua 1:9 on it. For those do not know that is my favorite bible verse. We went to McCain mall, no more shopping for me. I bought Backyard Burger, one word: YUMO!

Sunday...Me, mom, Christie, and Cody went to church this Sunday. Came home made lausage, salad, and garlic bread. It was a very low key Sunday we were all so worn out from this weekend. So, everyone keep me and my family in prayers. I love you all and Keep Smiling. Later, I will be writing a post about Daddy today is his birthday! All my love!

And my eyes see...

2010-03-02T21:53:00.000-08:00

And I'll praise You in this storm. And I will lift my hands. For You are who You are. No matter where I am. And every tear I've cried. You hold in Your hand. You never left my side. And though my heart is torn. I will praise You in this storm.

Instead of opening with a Bible Verse I thought I would open with my favorite song's chorus. It has been the most moving song to me these past few months. So much is going on in my life or in all of our lives, sometimes all we can do is reach up and say, "Take it GOD, Take it all"! I am learning day by day that you can not just give GOD a little bit, not half, you have to give it all to him. See, I have always tried to handle things myself, thinking oh GOD can get whats left. Nuh-uh Brothers and Sisters, that is the biggest mistake possible. As you might of noticed I have not blogged deeply in a very long time. For that I am deeply and truely sorry. This blog is my ministry and not only have I failed on ya'll I have failed on sharing the love of Jesus. So, I am asking for an apologize, dear ones.

If you have guys are new to my blog, hello to you, jump right on in..grab you a diet coke (in my case), a coke, coffee, hot cocoa, whatever tickles that funny bone. I am so glad you found my blog, welcome and I love you. For those whom have been following, grab a beverage and many hugs and blessings I send to yall and I love you also! So, my beauties whats new? Anyone scream at the computer already? I have! I feel so bad for not keeping up with you guys. I am gonna get better, I promise. It's just I am thinking I am so stressed the gray is gonna start poking out at 24, who is with me with the gray hair! *Laughing* . So lets do updated Lindsey time... then I will ask ya'll some questions sounds good to me.

Okay...where to begin. Okay lets see, as I meationed my beautiful baby sister is getting married in May. Correction in the program: She is getting married in June. June 19th to be exact. So praise our beautiful SAVIOR I get an extra three weeks to prepare myself. I know its all about Christie, but sweet mother pearl's this is why I am stressing. 1. I am Maid of Honor. 2. Me in a dress + and heals oh this is gonna be fun. But, all in all I am very excited for Christie. Its just mind boggling that my little sister whom I played finger paints with is getting married! My dad's youngest brother, Mickey will be walking Christie down the alie. Secondly, as I have wrote in a previous blog my mother has not been to church since my father died. It has been really hard for her. Well, my prayers have been answered she has for two weeks be going to church. She does not sit in her old spot, she actually likes her new spot better. And, she seems to be enjoying it. I go with her to morning services and in the evening ones me, her, Christie, and Cody (Christies fiance) go with her. So, everyone be praying she keeps up the good progress.

In the month and a half I have not blogged I been doing alot of thinking and soul searching. Through that time I have found my favorite song the lyrics I just posted. The first time I heard this song, I was listening to K-Love on my computer and it was this December and tears just started pouring out of my soul. And, I have never heard this song, I googled the lyrics and when the chorus came on, I had the lyrics up I had my hands up in my room, sobbing and singing along to the song. It has made that much of a difference in my life. GOD has never left me, even when I was torn to shreds he was always there for me to catch me. My daddy used to joke with me, do not fall for anyone whom is not willing to catch you. I have learned what matters, what to stress over, what to "worry" over, and sometimes all we can do is say, I give up. And, that is what I did I said I give up, and stopped fighting myself. I let GOD take it from my back, my heart, and my soul. I am learning to forgive and forget. And, I see the postive now.

On day a week or so ago my faith I could just feel it slipping from my grasp. I was conteplating shutting down this blog. Which, I am not now. Also that night, I found some evidence of my two ex's and on my facebook I have seen three of my high school classmates get engaged. And, I thought I am single and no one wants me. I must of done something wrong, I must of failed somewhere. It must be my fault I am alone. Maybe the man of three years was my prince charming and I screwed it up somehow. Or, maybe it was the ex I just recently had and thought maybe he was I just screwed that up too. I made a list that was two pages long of some of the mistakes I had made and was heart broken by what I saw. I flopped my Bible open, I lie none to you it showed up 1st Corithians 13: 4-8 the love definiton. And, I got to thinking about my heart, it needs to heal. I need to heal, I need to take a deep breathe and realize I am gonna be okay. I need time, for Lindsey. Love is patient..love does not come easy. And, I give Robbie advice about men all the time, and my number one advice to her is this. Maybe its not you GOD is waitting on maybe its the other end maybe GOD is working on him before you two get together.

So, with much prayer and daily steps towards a better tomorrow I am getting stronger. And, my ministry is going to be back on track. You guys have been some of the most wonderful readers, and my new ones welcome. I am looking foward to getting to know you. I have missed you all, I truely have. I hope and pray all of you are wonderful and things are going okay. If you have prayer request do not hestiate to let me know. I pray for each and everyone of you. You are all so wonderful, beautiful, and talented. GOD loves you, GOD is so proud of you. Here I am gonna leave with some verses: I love you and Keep Smiling!

Psalms 119:28 My soul is weary with sorrow: strengthen me according to your word.
Isaiah 41:10 Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.
Psalms 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Psalms 138:1 Thessalonians 5:11-13 Therefore exhort one another, and build each other up, even as you also do. But we beg you, brothers, to know those who labor among you, and are over you in the Lord, and admonish you,and to respect and honor them in love for their work’s sake. In the day that I called, you answered me. You encouraged me with strength in my soul.

Where on earth have I been?

2010-02-28T22:10:00.000-08:00

Then you will have success if you are careful to observe the decrees and laws that the LORD gave Moses for Israel. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged.1 Chronicles 22:13

Where have I been? Well, my computer (my personal computer) was dead to the world. In meaning, someone sent me a grand total of 32 viruses and dummy self let my virus protection run out and it killed my computer. But, I got it back today. So be looking for more updates soon. I am so happy. My mom let me use her computer but I like my privacy. So, I will be updating more and more now. Thank GOD. I have missed ya'll beyond words. So much is going on its beyond crazy. My beautiful sister is getting married June 19th so we are planning that and my family has gone back to church all together. I would go but getting my mom was so very hard. Now, as of last Sunday we been going as a family. You do not know how happy that makes me. Things are going well.

We Miss You, Daddy!

2010-01-25T14:24:00.000-08:00

Joshua 1:9 (New International Version)Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Today on this very day, my wonderful father five years ago was called home to his personal LORD and SAVIOR. My father had diabetes and had a massive heartattack at home. He was fifty seven years old. He was married to my mother for thirty five years and had me and my sister, Christie whom will be 20 tomorrow. My fathers hobbies included: Rooting for the Arkansas Razorbacks, fishing, bird watching, and listening to planes on the scanner. He was on of six children three sisters and two brothers. My dad's full name was Dennis Larkin Martin. Me and my sisters names involved out my dads name.

Lindsey - my dad's mom's madien name was Lindsey.

Denise - was the femimine version of my daddys name.

Lynn - Christies middle name- was what my silly daddy told my mother his middle name was on their first date.

My dad was one of the funniest and talkest men you will ever met. He never met a stranger, people loved him the moment they talked to him. He actted as of he had known you his whole life. At family reunions he loved to act like the older generation and make jokes. He loved his family so much and proud of each and everyone of them. My dad was not a tall man he was around 5'9. His smile would shine up the room, people say I have his smile. This short but I wanted to just stop by and show you guys the love of my daddy on this hard day for me and my family.

I love you all and Keep Smiling!

Am I still here?

2010-01-15T15:48:00.000-08:00

Isaiah 12:2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."

Hello my lovely readers, how are each and everyone of you? I know I am slacking on my promise but ALOT has been going on and I need to start 2010 off to a fresh start. I am working on some things about me that I needed to do with GOD and GOD alone at this point. I have realized whom and what are important in my life. Sometimes, we have to find out the hard way. Sometimes it has to litterally kick us in the stomatch and wake us up. Heres the low down on me I will write tomorrow since something has been canceled in my planner. If I do not write please do not be mad at me.

1. I realized like I meationed who and what are important in my life. My daddy used to tell me, "The people you need in your life are the ones that say they need you in theirs". I truely believe that. I might only have two best friends but that is okay I am very blessed to have those two and I will never take them for guarnetted again. There have been countless people who have walked out on me, but it makes all the more loving towards the ones I have and the acceptance of the world is not a beautiful place. I am talking about people in general will sometimes let you down.

2. 2010 - New Changes New Beginnings. As I have posted before, I think I have, sorry sometimer moment. But, I am going back to college full-time in the fall. Okay beautiful people, I will be 25 in July I do not ya'll hear me NOT want to live in a dorm. So, my wonderful Robbie has to find a teaching job by this summer (major prayer request people) and she has to still go to the college we go to. So, she wants me to move in with her. I have made my mind up, I am gonna move in with her. I want you guys to be praying for me and her.

3. Another prayer request, my beautiful baby sister is getting in May yes as in this year May. She will be 20 in two weeks so everyone put her on your prayer list for her and Cody. Cody is okay I guess, I mean I tolerate him. I want them to find a good church to go to and start it off right. She told my mom Tuesday and suprising she did not flip out but is not thrilled. And, as the maid of honor that is all I am gonna be doing till May gets here and onward is praying.

4. Count your blessings before you complain. I wanna say it was Tuesday, I basically live at Robbies so I cant remember (laughs). Anyhow, me, her and P.J (my adopted necie shes Robbies real necie) were laying on the bed watching TV and I was down in the dumps because I was stupidly thinking no one loves me. Because Christie has Cody, my mom had my dad, everyone in my life is happy. Out of the blue P.J jumps on Robbie and they get in a tickle war and P.J calls out, AUNT LINDSEY, Robbies being mean save me. She jumped in my lap and just hugged me, that my friends and readers is love. When a six year old little girl hops into your lap and wants to make you smile that is love. Everytime I go over to Robbies I am feel so much love. P.J is my favorite little girl and I would do anything for her. Come to think of it I owe that baby a blue scarf! LOL!

I have a few prayer request:

Last night after Robbie took me home not even 15 mins after we got home she called and said they have taken her Aunt Veda in at St. Vincents and they are calling in all the family. Her aunt has stomatch cancer. The last word I had Momma Sonya was that her breathes were getting shorter and shorter. Last night I went and spent the night with Robbie so she would have someone there for her at the house. P.J was asleep and Jeremy had to work. So, Robbie needed someone, when I get more news I will post it. But, she will be going home eventually everyone.

Be praying for Robbie- like I meationed the teaching job thing and she is just having a lot on her heart and mind here lately.

Of course the Hati population.

I am gonna run for now, if you guys have any prayer request please comment below I will most definately be praying. I love you all and Keep Smiling!

Lindsey's Decade in Review

2009-12-29T17:29:00.000-08:00

He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him.— John 1:11

Hey Everyone, I hope this blog finds everyone well and blessed. As for me, I am doing better not 100% might be the sniffles I have acquired. Well, I thought I would do a decade of my life review. See how much has changed or stayed the same or what. I thought about life this weekend, alot actually and even though alot of sadness has happend. I also have been very blessed. So lets get started....

2000....
* I was a freshman in high school.
* Lorna was my best friend in the whole wide world.
* I was in high school band, I played clarinet.
* I was in Young Writers Club and went every Friday at lunch time.
* I was a size 14, working on that one this next year.
* Wanted to attend Southern Arkansas University and major in Broadcast Journalism
* My favorite color was red.
* My favorite teacher was Dr. Fowler.
* My least was Mr. Holt.
* I set with alot of people at lunch we were known as "The Round Table".
* My locker was the cleanest out of me and Lorna.
* I had a bottom locker and our drum major was the top locker.

2001...
* I was a sophomore.
* Lorna was still my best friend.
* I was beginning to hate band.
* I went back and forth from 14 to 16 size clothing.
* I wanted to go to SAU still but major in Mass Communications.
* I was in love with yellow.
* I was in Mrs. Vaughn's Biology class playing tic tac toe with Brad House (popular boy in my class) when we got news the Twin Towers went down.
* I had to repeat Mr. Horseman and loved him this time around. He taught government.
* Bonnie moved to Arkansas from Colorado Springs, CO.
* I was still in Young Writers Club and went to Little Rock for plays.
* I got my first kiss.
* I got my band jacket!
* My locker was a bottom one but I had no one ontop of mine.

2002...
* I was a junior.
* Alot of my friends graduated that year.
* Lorna started dating Micheal...
* My journal was stolen by Brookes Bailey and was a mockery of the school.
* Bonnie and I became closer.
* I started dating Kyle.
* I quit band.
* I had a top locker finally! The girl on the bottom of me was really nice.
* My favorite class was English of course with
* My favorite teacher was Ms. Price, that year I read "To Kill a Mockingbird" and changed my life forever.
* Still in Young Writers.
* Joined East Lab, and made movies on Flash. The funniest one was the news cast I took my friends pictures and made them different anchors. Robbie was stuck in the Artic doing a story on dog racing.
* I had a 3.0 that year.
* I was the same size.
* Me and Kyle broke up = drama.

2003....
* I was a senior!
* I got obessed with pink.
* Lorna, Bonnie, and I were called The Three Amigos.
* I started dating Joshua.
* I joined Drama and performed in many small productions.
* Changed major to SAU major in Theater and English.
* My favorite teacher was Mrs. Meador whom taught Drama and I am still close with till to this day.
* The teachers whom changed my life while in high school were Mrs. Burns - Senior English and Mrs. Meador - drama teacher.
* I joined Teens Love Christ with Lorna.
* I started wearing flare jeans.
* Our group got smaller.
* My class ring came in and scared the whole night it was too small and they had to send it back. Things were fine.
* Finally made up my mind to go to SAU Tech in Camden for a few years to see what I really wanted.
* Went to New Mexico with JOshua's church to mission. - Life changing experience.

2004...
* First year Tech- Loved it.
* Joshua and I broke up - nasty break up.
* My favorite teacher out at Tech (still is) Mr. Dan Miliam.
* Bonnie moved to Memphis.
* I and Joshua made up and realized friends are the best option for the two of us.
* Joshua graduated high school!
* My sister was in high school!
* I dedicated my life fully and completly to Christ.
* I started liking a guy named David.
* My favorite class that year at Tech was World History.
* Joshua decided to go to University of Monticello and major in Busincess.

2005....
*Second Year Tech - Loved it.
*My grandmother died.
* Me and Joshua had lost touch not because we were mad at one another but college was getting to us until..
* My dad died
* Joshua came to my dad's funeral and vowed to be my best friend till the end.
* David and I never clicked.
* I smoked cigs and quit.
* I started dating the man of three years.
* My sister had a wreak and lived.
* Lorna gave birth to a little boy named him, Dakota Ray
* We got Salem!

2006....
* Third Year out at Tech
* Graduated Tech with a degree in Technology.
* My best friend was Jennifer.
* I made a huge mistake.
* Applied and got accepted to Southern Arkansas University with wanting a degree in English Education.
* Moved to Magnolia into a dorm hall.
* Found out I am hypoglycemic.
* My favorite color was still pink.
* My favorite college professor at SAU was Dr. Belcher.
* Lorna died and left me in a deep state of depression. I could not come home, because I did not want to see her like that.

2007...
* I came home for a year to take of my mother whom was having to have a total hysteromy and a possible pacemakerdefuliabtor.
* I could not find work at all in my town.
* Me and Joshua had a huge fight which resulting me blocking him and thought of him betraying and in the end he was right.
* Before I started working all I had left in my checking account was $3.50.
* I had gone up to a size 18 in clothes.
* I went to visit Lornas grave as much as possible.
* Was still in a deep depression and thought of as everyone was leaving me.
* Prayed that whole summer for GOD to show me what he wanted me to do. One day, I was looking through my memory book in high school and the common phrase was "thanks for always being a listening ear" or "thanks for always being there". I remember smiling and thought...Counseling.

2008...
* Me and the man of three years broke up.. and he admitted to cheating on me the whole three years and well yeah you get the picture.
* Unblocked Joshua and my life changed for the better.
* Me and Robbie forgave each other and learned who is important in our lives and who's not.
* One Word: Twilight!
* Went to Branson and paid for it all by myself and enjoyed every second.
* Got a job as a cashier at a grocery store here.
* I ran away and came back.
* I got back in church and felt whole again.
* Instead of being sad over Lorna being gone I began writing her letters.
* Traveled the great state of Arkansas with Robbie.
* Laughed again.
* Took online classes from Tech

2009...
* Dated someone but did not work - two different worlds.
* Realized who my true best friends are.
* Store I worked for got shut down.
* Two Words: New Moon.
* Going back to SAU in the fall and celebrate new beginnings.
* Realized the people you need in your life need you in theirs.
* Read 100 books!
* My best friends are the sparkles of my eyes and they know who they are.
* Realized Joshua is the one man next to my daddy and my LORD who has my best intrest at heart.
* One phrase and One Phrase Only: GOD is Great, Diet Dr Pepper is Good, And Folks are Stupid as Ever Sometimes. (Laughs)
* Laughed so much more.
* This blog!
* Movie Nights @ Robbies changed my whole week.
* Decided to go back to SAU soon and start over.

Merry Christmas

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Luke 2:9-12And an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were filled with fear. (10) And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of a great joy that will be for all the people. (11) For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. (12) And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.”

Just wanted to stop by and tell everyone Merry Christmas and I love you!

Question Time

2009-12-16T11:15:00.000-08:00

So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled.— 1 Thessalonians 5:6

Hey Everyone, I hope this post everyone well, good spirits, and loved. If you don't feel loved just yet, remember GOD loves you and so do I. The next few days I will be a busy beaver. My wonderful best friend, Meredith called me last week with the joy to learn after a lifetime, well since Febuary techinally Russell finally has scored a job. Now, there is a plus side to this and the negative. Plus is he got the job, Negative they will have to move to El Dorado but another plus be close to me and other friends and family! So, everyone please be praying for them. Friday afternoon/night, not sure which just yet I will be going to Bentonville to help them pack. I will not return till Sunday. I am very much excited, I get to met Belle their beautiful dog. I also get to see Russell and Meredith, are like a brother and sister to me. (nervous sigh) And, I also get to see the recent ex, whom I have not seen since August since we broke up. I am anxious to see him, but nervous because it has been so long. He will be there because Russell and him are best friends. Well, at least I get to save postage and not having to mail his Christmas card (laughs).

I took my final Monday morning at 10:30 down at Tech. This test was a killer, 150 questions. No notes, no book, no little pecie of paper with theroist on it. Nothing. I came home nervous as ever to know my final grade. So this morning, I woke up thinking oh I will be happy with an B or a C. That is a great enough Christmas present. Well, I logged onto CampusConnect go to grades - fall 2009- Access- Socail Problems------A! I made an A. I was so happy when I saw that I said Merry Christmas to me! I love what I am studying but its alot and I do mean ALOT of reading. But, I did all my work, did not miss any assignments, made A's on all the assignments. I am very happy and blessed.

Okay, I been thinking about a few things and ya'll tell me if I have completly lost my marbles here or not. I am going to start writing everyday after the New Years. Start the year 2010 off right. Well, each day I want to do something different. So, here is what I am thinking...like I said tell me if I have completly lost here okay?

Monday - Talk about something close to my heart day.
Tuesday - Book Review or Movie Review
Wenesday - Bible Study day with Lindsey get in depth on something.
Thursday - Ask Lindsey any question on Thursday I would love it if ya'll emailed me questions or silly things in my email for you guys: booknerd4christ@gmail.com
Friday - Opinon Day ask me about something can be from shocking to kid-friendly
Saturday - Prayer Day - I will be posting a prayer and prayer request for you guys.
Sunday - Day of Rest -More than likely this is what is gonna happen on Sundays, I will be summing up my week what has happen in my personal life so you do not think I am not sharing my life and my missions anymore.

Let me know you guys, I love ya'lls voices here. I love you all and Keep Smiling. Lindsey

What am I thankful for?

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The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me;to one who orders his way rightlyI will show the salvation of God!”
—Psalm 50:23

I know of should of done this for Thanksgiving I jsut got so busy with Christie being home and the madness of everything so its gonna be a little late. Rather late than sorry my dad use to say. So here goes:

* I am blessed to have a loving FATHER I can pray to, to read about, study over, and give praise over every moment of every single day. I live in country where I can worship him anytime I feel like it. GOD has been so good to me.

* I am thankful for my mom AND dad, even though my father is no longer with us on earth I do have him in heaven smiling down on me daily. GOD gave me loving parents whom never were the kind parents who were ugly to me or my sister.

* I am thankful for my sister, Christie. Whom I have gotten closer to as the five years nearly my dad has been gone. She has grown from the little Christie that made finger paints with me to a young woman whom helps me with my makeup sometimes. She is pure joy to have in my life.

* I am thankful for my soon to be brother in law, Cody. Cody and I have had a different kind of friendship but I am blessed to have him in my life. He makes Christie happy but that is all that matters to me. I am looking foward to having him as a brother.

* I am thankful for Meredith, for she has been blonde ball of sunshine. We both have been each other's rocks this year espically. She always brightens my day and I know that GOD has truely blessed me with the adopted sisterhood I have and share with her.

* I am thankful for Russell, for whom this year has been so much like a brother to me this year espically. He has been so strong during all this unemployment crap, and glory be to GOD he got a job this week. They will be moving back to South Arkansas! I am looking foward to seeing them more.

* I am thankful for Robbie, for whom has been my sister so much this year. When I needed to cry, or to laugh, or to eat Krispy Kremes with she has been there. This has been the best year of my life. Many movies, road trips, Sonic tater tots, Sonic Lemonberry Slushes, and laughs later things remind me that Robbie and I are gonna be okay.

* I am thankful for Krissy, for whom I see so much of myself in. She is a beautiful and GOD loving woman whom I am gladly to call my little sis! She is going to be a wonderful nurse and I wish her nothing but all the happiness of life can offer her.

* I am thankful for Joshua, whom I love beyond words can say. He has been there for me so many times I lost count after 10. He and I give each other hope when we think hope is dying or is no longer in existence. I am so proud of him, he graduates college in May and I am going to keep my promise to him and go. I love you, Joshua.

* I am thankful for the man of three years. Now, before you say "Lindsey what are you talking about?" I am thanking him for dumping me, for making this one year of yet a lifetime so much better. I thought when me and him got together my life could not get anymore better boy was I wrong. My life has been worth living since him, I found complete and total happiness and it was right under my nose and it was completly free of charge. No amount of money could buy the happiness I found.

* I am thankful for my Bible Study family. They have made me learn more, get more opionated, and find a stronger love for Christ through them. All are different ages, come from different backgrounds but we all have a common goal, we love our LORD.

* I am thankful for my major in college, I am so proud to announce I am a Psychology and Sociology dual major. I want to change the world, I am ready to attack and get this Bachelors degree then chase another rainbow and get my Master's. GOD is good for showing me my true calling.

* I am thankful for my readers, I love each and every one of you. You leave comments that sometimes just melt my heart and I have no idea why but it happens. You reading my blog and knowing the love of GOD comes from with you. I am thankful for the support and guidance you have given to me. I love you and Keep Smiling, Lindsey.

Requested Time and Time Again

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This is me and my beautiful sister, Christie. She is a sophomore at Southern Arkansas University studying to be an Accountant. This is not the greatest but we hardly get our pictures made. This was taken Thursday when I wrote my post when I was at school with Robbie. They were having the lighting of all the school's christmas lights and I came down to spend time with her and her roomate, Krissy. Krissy grew up in Fordyce so I have know her a real long time. She is an amazing Christian and has a heart of pure gold. I also see her as a little sister whom I have taken under my wing.

Next picture is of me and PJ. P.J is Robbie's blood necie and my adopted necie. She is six years old and I have known her since she was born. Since P.J was a toddler she would call me Aunt Lindsey. So, this the ever so famous P.J. her teeth are blue because she chewing blue gum. This was taken at her Kindergarten graduation day at her Mamaw's and Papaws.

The next picture is of The Renolyds Center. This is where I am most of the time when I am writing blogs on Thursdays. It was also my home away from my dorm when I was at SAU. I would play high and go seek upstairs, go read, have some alone time. It is a fun place to be.

Okay on the right is the ever so famous, Meredith. Meredith and I met my first semester at Southern Arkansas University Tech. We had a history class together by Mr. Dan Miliam, whom in my opinon is one of the best professors. He is serious and passionate about what he does but has the heart to always be helpful to students. The way me and her got to talking is it was test day and I suffer from severe test anxiety so to unstress myself I would laugh or make others laugh. I saw Meredith sitting by herself as me and my friend, Jennifer were waitting on class to start. I said hey, did you pray for this test? She said in a shy voice and a smile on her face, Kinda. I look at Jennifer and say, "How do you kinda pray for a test?" Jennifer busted out laughing which ended up making Meredith laugh. The rest is history... I also had Mr. Miliam for every class he offered and is still at SAU Tech today. I recommend him to anyone.

My Friends From SAU:

1. Caleb - Whom the first time I met I called Frodo. He

is a fine musican, this is a very random shot of him but I love photos like that. They don't see it coming.

2. Ted - I met Ted in my College Algebra class with the famous Avard. He was reading a Fantasy book so I instantly thought of him as cool and we adopted him into our group. He lives in Louisana we havent seen each other in three years but talk some on Facebook or yahoo messanger. I hope he is doing well.

3. Wesley - We met by his roomate, Russell whom is now married to my ex roomate and friend, Sara. Wesley and I share alot of things in common such as music taste and religous views. He is an amazing friend and is always good to see him. Very good random shot of Wes don't ya think?

4 and 5 Jacki and Nathan - No not a couple. Just amazing people. Jacki and I met through Sara whom is now her sister in law. Jacki entered college when she was 15 years old. She is studying Socail Work. For me and her to be complete opposties we get along quiet well. Many a nights I would go vist her and she would vist me in my private room and go on our famous walks. And, just laugh. Nathan on the other hand, is the actor of my bunch of nerds. I never in a milion years would of thought of Nate as an actor boy was I wrong. All of my friends went together on opening night and supported our boy.

6,7,8, and 9 -

6. Dark Hair with Glasses - Luke - Luke is our math nerd. If you math trouble go to Luke you will pass with flying colors. He is the sweetest math nerd I know. He knows how to brighten anyone's day.

7. Dark hair with Glasses Black Guy - Patrick. Patrick

and I met on my very first day at SAU. He and I instantly bonded, I had gotten a job away from campus and required me to walk back at night by myself with about $200 cash on me. Patrick was nice enough to walk with me or give me a ride to the Renolyds center to turn in the night deposit. He has a daughter named, Elizabeth whom I love more than words can say.

8. Spikey hair by the girl - Jessie. Jessie is one intresting soul. He is also one of the first people I met. His first thing to me was, "Were you rejected by every table here at SAU?" I said well I havent tried do I need to? He saw I was reading "The Two Towers" by Tolkien he said "Wait"! He decided to keep me, he is at SAU studying to be a sex therapist. He is the greatest friend to talk to when you have broken heart he is with an amazing woman named Kat.

9. And lastly till I plug up my very much dead camera, Cindy. I met Cindy through my friend Katy. Cindy and I have alot in common. She is the one who got me addicted to Gilmore Girls. Her and her fiance, Eddy are expecting a baby soon and I am ready to see what my godbaby will be. She and I are both die-hard Twilight fans. She and I talk at least once a week we are both busy. She is studying to be a doctor. She is gonna rock!

So, here is some of my life till my camera gets charged back up there are so many more things I want to show you guys. I love you and Keep Smiling.

I'm Still Standing!

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The LORD gave this command to Joshua son of Nun: "Be strong and courageous, for you will bring the Israelites into the land I promised them on oath, and I myself will be with you."
Deuteronomy 31:23Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9

I hope this blog finds everyone well, blessed, healthy, still standing, and a smile on their face or heart. I am just sitting here with Robbie at school, and taking some good ole' Lindsey time. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the prayers I have truely felt them. Sometimes we all get a little over welmed sometimes. Sometimes we all need to sit back, grab a cup of coffoe, tea, diet coke, whatever and just say, "I can not do this anymore, Jesus take the wheel of my life." It has been a rough five years for me as ya'll have read and I am enjoying the ever so important me time. I need time to breathe, to laugh, to cry, to hit something, to curl up and go to sleep all day if I have too. My eyes were opened wide when my dad died, realized we are not guarntted a tommorw, another minute, heck second.

I miss my dad every single moment of every single day. But, I know my dad is so very proud of me. I made mistakes, I did some lying, I stayed in a heap of trouble but he forgives me. Just like my heavenly father does. Forgiveness. I have to learn that reguardless, I am forgiven. Not to dwell on what happend, or what went on but learn that in the end it is not gonna matter or GOD already forgot about it. Sometimes, you just need to take a day, a hour, thirty minutes just for yourself. I know that is easier said than done sometimes. But I have learned, I need to take at least 30mins for me a day or I will not be right. Because that is how we hear our best lessons from GOD. Psalm 46:10 (New International Version)10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

I am learning to be proud of me, and know that I can do all things. Philippians 4:13 (New King James Version)13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Even when I fall on my face he still says I have the faith and the courage to move foward. I am so blessed to have such a loving Father that gives me the strength to do all things. I know that I am going to be the best counselor GOD is going to make me be. I am going to be a great girlfriend one day, a great fiance one day, a great wife, a great friend, a great daughter, a great bible study partner, and a great Chrstian. Some of these things I already am, but before you think I am getting cocky I'm not. I am working on these things daily and that is how I come to be whom I am.

I am learning it is okay to be Lindsey. I am an intresting soul. I am blessed of how GOD made me. He made me a Chinese loving, classic book reading, loves kelly green and pink, note taking machine, and Bible reader for a reason. I have faults - we all do every single one of us. I dare you to say you don't I will show you differently. I have struggles like any human. Mine might be different from yours but it is okay to be not perfect. I love to laugh, and I do not and will not regert doing so. I'm learning more and more about me as the days go by. I'm learning whom I can and can not trust. I am learning that I am not alone. My catchphrase in high school was You are not alone. But, one of my beautiful readers reminded me of that on a comment. Thank you sweetie, I love you for it.

When life throws lemons make lemonade. I am learning not only to make the lemonade but a lemon icebox pie (my favorite by the way). You gotta roll with the good AND the bad. I know it has only been a few days since my dramatic post but I have slept more and probably cried more I have in a very long time. I guess I needed the tears. I am learning to find the good and the bad and say, "It's gonna be okay." On a previous post, I listed things I want to do before I die. You know I really did NOT need to post that because what if I died right after I type this. Is it gonna truly matter if I did all those things. All, I want for myself is that my GOD, my family, and my friends know that I love them and how much my love for the LORD meant to me. I'm learning to love Lindsey.

So, what I am saying everyone is Thank You and your girl is still standing. I am still here, I am still me. But, I am doing better, stronger, and learning. Like a country song my dad use to sing to me, "Lifes a dance and we learn as we go." Because every time we look there is something we learn, learning is what makes us human everyone has the ability to learn. Sometimes we are just to hardheaded to listen. I guess I was to hardheaded to just listen. I love you guys more than words can say and Keep that smile.

Just a quick question...

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Hey Ya'll! I have noticed on some blogs I have looked people have buttons. So, what I am asking to my lovely peoples if you have a button please leave me a comment and I will snatch that button and share your lovely blog with others. Love yall and Keep Smiling. I will write more just busy with this final. Thanks for the prayers I feel them keep em coming!

How I truely been these past few weeks...

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Matthew 6:25-34 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ...

Hey Everyone, I hope this blog finds everyone safe, blessed, stress-free, and healthy. As you guys have noticed or not thats okay I won't hold it against you my blogs have not been so heartfelt here lately and I just been filling the time on stupid tag's I found on youtube. My ministry and my outreach has slipped some. Alot has been going on and I thought I would be brave and a true woman of GOD and share what is going on.

First and foremost, I am feeling alone. I know that I have an amazing GOD I worship, a family that loves me, friends that I am blessed to have, school paid for, and a little bit of cash to my name. But sometimes it seems like there should be more. I feel empty sometimes like I want to scream, or hit my pillow or just ball up and cry. I have felt like this for awhile, and if I try to tell my mom about it she say's I am being a drama queen or selfish. I know that I need to talk to someone, but there is nothing I can do about it. I wish I had a crystal ball and could see what my future held. Coulda, Shoulda, Woulda's. I wake up every morning and think, there has got to be more than life than just me waking up, taking a bath/shower, reading my Bible, studying, and playing on the computer and friends. I want to be active, I want to have a life. I miss working, I have applied for every postion I know that I have the education or the knowledge to do in my small town.

Secondly, my heart needs to heal. As ya'll have read my heart has been broken. It is hard getting over things that happen. My heart does not just break because I do not have a boyfriend, fiance, or a husband. It is just I miss my dad, I miss Lorna, I miss just having the courage to go on. I am ready to go back to school full-time, I miss it beyond words, it makes me feel important. My mind is busy. Be back in a place where I can worship GOD all the time and not be disturbed. I miss having a good laugh and not feel bad about it. My mom constantly drags me down, she acts like the best mom in the world to people's faces then when she gets to know you or when we are alone that is a totally different story. When I go back to school the most I can do is hit End Call, problem solved.

Third, I am suffering with poor body image. I am sure as a woman this is completly normal. But, I see women who are skinny and are like "Oh, I'm fat" and it makes me sick to my freaking stomatch. I am like I would kill for your stomatch, sister! I know I need to learn to be comfortable with my own skin but that is the hard part sometimes. I know I need to loose weight, my diet has gone down the drain but I am cutting back. I just want to be happy with Lindsey. It's very hard when all you hear is negative from someone 24/7. I can probably count on two hands how many times she has said I love you to me in the past five years. That is very painful.

So, what I am asking for my dear friends is be praying for me. I know these are things I need to work and I am. I have no where else to reach for, and ya'll have been so wonderful and supportive to me I know I can depend on ya'll. I am gonna be working on me and I will be blogging. I love my blog and my ministry will get stronger. I just thought ya'll deserved a reason why I have not been myself here lately. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling.

Twenty-Five Very Random Facts About Me!

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REV 3:5 He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out his name from the book of life, but will acknowledge his name before my Father and his angels.

1. I write on anything! If I get inspired to write something so I won't forget it I write it on everything. Napkins, recepits, my hand, anything. You can't just shut down some inspiration.

2. The people who do not know me think I am shy the people who know me wish I would shut up. I love to talk, its just around people I am really nervous around but give me five minutes I act as if I have known you my whole life.

3. I do not have a favorite color techinally. I wear every color, I am a very bright dresser. If I am wearing a plain t-shirt I jazz it up with earrings or necklaces or a scarf. I am always creative. So, if I had to name my favorite it'd be pink or kelly green.

4. I always have a book with me. Right now the book in my person is "Catcher in the Rye". So, if I am stranded with time to kill I always have a book handy so it will keep my mind busy.

5. I very seldom get cold. If I do its because I don't feel well, or tired, or just kinda nippy. If I get cold I usually carry a hoodie with me just to cover my arms. I always have three fans going in my room yearly. My dad used to joke I could hang meat in my room it was so cold.

6. My dreams are very detialed. I keep a journal and a pen tucked under my pillow every night so I plop up and write it down. I remember everything about my dreams.

7. I have enbraced my love of being a nerd. I use to be so senstive about being made fun of now its just like okay whatever. I know I am different but that is what makes us all beautiful.

8. I love to make people laugh. Even though I am having a bad day I try to make someone else's day a little bit better.

9. I always tell people I love them! Like my friends, old coworkers when I see them, some of my favorite customers.

10. I have a best friend who is a male and an EX. Joshua and I if you have not read my blog post about him you should. He is a wonderful man and I would not trade him for anything in this world. We break the rules of ex's cant be friends..well we are best friends.

11. I am not understood by my mother. My mother and I went to see New Moon again Tuesday, and there is a preview for Sherlock Holmes. I love Sherlock Holmes and she knows it, she said "You wouldnt like something like that." This is also the same mother who thinks I love romance novels.

12. I cry at least once a day for about 10mins or less over my dad.

13. My favorite literary characters are Ozma, The Scarecrow, Sherlock Holmes, Matilda, Susan (off Narnia books), Klara (off Heidi), and Sara Crew.

14. I love coffoe..anyway you do it will drink it.

15. My father was my best friend in this house. My dad knew me better than anyone for a long time, I still say he does. When I was 12yrs old I wanted this Sherlock Holmes detective kit and I meationed only once. Next week when I passed my spelling test it was in the seat waitting for me.

16. People say I look like my mom and act like my dad. I take that as the greatest compliament in the world.

17. One time in high school me and Lorna got in a fight like a pulling hair claws came out fight and when the teachers pulled us apart they asked if me and her were aware of we were fighting with each other. That is one of the funniest memories of my life.

18. I am gonna need a room in my future house just for the books.

19. I am very opionated. If you do not like what I tell you do not ask me. I guess that is why I am enjoying the whole counselor theory I want to be.

20. I guess Joshua is right..I bring kidney infections onto myself. I drink around a two liter of diet coke or diet dr pepper daily.

21. I miss my long hair, I am growing it out again and do not plan on cutting it for awhile. I learned from my mistake on that one.

22. I am more of a salty than a sweet person. I hardly ever get a sweet tooth if I want something sweet I want something sweet and stand back.

23. I have too many posters in my room we got: The Wizard of Oz, New Moon, Team Jasper and Alice, Chinese love, and The Neverending Story.

24. When I was five I feel and busted my head open 134 staples buddy. Honestly I never even felt it, did not know what happened until someone put their hand on the back of my head and blood was pouring out.

25. This blog is one of the greatest joys in my life.

Prayer Request

2009-11-25T15:56:00.001-08:00

This Just IN.....

I do not know all the details but my friend Robbies cousion and five children have been involved in a bad wreak here in Fordyce if you mind could be praying for the family.

Spiritual Gifts.

2009-11-23T15:53:00.000-08:00

ROM 2:7 To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life.

Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is doing well, blessed, and at ease. If not, sit back take a load off and just take it all in. I been doing alot of thinking here lately, which sometimes gets me in trouble. I am finding out alot about life, people, journey of what we call life, and the word of GOD. I read my Bible three times a day: once in the morning before I start my day, in the afternoon I give myself thirty minutes just sit back drink a cup of sweet tea or diet coke, and at night for an hour or more. I give myself this time because it eases my day, takes the stress off a tad. I write this blog not because I have too or I want to boast about certain things, it is to share the word of GOD through my writing. All my life I have been a writer - I wrote, tv show eposides of my favorite shows, I wrote articles, I wrote plays, and now as a young woman I want to be an inspirtaional writer. If I have changed one life, it has made all the difference. GOD is so good and he has given all special gifts. In the Bible these are called Spiritual Gifts.

ADMINISTRATION: 1 Cor. 12:28 - to steer the body toward the accomplishment of God-given goals and directives by planning, organizing, and supervising others (Greek Word: kubernesis - to steer, guide, helmsmen)

APOSTLE: Eph. 4:11; 1 Cor. 12:28 - to be sent forth to new frontiers with the gospel, providing leadership over church bodies and maintaining authority over spiritual matters pertaining to the church (Greek Word: apostolos - 'apo'=from 'stello'=send; one sent forth)

CELIBACY: 1 Cor. 7:7,8 - to voluntarily remain single without regret and with the ability to maintain controlled sexual impulses so as to serve the Lord without distraction

DISCERNMENT: 1 Cor. 12:10 - to clearly distinguish truth from error by judging whether the behavior or teaching is from God, Satan, human error, or human power

EVANGELISM: Eph. 4:11 - to be a messenger of the good news of the Gospel (Greek Word: euaggelistes - preacher of gospel; eu=well, angelos=message - messenger of good)

EXHORTATION: Rom. 12:8 - to come along side of someone with words of encouragement, comfort, consolation, and counsel to help them be all God wants them to be (Greek Word: paraklesis - calling to one’s side)

FAITH: 1 Cor. 12:8-10 - to be firmly persuaded of God’s power and promises to accomplish His will and purpose and to display such a confidence in Him and His Word that circumstances and obstacles do not shake that conviction

GIVING: Rom. 12:8 - to share what material resources you have with liberality and cheerfulness without thought of return

HEALING: 1 Cor. 12:9,28,30 - to be used as a means through which God makes people whole either physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually

HELPS: 1 Cor. 12:28 - to render support or assistance to others in the body so as to free them up for ministry

HOSPITALITY: 1 Pet. 4:9,10 - to warmly welcome people, even strangers, into one’s home or church as a means of serving those in need of food or lodging (Greek Word: philoxenos - love of strangers; ‘philos’=love; ‘xenos’=stranger)

KNOWLEDGE: 1 Cor. 12:8 - to seek to learn as much about the Bible as possible through the gathering of much information and the analyzing of that data

LEADERSHIP: Rom. 12:8 - to stand before the people in such a way as to attend to the direction of the body with such care and diligence so as to motivate others to get involved in the accomplishment of these goals

MARTYRDOM: 1 Cor. 13:3 - to give over one’s life to suffer or to be put to death for the cause of Christ

MERCY: Rom. 12:8 - to be sensitive toward those who are suffering, whether physically, mentally, or emotionally, so as to feel genuine sympathy with their misery, speaking words of compassion but moreso caring for them with deeds of love to help alleviate their distress

MIRACLES: 1 Cor. 12:10,28 - to be enabled by God to perform mighty deeds which witnesses acknowledge to be of supernatural origin and means

MISSIONARY: Eph. 3:6-8 - to be able to minister in another culture

PASTOR: Eph. 4:11 - to be responsible for spiritually caring for, protecting, guiding, and feeding a group of believers entrusted to one’s care

PROPHECY: Rom. 12:6; 1 Cor. 12:10; Eph. 4:11 - to speak forth the message of God to His people (Greek Word: prophetes - the forth-telling of the will of God;‘pro’=forth; ‘phemi’=to speak)

SERVICE: Rom. 12:7 - to identify undone tasks in God’s work, however menial, and use available resources to get the job done (Greek Word: diakonia - deacon, attendant ‘diako’=to run errands)

TEACHING: Rom. 12:7; 1 Cor. 12:28; Eph. 4:11 - to instruct others in the Bible in a logical, systematic way so as to communicate pertinent information for true understanding and growth

TONGUES: 1 Cor. 12:10; 14:27-28 - to speak in a language not previously learned so unbelievers can hear God’s message in their own language or the body be edified

INTERPRETATION OF TONGUES: 1 Cor. 12:10; 14:27,28 - to translate the message of someone who has spoken in tongues

VOLUNTARY POVERTY: 1 Cor. 13:3 - to purposely live an impoverished lifestyle to serve and aid others with your material resources

WISDOM: 1 Cor. 12:8 - to apply knowledge to life in such a way as to make spiritual truths quite relevant and practical in proper decision-making and daily life situations

Now my question to you in return, as a comment leave me what you believe is your spirtiual gift. I want to know more about you guys. I want to know how you figure this is your gift, or how you came to realize it is. I love to know. Let me know! I love ya'll tons and Keep Smiling.

Tag: Books I find myself re-reading

2009-11-22T18:17:00.000-08:00

I know every book of mine by its smell, and I have but to put my nose between the pages to be reminded of all sorts of things. ~George Robert Gissing

Books can be dangerous. The best ones should be labeled "This could change your life." ~Helen Exley

A house without books is like a room without windows. ~Heinrich Mann

Books. To my left and to my right in my small room my labatory, my comfort zone, I am safe here. I have made many of journeys without even leaving my room. I've gone down Swann's Way, Ive got floating a raft with Huck and Jim, I've skipped down a Yellow Brick Road with my favorite Scarecrow, and I've rode on the back of a luckdragon. On in this very room. I found this tag on my search on Google, and I will share my favorite books that I re-read and if you have any questions please post them. I will answer you as soon as I can get to them. Do not freet my New Moon review and story is coming. Now, onto my list. It will be just a list but if you want a summary or a review please ask.

Albert Einstein - Ideas & Opinions
Agatha Christie - The Mysterious Affair at Styles
Aldus Huxley - Brave New World
Alexander Pope - An Essay on Man
Alexandre Dumas - The Man in the Iron Mask
Alice Hoffman - Practical Magic
Alice Walker - The Color Purple
Ambrose Bierce - The Devil's Dictionary
Amy Tan - The Joy Luck Club
Anna Sewell - Black Beauty
Anne Frank - Diary of a Young Girl
Anne Rice - Interview with a Vampire
Anne Rice - The Witching Hour
Anonymous - Go Ask Alice
Aristotle - Poetics
Arthur C. Clarke - 2001: A Space Odyssey
Arthur Conan Doyle - The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes
Arthur Conan Doyle - The Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes
Arthur Golden - Memoirs of a Geisha
Arthur Miller - Death of a Salesman
Ayn Rand - Atlas Shrugged
Baroness Emmuska Orczy - The Scarlet Pimpernel
Beatrix - The Great Big Treasury of Beatrix Potter
Betty Smith - A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
Beverly Cleary - Dear Mr. Henshaw
Brian Stableford - Sexual Chemistry: Sardonic Tales of the Genetic Revolution
C. S. Lewis - The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe
C. S. Lewis - Prince Caspian
Carroll - Through The Looking Glass
Carson McCullers - The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter
Charles Frazier - Cold Mountain
Charles Dickens - A Christmas Carol
Charles Dickens - Bleak House
Charles Dickens - David Copperfield
Charles Dickens - Nicholas Nickleby
Charles Dickens - The Pickwick Papers
Charlotte Perkins Gilman - The Yellow Wallpaper
Christopher Marlowe - Dr. Faustus
D.H. Lawrence - Sons and Lovers
Daniel Defoe - Moll Flanders
Daniel Goleman - Emotional Intelligence
Daniel Keyes - Flowers For Algernon
Donald Norman - The Psychology of Everyday Things
Douglas Adams - The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy: A Trilogy in Four Parts
Dr. Seuss - Green Eggs and Ham
E.B. White - Charlotte's Web
Edgar Allan Poe - Complete Stories and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe
Edith Wharton - Ethan Frome
Edith Wharton - House of Mirth
Edith Wharton - The Age of Innocence
Ernest Hemingway - For Whom the Bell Tolls
Ernest Hemingway - The Sun Also Rises
Ernest J. Gaines - A Lesson Before Dying
Eudora Welty - Collected Stories
F. Dostoyevsky - The Idiot
F. Scott Fitzgerald - The Great Gatsby
Frances Hodgson Burnett - A Little Princess
Frances Hodgson Burnett - The Secret Garden
Francis Bacon - Essays of Francis Bacon
Frank McCourt - Angela's Ashes: A Memoir
Franz Kafka - The Metamorphosis
Fyodor Dostoyevsky - The Brothers Karamazov
Fyodor Dostoevsky - Crime and Punishment
Fyodor Dostoyevsky - Notes From The Underground
Gabriel Garcia Marquez - Love in the Time of Cholera
Gabriel Garcia Marquez - One Hundred Years of Solitude
George Eliot - Silas Marner
George Orwell - Animal Farm
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty-Four
Gregory Maguire - Wicked
Gustave Flaubert - Madame Bovary
H. G. Wells - The Tiime Machine
Hans Christian Andersen - The Complete Fairy Tales and Stories
Henry David Thoreau - Walden
Henry James - Daisy Miller
Henry James - The Turn of the Screw
Henry James - The Portrait of a Lady
J. D. Salinger - Franny and Zooey
J. D. Salinger - The Catcher in the Rye
J. M. Barrie - Peter Pan
J. R.R. Tolkien - The Lord of the Rings Trilogy
James Fenimore Cooper - The Last Of The Mohicans
James Joyce - A Portrait of the Artist As a Young Man
James Joyce - Dubliners
Jane Austen - Pride and Prejudice
Jane Austen - Sense and Sensibility
John Grisham - The Rainmaker
John Steinbeck - Of Mice and Men
John Steinbeck - The Grapes of Wrath
Joseph Heller - Catch 22
Jules Verne - Journey to the Center of the Earth
Karl Marx and Friedrich Engels - The Communist Manifesto
Kate Chopin - The Awakening, and Selected Short Stories
Kurt Vonnegut - Slaughterhouse Five
L Frank Baum - The Wonderful Wizard of Oz series
L. Frank Baum - Ozma of Oz
L. M. Montgomery - Anne of Green Gables
Laura Ingalls Wilder - Little House on the Prairie
Leo Tolstoy - Anna Karenina
Lois Lowery - The Giver
Louisa May Alcott - Little Women
Madeleine L'Engle - A Wrinkle in Time
Marion Zimmer Bradley - The Mists of Avalon
Maya Angelou - I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings
Michael Ende - The Neverending Story
Mitch Albom - Tuesdays With Morrie
Neil Gaiman - Snow White, Blood Red

My Heart for the Lord

2009-11-17T19:52:00.000-08:00

A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ, that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.” Maya Angelou.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.1 Peter 4:8

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.1 John 4:7

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.1 John 4:18

And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.Colossians 3:14

Hello Everyone, I hope this post finds everyone well and blessed. Today I decided to write about love, and the true meanings. The quote I first put on this blog, I have as my facebook status and my twitter account. I hold that quote close to my heart. I posted alot of Bible verses about love today because all of them touched me one way or another. I have had LOVE on my heart, mind, and spirit alot here lately. Maybe it's I'm lonely, maybe it's I need to take some time out for the day, or possibly I am glad with just being Lindsey for now. For those of you new to my blog a BIG welcome to you, I am sending out and all the LOVE in my heart to you as well.

As you guy's have read, I have not had the best of luck with dating. I have made mistakes, I have fallen on my face more than once. Even though I prayed with one boyfriend, went to church with two, that does not always mean GOD was in the relationship. I have been since the break-up with my last boyfriend for GOD to make his will in my life known. On his timing, not mine. I know I have set my standards really high for me to date someone but GOD knows what he wants with me. I do not in the slightest want to rush him or tell him what to do with my life. It is so hard now-days to find a great Christian man who respects you, and will understand you. I have on my left hand ring finger, a "LOVE" ring. Which means to me in my heart, I will not have sex again till I am married. But, it also means that I am all GOD's if he wants me to have the graces of a relationship he will bless it. My day will come. Someday my prince will come. I don't know when or how, but GOD always has your best intrest at heart. I heard from a youth minister one time that GOD answers things three ways: Yes, No, I have something better in store.

To me Love, is a hard for me to say or belive in sometimes. But, I know I have to turn it all over to GOD. Not just saying, "GOD take care of this for me." It is more of the lines of, "GOD, I turn to you and I give it ALL to you." Notice the word: ALL. Not just some, half, a little bit but ALL. The word all is defined as used with either mass or count nouns to indicate the whole number or amount. I also know that you can not just go to GOD when the storm gets rough, you have to go to him with ALL things. Are ya'll seeing a pattern of how I am loving the word ALL? We have to go to him when we have a headache to when we want his help or guidance. All things. I remember so many times, I am guility of when I am in a relationship to turn to the man I was with and say, "Fix it". Instead, I should of turned to GOD and said "GOD, Fix It". Because man has nothing on the Lord Jesus.

I know I am only day two of my diet, and boy its been a stressful two days. I been wanting Chinese like it is no tomorrow. But, every morning I get out of bed and pray for the new day GOD has given me. And, if it is to be my last so be it. You all know I love you, my family does, my friends, and I have nothing else to give or show for it. My diet has not only been a weight-loss plan but a get closer-to-GOD plan. I need to keep my eyes on the SON. I know that GOD has a beautiful planned, even if it is raining you have "Praise him in the storm." I know the meaning of the song, and it is very true. We have to praise GOD even though when times get rough. When we seem like there is no way. There are so many days I wanna stay in bed and think, "Ugh..I miss my dad I want to stay in bed." No, I get up and praise the GOD who gives because of him I was given a handsome and loving father. I still do, I have a father that loves me no matter what this world throws at me, or will hand me in return.

So, what I am saying my beautiful readers is I challenge ya'll is to tell someone you love them. I tell you every time I write because we never know it will be our last, it is true I do love you, and some of you the only time you hear it is through me. And, the keep smiling comes from usually when you tell someone you love them. A smile comes on that face, that just glows like the SON. You see how I got my catch phrase. I am gonna go work on some Social Problems. My email is open to prayer request, praise reports, diet recipes, just needing someone. My arms are open: booknerd4christ@gmail.com. I love you and Keep Smiling, Lindsey.

The Journey of Finding the Real Me Inside.

2009-11-14T08:22:00.000-08:00

Matthew 5:39-46 But I tell you, don’t resist him who is evil; but whoever strikes you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also. If anyone sues you to take away your coat, let him have your cloak also. Whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two.Give to him who asks you, and don’t turn away him who desires to borrow from you.“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor, and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you, that you may be children of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the just and the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Don’t even the tax collectors do the same?

WOW! I had to use a long verse today! How is everyone? I hope everyone is well and extremely blessed! It is a goregous South Arkansas day it looks like. I am sitting here eatting my last waffle till I start my diet which I won't be able to have :( and drinking a cup of coffoe. I do not know how I make throughout my day without my four cups of coffoe. Yes, you heard me right I said four. This post is somewhat close to my heart, my mind, and my spirit. So, sit back get a Coke, coffoe, water, whatever you perfer and be prepared to enjoy. Well.. I hope anyway.

Last year around this time, I still was with the guy of three years we were in the midst of the rocky part of our relationship. We got in fights nightly on the phone, he wouldn't call at all some nights, and you would think that should of been a pure indicators that something was not right. We had "broken up" in July but we still talked every single day and still said I love you to each other and he kept saying, "Oh I want to be with you so bad, I just wanna be in person to ask you back again to." So, I asked him one night on one of our arguments, "Do you tell people your single or are you talking to someone?" He said, " I tell people I'm single." My mind thought, "Oh, okay I got ya." Well, Christmas was coming up I had bought his presents already, gotten a new red sweater to wear on our time together, gotten my nails done because he liked it when my nails were done. Well, he would usually come home the second week in December so that way we would have almost a month together. He ended up calling me on his lunch hour and said, "Lindsey, we need to talk." I thought, "Oh, he's not gonna get to come home till next week, thats fine". He said, "I, dont know how to tell you this, but I have met someone." "I think she is wonderful, and um she wants to know I am completly devoted to her." I said, "Are you attracted to her? Like do you guys have stuff in common?" He said, "Well, yeah she doesn't know about you and well, I wanted to be honest with you about her."I was mad, very mad I said, "Okay, (his name here) I am done." So, we got off the phone I went to walmart returned his gifts got my money back. He called me that night, we talked it was the last time we talked till....

On December 30th, I got an email saying a Blackberry message. I thought, "Okay, I don't know anyone with a blackberry." So, I open it anyway...it's from him. He said, I am on my way to Arkansas to stay at mom and dad's me and you have alot of talking, truth telling to tell you, and tears to cry. Well, I called him as soon as I stepped away from the computer. To my suprise he picked up the phone, he sounded mad and sad at the same time. He admitted to cheating on me the whole three years, having sex with her, honestly loving her longer than I had known about her. He told me the truth about so much, and it nearly broke me inside.

On January 15, I had worked that day, all day open to close. I was wooped tired. I worked so much that day because we were understaff and I had taken the day off the day before because me and Robbie went to Little Rock for her birthday. I left my phone at home because I didn't have any signal at the store so I just left it. It said I have two missed calls and two new voicemails. I thought, "They are probably Robbie." Because alot of times I would call her on my break when I went outside. The number showed his number. I called the voicemail... the first one sounded like the him I knew, it sounded like he was trying to talk low so he wouldnt get in trouble. Well, the next voicemail was the exact opposite. It envolved him and her yelling at me on the phone. It sounded like a man who had gotten caught. That night, I asked my mom could I change my number and let her listen to the voicemial. Keep in mind, after the night he told me the truth I didnt speak to him ever again. No emails, facebook, myspace, nothing. He didn't exist to me. That night, I admited to having sex with him. My mom and I had a huge blow out, and it resulted in me leaving and going to Magnolia for two days. I ended up getting a new number that Tuesday.

Today...
I have not spoken to the man of three years since that night. I have to be completly honest, I do not miss him at all. I don't miss the lies, the abuse, the negleation, the non-christian situation he made. I have had the best year without him. I went to Branson with my friend Robbie, which I paid for on my own. I have met an amazing friend who is an ex but he is an amazing friend. Me and Joshua admitted to still loving each other after all these years. And, me and him forgave one another. I have gone camping for the first time, I had frog legs for the first time. I have laughed more this year more than any in my life. I get to go to New Moon Thursday at 12AM which I am super pumped over. My list goes on and on. I have had some heartbreaks this year but all and all it has been a wonderful and blessed year.

Through it all, I learned with him and I not together. I am so happy with me. I know I need to loose some weight but I am gonna work on that. I got closer to GOD, I realized how wonderful he is. I realized that everytime I had a problem instead of going to GOD I went to him, and that is not how it is suppose to be. I learned of what kind of counselor, role model I want to of this world. I found out, that Lindsey is not a bad person after all. That I am not and will not be the horrible person he claims that I am. I may be single, but you know I know GOD has a plan for me. If it is to be married, with kids, to date, to make my own minsitry. GOD is control in all things in my life. And, I love him forever more for it. I learned what my favorite Bible verses are.

Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

If you or you know someone dealing with abuse please talk to tell them, get your Bible out and speak from your heart. GOD will tell you what to say or do. Here are some numbers:

1−800−799−SAFE(7233) National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-4-A-CHILD The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
1.800.656.HOPE National Sexual Assault Hotline
1-866-331-9474 National Teen Dating Abuse Helpline

This story and the information contain to it are very close to my heart, and I love you all so very much. And, if you need someone, anyone I am always here. My email for you guys is booknerd4christ@gmail.com. If you need me my heart is open. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Weight Loss For Lindsey

2009-11-09T16:34:00.000-08:00

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.Psalm 1:24
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in you.Psalm 33:22

Hey Everyone, I hope this post finds everyone well and blessed. Okay, as I have metioned I weight WAY too much. I am 5'4 and weight 214. YIKES! Gosh, that was hard to admit. I am starting Next Monday a diet and a steady workout routine. So, what do I ask of ya'll. Here goes:

1. What are good eatting diet tips ya'll can give?

2. Besides breads (which includes rice and pasta) and sweets what do I need to stay away from?

3. I plan on going two times a day once in the morning and another at night. Anything else you guys can think of as work out I can do?

4. What are good snacks to have, keep in mind I can't do to much sweet?

My goal is 140, I know that is a LONG goal but I believe in myself and with effort and prayer and timing I will get there. Thank you for the prayers, advice, and yelling at me to get it speeches you might send. I love you all and Keep Smiling.

Lindsey's Top 5's Updated

2009-11-07T20:44:00.000-08:00

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. (Psalm 27: 1, 3)

Top 5 Books: This is really hard so I will pick one out of each catagory I think of.
Classic Literature: To Kill A Mockingbird - A must read for anyone, it will change the way you think.
Mystery: The Hound of Baskervilles - A Sherlock Holmes mystery
Fantasy: The Neverending Story - I so wanted to be Bastian when I was a kid. I went through a phase wanting to name my future kid Bastian.
Children's Lit: The Wonderful Wizard of Oz series. I can't chose one, if and only IF I had to besides the first book I would say "Ozma of Oz" is my favorite.
Poem: The Road Not Take - Deep meaning to me. Robert Frost is awesome.
Book Series: (Besides Oz) Probably either Babysitters Club or American Girl.
Play: Othello. Shakespeare is a must in every form of the world.
Romance: I will call this romance... The Notebook I love Allie and Noah so much its not even funny.
Bible Book: Proverbs or 1st Corithains I rotate back and forth.

5 favorite movies: One's ya'll do not hear me talking about alot. So that means no "Wizard of Oz" talk.

1. My Girl - I totally relate to Vada, how she misses her mom (in my case dad) and her best friend dies. Weeping Willow her poem at the end none stop waterworks over here.
2. Little Women - I love Jo! I fell in love with Christian Bale because of this movie. Jo was always my favorite character in the book. When I was younger I was pissed her and Laurie did not end up together but now that I am older, I see so much heat between her and Frederick.
3. Twister - This movie had me hooked by the first time I watched in 8th grade, Mr. Sims Science class. I loved the idea of chasing storms. Even though I am terrifed of bad weather myself.
4. Young Sherlock Holmes. My mom got me hooked on this movie when I was gosh maybe 10. She knew I loved Sir Aruther Connan Doyle so why not show me the movie.
5. The Little Princess - I loved Laviana! Even though she was a spoilt brat still loved her. Sara also states a very good point in this movie. "All girls are princesses!"

My Top 5 things I munch on:
1. Gum - I am huge gum chewer, since I quit smoking I found gum to be an easier to pop then light up. I perfer Speariment or something fruity.
2. Combos - for those who don't know what Combos are, they are pretzels packed with cheese or some kind of flavor. My favorites are pizza one's.
3. Sour Patch Kids - I love something sweet every once in a while and these those cravings.
4. Beef Jerkey - I love it regular, hot and spicy, teraiki, however you do it I love it.
5. Nachos - With Jalapenos please.

5 Best TV Shows:
1. Gilmore Girls - There is a longer debate over I am a Lorelai or a Rory. I say I am a Rory, but my friends whom have seen the show say I am a Loreali. It is a great and funny show.
2. The Nanny - I loved this show when I was younger and now that is on Nick at Nite I stay up to watch it.
3. Sex and the City - I love this show. The TBS version sure does water it down some though.
4. Jepodary - I fond memories of me and my dad watching this and see how knows more.
5. Touched by an Angel - I was so in love with John Dye, you folks don't even know. I have my autograph cast photo around here.

Bands I would love to see live:
1. David Crowder Band
2. Casting Crowns
3. Skillet
4. Chris Tomlin
5. Avalon

Things I would blow major money if I won the lottery:
1. Donate some to the church
2. Pay off the student loan I have now
3. Get an apartment of my own
4. Pay for school
5. Save it.

My Top 5 favorite songs at the moment are:
1. Second Chance
2. Amazing Grace (my chains are gone)
3. I praise you with the dance
4. Who Am I?
5. I run to you

My top 5 favorite smells:
1. Gasoline
2. Moonlight Path from B&BW
3. Sugar Cookies Baking
4. Fresh Cut Grass
5. PINK Fresh and Clean by VS

My top 5 travel destinations:
1. Paris, France
2. Rome, Italy
3. Atlanta, GA
4. Vermont
5. Dublin, Ireland

My top 5 things I want to learn to do:
1. Play an acoustic guitar
2. Learn to speak Italian
3. Sign Lanauge.
4. Ride horseback
5. Paint

My top 5 things I hate doing:
1. Shaving my legs
2. Washing Dishes
3. Clean up Salem's furball's
4. Not having enough hours in the day
5. Standing in long lines.

My top 5 things websites I visit daily:
1. School's website
2. Gmail/Yahoo
3. Google
4. Facebook
5. Youtube

Five things you would need to put in a trap to lir me in:
1. A pile of books which includes a Bible
2. Chinese food
3. COLD Dt. Dr Pepper
4. My friends
5. A notebook with pens

My top 5 favorite things to drink:
1. Coffoe
2. Dt Mt Dew
3. Dt Dr Pepper
4. Dt Coke
5. Sweet Tea

Learning to trust GOD.

2009-11-05T13:39:00.000-08:00

Trust in the Lord, and do good;dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.Delight yourself in the Lord,and he will give you the desires of your heart.Commit your way to the Lord;trust in him, and he will act.He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,and your justice as the noonday.—Psalm 37:3-6

Hey Everyone! I hope everyone is doing well and is having such a blessed day. It is another goregous day here in South Arkansas. I am sitting at school with Robbie, and thought I would take a minute and write from my heart for a minute. Things in life, it seems are going by faster and faster. This year to me has flown by, things are changing, people are changing. And, hearts are changing. I do not know what to think sometimes, say or even know if it is worth in the end sometimes. Things are also changing at a pace in my life, I do not sometimes if I can keep up with. People in my life are tugging me so many ways. Ways sometimes I do not want to be pulled. My eyes bellow up in tears, I know I am not responsible for anyones happiness but my own. I just wish people knew that, its like no matter what sometimes your best is not good enough.

I am 24 years old, single, no job, no children, husband, wanting to go back to school so bad it is not funny anymore. And, in my mothers eyes I am a huge mistake. My mom have a very strange relationship, like I meationed in my post. She is one day my best friend and the next day she can not stand me. It is very confusing at times. She tells people how much I do not do. She embarsses me by telling them things about my past. It is hard for me not to dwell in my past when my negative is always blown in my face. I guess that is one of the many reasons I named my blog, Keep Your Eyes On the Son. Because, in the end, it is not going to matter what she or anyone else says but it is between me and GOD. My mom was married three years by the time she was my age.

Romantic Love? Do I believe in it? Yes, with all my heart I believe in it. It is something that can not pushed, texted, called, it is a choice. Now, keep in mind this is my opinon but I think love is a choice. Love is not saying oh I think we been together this long so I must love you. No, you can be with someone your whole life and not know them. You can not push or make someone love you. You have to be yourself and only yourself. Not, okay today I am gonna be country or tomorow I will be hardcore, or next week I will be needy. You have got to find yourself and learn to love and accept yourself before anyone else can make that choice to love you in return. I understand it is hard, and I am single maybe I do not know. But, I personally believe that you should pray for your future. If you want a loving husband/wife that is a Christian pray for them. Odds are, they are probably praying for you as well. Pray for your future children, either you have them naturally or not. They will be children one way or another.

Why must we wait? GOD never said life would be easy, but he did say it would be worth it in the end. We are to TRUST him in all that we do. Trust is something I can personally say is my hardspot. I think "oh so many people have hurt me" and let that get in the way of GOD I give it to you and I trust what your gonna do. Your gonna bring me a GOD-loving husband and give me children. And, if not I praise you till my last breathe. You have trust GOD will take care of you no matter what the opsticle. I have been without a job since May, I know people who have been without longer, but we all have to hold hands and get on our knees and realize GOD is and always will take care of us. You have to trust GOD, he know the thoughts, sorrows, pains, and wants that are on our hearts. I was told by a youth pastor one time GOD answers things three ways: Yes, No, I have something better in store. I belive that statement.

Blaming/Questioning GOD? Things in life are not supposed to be handed to us but they are however will be rewarding. I saw all the beautiful fall colors today, and I thought you know this is so beautiful. When we have troubles it seems like the first question that comes out of our mouths is, "GOD, why did this happen?" As much as we would all love to know the answers to the questions, today is not that day. One day we will have the answers, I think GOD has a compostion notebook full of questions from me. I am so guility of this one. We sometimes blame GOD for things like alcholoism, drug use, sexual addictions, anything really we can blame GOD on. This is my favorite Bible Verse Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."Joshua 1:9.

Okay, this is my rant for the day and I hope everyone is well and being blessed. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling. Forever in Christ Love, Lindsey!

Happy Birthday Joshua!

2009-11-04T12:02:00.000-08:00

PRO 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

As you all know I have meationed a guy named Joshua for the past and now you get to know the skinny on the ever so famous Joshua!

I met Joshua when I was 14 years old, when I was dating his best friend at the time, Kyle. Joshua was sitting at the computer and had this huge smile and his brown eyes just sparkled. I remember smiling back, to this day he said that and my eyes were the first things he noticed about me. We talked a long time and soon exchanged email address to keep in touch since I did not know when I would ever see him again. Joshua and I talked that night for it seemed eternity we talked about how what kind of movies were into to what music we were into to families. Joshua told me he was one of three children and he was a middle child, he said I have an older brother and little bit younger brother. It is funny his younger brother and I share a birthday. Joshua and I are the same age but I am four months older. Joshua was also in band and we went to different schools. My dad one October wanted to go to that school's ballgame since our team was not doing well and two the high school Joshua went to is the same one my dad went too. How cool! So, I see Joshua march in with the saxophones and then I saw a replica of him marching in with the trumpets. I look at my dad, and say I never knew he was a twin!? Joshua still laugh about that everytime we talk so not cool. Joshua and I had our up's and down's of our friendship and first up till April of 2003.

On April 8, 2003 me and Joshua admitted to one another after the dramatic breakup of me and his best friend, to try to dating. He accepted my offer to be my senior prom date, we had a blast that night. That was the night we both shared our first kiss as a couple and admitted we love one another. We spent that summer together going to New Mexico to do missions with his church, to coming over and watching movies, to going to Applebee's for my birthday. Even going to church together was wonderful. Me and Joshua dated well up to my first semester at college, but broke up. The first few months of our break up were rocky. But, we soon came to the decesion of lets be friends. We all know the, "lets be friends" speech. I did not know how true this would be till January 2005 hit.

Joshua started college and him and his family moved to a different Arkansas. I hadn't got his new number or even know where to start to contact him. My father adored Joshua, loved him as a son. When news broke out my father had died, Joshua was crushed but not only for me but for my family and his heart was broken. I remember coming home that night from the hospital and the home phone was ringing and on the other end it was him. He was crying and said, "Lindsey, I am so sorry. Do you need me? I will be there." I remember crying so happy to hear his voice, I said "Yes, Joshua I need you". He made a promise to me for me to call him and let him know when the funeral was. I let him and I was very doubtful he would come. I was thinking the whole time getting ready for my dads funeral, "He's not coming, he won't. I know him". As soon as the funeral was over, and his friends got to walk by and pay their respects. I saw my friends, Jennifer, Luke, and Robbie walk by. And then, I looked down and Christie grabbed my hand and said "He Came!" I look up and I see his eyes on me. I remember running out to find him after the funeral. I will never forget that hug, he had tears pouring down his face and as well as I did. I kissed him, and said "Thank you, Joshua". He laughed, "He said, I don't make a promise I dont attend on keeping." He rode with me to graveside with my friends. My mom told me he could sit with me at graveside, I will never forget holding his hand and crying and his arm around me to keep me safe and warm since I was cold.

July of that year, I started dating the man of three years. Joshua and I talked alot on messanger. I still familar talks our laughs, our cries, our your so silly. I told Joshua about him, lets just say he was not happy. He tried to tell me, "He's too old for you." or "He's gonna hurt you." Did I listen? No. I thought, "Oh, he's being jealous, he's being a man." The night me and three year boyfriend had sex, I came home in tears and told Joshua. Joshua and I had it out, when I say had it out that is an understatement. Joshua knew I wanted to wait till I was married. He and I talked about that for a long time. He knew that my purity was important. In resulting in our fight I blocked him on my messanger. I hated him, I hated him for the way he down the man I loved, I hated how Joshua thought he knew me, how he thought he knew my heart better than I did. Well, Joshua was right yet again....

Two years later....I had just gotten dumped by the man of three years. Something in my heart told me, unblock Joshua, time heals all wounds. I did, and to my suprising he was online! I jumped online and poped up, "Joshua Edward!" He typed, "Hey!" Lets just say we dropped the fight meationed it and forgot and dropped it. I will always remember this, most men would of asked about the sex of "Was it good?", "How long was it?" Joshua said this and I will hear it forever in my heart, "I forgive you". I never in my life would of thought Joshua would forgive me over my stupid and dumbness. We met for lunch one time me and Robbie went to his towns college for which Robbie got her Bachelors at. We set in Mazzio's for six hours! We talked for as long as I can remember talked about everything and anything. I will remember he said to Robbie, " I hate me and her did not talk for two years, I sure did miss her." That broke my heart in so many pecies you have no idea. Joshua and I went on a date, before I got with my recent ex. The only reason I chose the reason I chose the current ex over Joshua is because. Joshua I still saw 17 year old Joshua, that I dated. Not the Joshua who has grown into this handsome, GOD worshipping, Bible reading, my match in every single way, man.

Joshua and I are best friends, through it all we have. We have feelings for one another but with him finishing school soon we simply do not know. He is the only ex, my friends love, my mom loves, my dad adored, and my sister loves. He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he makes say I hate you to him but in the next sentence its an I love you. Me and Joshua have this theory, GOD has kept close in each other's hearts for this long and we keep trusting him GOD will know what will become of us. If we are to be boyfriend and girlfriend...wonderful, if not we are so incridbly blessed to be each other's best friend. Through all our heartbreaks, to deaths, to countless pizza's we have enhaled, to the many tickle wars we have, I am glad to say that I love this man. It took me a long time to come to this point, to realize what it truly means to be happy. And, this is how I believe GOD told Joshua and I to keep our promises to one another. Best Friends to End.

Happy 24th Birthday Joshua! With all my Love. To my partner in crime, to my best friend, to my Luke Danes (Gilmore Girls joke), my Chinese food partner, my music of my heart, my Razorback football partner, the arms that lift up when I am down! I love you! Lindsey :).

Blessings...big and small

2009-11-02T16:27:00.000-08:00

Matthew 21:21-22 Jesus answered them, "“Most certainly I tell you, if you have faith, and don’t doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you told this mountain, ‘Be taken up and cast into the sea,’ it would be done. All things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”"

How is everyone on this second day of November? I am doing well, and very productive. Paper done for my Socail Problems class, Bible Study for the morning was done, bookmarked where I will read for tonights lesson, and have drunk down two glasses of orange juice and sprite (mix together for a sore throat remedy). It was absloutly goregous here in South Arkansas today! I had the day mostly to myself today since my mom had gone to get my sister so they could take care of some busincess. I just laid in my bed observing the quietness of my life. I went outside in our big backyard and played with Reese some. Some neighbor, was burning leaves so I am thinking that is why my voice is bit raspy today. Better keep to the juice and sprite, huh? As, I look at the things around I see how incridibly blessed that I am.

Yes, I miss my daddy daily. Oh, ya'll I can not explain enough how much I miss him! I wish you all could of met him. He was funny, he was smart, talkative, always a pal to anyone who needed one, a Christian, I could see GOD's love just shine through those big brown eyes. But, GOD has BLESSED me. He gave me a wonderful father, he gave me a father who was not abusive or curel. And, even though on Father's Day I miss him. I do still however have a Father. A Heavenly Father that loves me beyond measure. I remember telling that to a few co-workers one time and they had no idea what I was talking about so that is another great time I witnessed. I pray for all of you and your families. And, if your fathers are still living tell your daddy's you love him daily. Call him and say "Hey I was thinking of you today and I love you". My sweet best friend, Meredith recently not even a year ago lost her handsome and loving father to a brain tumor. If you guys would like to contact to her she is on my followers. She is the only Meredith. She is my true GOD sister! I love you, Meredith keep your eyes on the son sweetheart.

Through me loosing Lorna, my best friend of fourteen years it has been hard. Yes, the last fews of her life we were not very close but she was my soulmate in so many ways. We made each other laugh, we were each other's dates to things before boys no longer had cotties. But, through her love that shines in my heart I am willing to trust the people who do like to call theirseleves my friends. I am so incridibly blessed to have the ones I do. I love each and everyone of them. I tell them daily how much I love them. Do not forget to tell your best friends or friends that you love them daily too. Me and my friends tried to do things together every chance we get. Me and Meredith get together when her and wonderful husband, Russell come into South Arkansas. We talk daily on the phone and I bet Russell gets a kick out of what we talk about. Joshua, my best friend of ten years, whom will have a blog in a few days for his birthday! Joshua and I do not date but gosh I love that man. He was my high school boyfriend, and ladies you know the "Oh, we will be friend" speech. This man has kept to his word. I will let you know more about him tomorrow. My darling, Robbie whom is my Rosalie to my Alice. Her home is my second home. We are always together. Did I meation she's Lorna's couison. Oh, how I love my Robbie-Sue. And, last but not least my Magnolia friends I am so close to all of them I can not say I am there for others more than the other. I see them some and we talk alot. I love and am so blessed for these people.

My sister, Christie, whom I see the SON is growing in. Christie will be 20 in January. Christie should still be my little sister whom would come in my room and be my patient, play fingerpaints with me in the yard, or ride bikes with down a hill who could get their faster. GOD told my parents it would not be possible for them to have kids. Well, here me and Christie are. I know me and Christie fight, disargee pull each others hair out. But, I can do those things no one else. We are exact opposites in so many ways more than one. I love her so much and would do anything and everything for her. I am so glad to be Auntie Lin Lin to Reese. She has become stronger in her walk, and with me since our dad died. I believe that it is because of the passing of our handsome daddy a day before her birthday. I love you, Christie and keep smiling baby!

My mother, Lennie, who is a light that flickers in the SONlight. As much as me and her fight, argue, hurt each others feelings she is my mother nonetheless. We have the relationship that reminds me Jesus and Judus had. Jesus loved Judus even though he hurt me more than once but Judus just knew what would hurt Jesus. But, Jesus took in the pain and suffering not from Judus but all the sinners of the world. I take on sometimes not only burdens, pains, and sadness I take on hers as well. There are days that we are best friends, there are days we maybe say 3 words to each other, and then are days we do not even speak. I pray for her daily, that she will realize that things are gonna be okay, they won't be better but with GOD he will give her the strength to be strong.

My school, Southern Arkansas University, I told you guys I would tell you what school I plan on going back too. I will be going back to SAU in the fall. I miss it so much. And, I will contiue to write to ya'll daily even if I have a huge test the next day you will get a line saying I am well and alive with pizza (laughs). I will be majoring in Psychology and Sociology a double major. I will also be active in Association of Baptist Students, that is my second home while I am at SAU. I absloutly all the wonderful people and friends there. I am aware alot of my friends I made while I was at SAU are gone. But, that is a perfect chance to get to know more people. And, fall in love with more people. And, this will be my first time with people in my major so I will be making new friends there as well. I also plan on start on a diet while I am there so I can loose some weight my goal is a size 12. Thats 8 sizes! Can I do it? We will see what happends when I put GOD in my diet plan as well.

My Bible Study family, we range from male to female, young to older adults. We do not call ourselves a class we call ourseleves a family. Becuase in heaven we will be just that a giagantic family whom I can not wait to see and worship the LORD together. I love them all so very much.

You, yes, you my readers are also a great blessing in my life! I love reading when each and everyone of you updates. I love your comments! You guys have no idea how much love I have recieved from ya'll. For a girl from small town Arkansas, who loves books, changing lives, and her beautiful SAVIOR. I sent most of ya'll emails about my blog, you could of said, "No", "No intrested". But, you have opened your heart open to me and for that I am incridibly blessed and thankful. I love you so and Keep Smiling.

You Knock Me Off My Feet

2009-11-01T13:28:00.000-08:00

2 Corinthians 12:9-10"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

Hey Everyone, I hope everyone is doing well and is blessed. My heart is currently aching, throbing, crying out. I have not yet talked about this, and it is so hard for me to talk about but I think it is time. As you guys know, I currently live with my mother, whom is widowed. She suffers from very high highs of good moods, laughter, and comfort but more times than none she has lows, meaning she is down right mean. She says hateful things, finds my buttons to be pushed and me exploading on her. My mom has always criticized me about my weight, she really truely has no room to talk. I know I need to loose weight, and I need to loose it on my own time. She has always been "ashamed" of me for the lack of better words, because I had to study harder in school, I wasn't thin, I was not what she wanted me to be. Everytime I brought home another book she would be angry even if it was a book I was borrowing from my friend. To this day, I don't see how my parents were compatiable. My mother knows about my one time thing with my three year relationship, she does not believe it was one time, she constantly blows that up in my face, of how I am "used - up". And, how no Christian man would want me. She breaks my heart, I know I have done things to hurt her, but GOD has forgiven me why can't she!?

I will be going back to my four year school of college in August, against her wishes, but my dreams can not stop because she doesn't want me too. I think things will be better for the simple fact if she starts fights with me, I can simply hang up on her. I miss my dad so much. I know me and him had our differences but he would of forgiven me for all that I have done in my past. My dad would say, "Wanna go for a ride". We would go riding get a Diet Coke at Sonic and go riding and talk. End of problem. He did not like arguments to last longer than a day, for we are not gurantted tomorrow. She is one of my driving forces to be a counselor. I want to change the world, and the messed up things in it. I can not tell you how many times I have cried to Meredith, Joshua, and Robbie. My dad was my best friend in this house, he would know me inside and out. You ask my mom, "---- (Name there), what is Lindsey's favorite book?" She'd says, "Oh, thats easy "The Wizard of Oz, the Bible is number one but she loves The Wizard of Oz." Someone, "Do you know why she loves it so much?" Mom, "No, sorry I dont um..." It is because when I was sick as a little girl he would read me the story with voices all of the characters he would make me laugh.

So, in conclusion, I am not asking for sympthony or a pitty party what I am asking for if anything is... Be praying for my mother. It hurts so much, I do not know if she is a Christian, she claims to be but you know it scares me I do not know if she is or not. It is not my place to put judgement, or say I am better than her because that is not our place. But, keep her in your prayers, and I am so very blessed to tell you guys the truth about this situation. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling...Lindsey.

Happy Halloween To All!

2009-10-31T14:25:00.000-07:00

You may be saying, "What terrible people you have been talking about!" But you are just as bad, and you have no excuse! When you say they are wicked and should be punished, you are condemning yourself, for you do these very same things. Romans 2:1 (New Living Translation)

Happy Halloween Ya'll! Be Careful and Have a great one!

New Moon Here We Come!

2009-10-27T18:39:00.000-07:00

This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. John 15:12-15 New King James Version Bible

Hey Everybody! How is everyone? I hope everyone is doing well and blessed! Well, me and mom ended up postponing our grocery store run to today. So, we went grocery shopping. Now this sister is pooped! I do not think we need groceries for a while. My family we buy for the month so all we really need during the month is bread, milk, juice...little stuff. No Biggie! I am so glad to be home, groceries are up, had my chicken nuggets and fries from McDonalds, watched an eposide of Touched by an Angel, now for some down right Lindsey time.

I do not know if you guys know or not. I am a HUGE Twilight fan. Yes, as in the movie. Last year, around this time me and Robbie prepared ourseleves for the midnight showing in El Dorado of Twilight. Did we get tickets? Yes, we did... we got two of the last ten tickets! I guess I shouldn't of waitted. But, we got them. So, yesterday I called Stars to see if we could purchase New Moon (the sequal) tickets. The guy was very nice who answered the phone and said to me, "Ma'am you better hurry they are saleing out pretty fast!" I grabbed my debit card and ran to my computer and bought two. Did I get them? Yes, this sister did! So, on November 19th at midnight me and Robbie Sue will be watching New Moon!

Who is my favorite characters you might ask?
Okay, look at me guys and gals! I am an Alice! Robbie is most definately a Rosalie. Her mustang we have stickers. On her drivers side she has I am a Rosalie sticker with a pair of eyes. And, on the passenger side (where I sit) says I roll with my Alice. :). My ideal man is a Jasper for sure. Someone who is senestive, funny, charming, Southern. Me being an Alice..if you have read the books know how she is. She's energetic, fisty, loves fashion, makeup, and books. Lets see....yeap thats me. Robbie bought me and her jerseys like the baseball ones they were that have our men's name on em. Mine says Team Jasper...Smoother than you since whatever date. I am so excited and ready. Only downfall...I think Robbie is converting to Jacob. I told her she can not convert to the dark side. LOL!

Am I dressing up for New Moon?
Negative captain! I am wearing my black leggings, purple monk turtleneck, purple ballet flats, spike my hair, and my makeup... Okay... maybe it does sound a little Aliceish. But, this is how I usually dress really now! Robbie is not dressing up as Rosalie. Lets pray not! She has grad school that night. I don't think they would like a girl coming dressing up in a black dress and heels.

My favorite book out of the series?
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for sure! New Moon is my least favorite! I am not a Jacob fan. Sorry for the ones who do I just have my ways. I always wanted Bella with Edward. Jacob deserved someone but I do not see him with Bella. Sorry Jake!

My theory on Twilight:
Me and my dear friend Joshua one day were talking about Twilight and how it appeals to men and women. He came up on this theory. Yes, I will admit the MAN was...grr...I hate to say this... Right!
Every Man Wants A Part of Each Girl. Each Girl has a quality of Every Type of Girl.
1. Bella - The Sweet Loving Carefree Girl.
2. Alice - The Spunky Sweet Girl Every Guy Admires.
3. Rosalie - The Firecracker. The Girl who can fight on her own.
The Men of Twilight and What We See In Them:
1. Edward: The protecter.
2. Emmett: The teddy bear you can cuddle with.
3. Jasper: The sensative and understanding man.

Now, it is all prooven that I, Lindsey love and obessed with Twilight. I love yall and Keep Smiling!

Tags I have found fun

2009-10-26T00:50:00.000-07:00

Be very careful, then, how you live -- not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.— Ephesians 5:15-16 (NIV)

most worn lipstick/ lipgloss: I wear mostly Pink Diamonds lip gloss from Mary Kay and Pink Passion from Mary Kay. You layer those it is absloutly beautiful.
most worn earrings: My silver hoops very classic. Simple and Elegant.
most worn shirt: I am HUGE t-shirt kind of girl. It would be probably be my Mulerider (giving away my college here) shirts, Razorbacks shirt, or John Deere ones.
most worn nail polish: I don't usually paint my nails so my nails are either natural or clear.
most worn shoes: My ballet flats. I have them in almost every color.
most worn hair products: Shampoo: Pantene Pro-V Ice Shine Conditionar: Same as shampoo Heat Defense: Treseme Heat Defender Hair Spray: Dove Pro-Age Gel: Some Dollar General brand (I hardly use gel) Moose: Dove Intense.
most worn perfume: If I am dressing up: Pink Fresh and Clean (I love that smell) Just going out for a little while: Moonlight Path
most worn handbag/ purse: My Wizard of Oz purse I got from my dad at Christmas we last had together
Where were you 3 hours ago? In my bed reading my Socail Problems
Who are you in love with? GOD, my family, friends, my followers.
Have you ever eaten a crayon? Ew no
Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yeap Fart Puddy!!
When is the last time you went to the mall? Oh my, I wanna say about two months ago
Are you wearing socks right now? nope
Does your family have a car worth over $2,000? We sure do! Momma just got a Ford Escape two weeks ago.
When was the last time you drove out of town? Thursday I went to Magnolia with Robbie
Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? No
Are you hot? Temperature? No I am fine
What was the last thing you had to drink? Sweet Tea
What are you wearing right now? Gray Mulerider shirt and atheltic pants.
Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it? depends
Last food that you ate? chicken nuggets but I shared with Reese
Where were you last week at this time? in bed like I should be now
Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Yes I bought some pantyhose does that count
When is the last time you ran? a little while ago to check on Salem
What's the last sporting event you watched? a football game i cant remember which one
What is your favorite animal? Monkeys and Frogs
Your dream vacation? Anywhere away from my town lol
Last person's house you were in? GOD's. Besides that Robbies.
Worst injury you've ever had? In kidnergarten I feel and busted my head open. 115 staples baby!
Have you been in love? once.
Do you miss anyone right now? Yes I do.
Last play you saw? The Scary Truth it was a play my churches youth did the other night.
What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? My smile, my eyes, and my personality
What are your plans for tonight? I don't know, I know I am going grocery shopping with momma later
Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment? Joshua
Next trip you are going to take? To Camden with momma!
Ever go to camp? yeap Camp Beverfork!
Were you an honor roll student in school? No, I made some C's darn that math!
What do you want to know about the future? Am I happy?
Are you wearing any perfume or cologne? BodyWash - Dove Intense Moisture
Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit? Some in November
Where is your best friend? Ones in bed, the other two are at work.
How is your best friend? One is doing okay frusturated, One is sick, last one is doing okay ready to graduate.
Do you have a tan? Hunny, I glow in the dark.
What are you listening to right now? Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin
Do you collect anything? Pencils (Nerd Alert), books, dvds, and makeup
Who is the biggest gossiper you know? no one i know
Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over? never have
Have you ever drank your soda from a straw? yes
What does your last text message say? I dont have texting
Do you like hot sauce? LOVE! I put it on everything
Last time you took a shower? few hours ago
Do you need to do laundry? I think i need to wash my underclothes... I think...
What is your heritage? Irish
Are you someone's best friend? Yeap Yeap
Are you rich?Not Hardly
What were you doing at 12AM last night? Sleeping
1. Thing you cannot leave the house without? My purse
2. Favorite brand of makeup? Mary Kay or CoverGirl
3. Favorite flower? Stargazers, Roses, Daises, Sunflowers.
4. Favorite clothing store? Old Navy
5. Favorite perfume ? Same as above
6. Heels or flats? Depends on the outfit
7. Do you make good grades? I have a 3.0 in college
8. Favorite colors? hot pink, kelly green, and black
9. Do you drink energy drinks? no i have enough energy
10. Do you drink juice? love juice
11. Do you like swimming? I cant swim
12. Do you eat fries with a fork? no
13. Favorite moisturizer? Dove Day Lotion if its not Dove Night Lotion
14. Do you want to get married later on in life? Sure
15. Do you get mad easily? Not hardly
16. Are you into ghost hunting? If someone took me that would be fun
17. Any phobias? Small spaces, Scary eyes.
18. Do you bite your nails? All the time
19. Have you ever had a near death experience? more than one
20. Do you drink coffee? Love it!

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch? A box of envelopes
Before you started this survey, what were you doing? watching some videos on Youtube
What is the last thing you watched on TV? An hour or so ago
Without looking, guess what time it is 3:12AM
Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 3:15AM check it out! GO ME!
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? K-love on my computer
When did you last step outside? What were you doing? When I let Reese outside to take care of busincess
Did you dream last night? yeap
Do you remember your dreams? Yeap i write them down
When did you last laugh? a few mins ago
Do you remember why / at what? My room Salem ran into my door
What is on the walls of the room you are in? Lets see... The WIzard of oz poster, Twilight poster, Chinese calender, Gone with the Wind poster, a sign above my bed that says "The Princess of Oz sleeps here".
Seen anything weird lately? Not really
What do you think of this quiz? Its okay I hope my readers see more about me
What is the last film you saw? I watched the end of Working Girl
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Paris
If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? I'd donate some to church, charity, my family, school.
Tell me something about you that most people don't know. That I want to open my clinic. Ya'll know more about it than anyone in my real life do.
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? World Peace
Do you like to dance? Slow dance its been a very long time
Would you ever consider living abroad? sure
Does your name make any interesting anagrams? Love Dearly Men lol
Who made the last incoming call on your phone? Meredith
What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? New Moon Soundtrack
Last time you swam in a pool? In Branson last March
Type of music you like most? Contempary Christian and Country
Type of music you dislike most? Rap
Are you listening to music right now? Yeap
What color is your bedroom carpet? Gold
If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? More booksheleves
What was the last thing you bought? a coke
Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? no but i want to so bad
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? heck ya!
Do you have a garden? no
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Sure do
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? Oh good gravy
If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? Robin Williams
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Old Navy or Barnes and Nobles
What time is bed time? When I get sleepy
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Once
How many tattoos do you have? none OW!
If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one? no
What did you do for your last birthday? i was at the lake with my ex and his family
Do you carry a donor card? yes
Who was the last person you ate dinner with? Robbie and Sunny (bible study sister!)
Is the glass half empty or half full? half empty
What's the farthest-away place you've been? New Mexico
When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Over the summer
Have you ever won a trophy? Yeap
Are you a good cook? I can be when I have the energy
Do you know how to pump your own gas? Robbie taught me
If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? Jesus? Or..L.Frank Baum
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? No
Do you touch-type? I type pretty fast
What's under your bed? Tuberware containers containing books and purses
Do you believe in love at first sight? No, thats called lust
Think fast, what do you like right now? Chinese food.
Where were you on Valentine's day? Me and Robbie went out for supper we were each others dates.
What time do you get up? depends
What was the name of your first pet? Copper
Who is the second to last person to call you? Robbie to say she was at my house
Is there anything going on this weekend? I am going to work at the church's halloween carnival for the kids.
How are you feeling right now? Crampy guhhh womanhood
What do you think about the most? My life.
What time do you get up in the morning? depends on my mood
If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? Instantly
Who would you tell first? My mommy and sister
What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? maybe a month ago, I can do all by myself (New Madea movie).
Do you sing in the shower? depends on my mood
What do you do most when you are bored? read
What do you do for a living? I'm working on that one
Do you love your job? I need a job
What did you want to be when you grew up? Christian Counselor
If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be? Christian Counselor
Which came first the chicken or the egg? egg
How many keys on your key ring? two
Where would you retire to? Probably Vermont
What kind of car do you drive? Dont have one but I want a Black Ford Escape
What are your best physical features? my eyes and smile I am told
What are your best characteristics? my personality and my faith
What kind of books do you like to read? Anything but romance novels
What is your favorite time of the day? afternoon
Where did you grow up? small bump in the road if you really wanna know where I live email me
How far away from your birthplace do you live now? I live here now
What are you reading now? The Bible (daily), The Widow of the South I start tomorrow, and Esther its tough being a woman bible study.
Are you a morning person or a night owl? night but with coffoe I can be a morning.
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no
Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? yeap
Do you have pets? a cat, Salem and dognephew, Reese
How many rings before you answer the phone? depends on who it is and how fast I get there
What is your best childhood memory? Ones with my dad and Lorna
What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? Ive always been a cashier
Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? This blog!
What is most important in life? Your walk in religon. I choose to follow GOD!
What Inspires You? Myself. I have other people that do. But in the end of the day its down to me and GOD. And, with that being said I can take on the world.

Thought yall would like to know me a bit more. I will write more later. I love you and Keep Smiling.

True Love Waits.

2009-10-21T15:05:00.000-07:00

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." Proverbs 4:23

Hey Everyone! Yes, this is going to be one of those serious blogs again. But, I am very passionate about this and I am going to rant for a minute about this. The other day I bought a ring a steerling silver ring that says, "Love is Patient, Love is Kind, and Love Endures all things."

At the age of 20, I was dating a man I was with for a year and a half. He and I were very serious with one another. He admitted over and over he could not wait till we were married. We talked about marriage alot. We ended up dating three long years. He is the man I meation, that was also emotionally abusive, which I did not see till my eyes were opened by GOD. We ended up that V-day having sex that one and only time we ever did. It was painful, not just physically but emotionally and spiritually. The main reason I did is his reaction of "If you love me we will". "We are going to be together always Lindsey, why not?" I cried out to GOD and said "GOD, Please forgive me." The man I was with thought I was crazy and insane and never tempted me to have sex with him again much less talk about marriage. So, I knew that I just made the hugest mistake of my life.

I am now 24 years old. I understand fully I can never ever get my virginity back. My first time was also my last and only time. I have made a vow not only with myself but with GOD that I will wait for my husband till the night we are pronounced husband and wife. I can not do this to myself anymore, I am constantly reminded that I will not get it back. But, in my heart I have given my heart so fully and completly to GOD. The ring on my left finger is my ring I bought. I will call this in my life my "promise to myself ring". That everytime I get discouraged of thinking, "When is it my turn?" "Why can't I be like the other girl's and not worry about it?" It reminds me that the man that truely loves me and wants to be with me, will forgive me for the mistake I made and will love me enough to wait with me. Because if he does not choose to do those two things then obviously he must not be worth my time.

Parents, if you are reading I pray that you talk to your kids, boys or girls. Have that Bible time with them, tell them about dating. If they have made to keep a choice, it is so much more than a signing a pecie of paper or getting a ring and putting it on. It is a lifestyle choice. I wish I could take back what I did, but I know that I love myself, GOD, and my future husband enough to wait. Pray for your kids, talk to them, and be open to them about things. Purity is not only from sex, but anything sexual as in "petting". Let your heart be open to everything. Kid's are having sex so much younger and younger these day in age. I already pray for my future kids. It is never too early. I am not even in a relationship, dating or marriage, but I pray for my future spouse and my future babies.

Bible Verses:
The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body...Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said 'the two will become one flesh' ..." [I Corinthians 6:13-16]

"The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife. Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control." [I Corinthians 7:3-5]

GOD bless you all and remember I am always here. I love you and Keep Smiling. Love, Lindsey :)

Blessed Day I have had my friends!

2009-10-20T19:57:00.000-07:00

The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.— Psalm 34:22

Hello Everyone! How is everyone? Gosh, I need to post more often..I promise I will be working on it. Any prayer request? Any praise reports? Anything you wanna talk about? I had such a wonderful day today! Well, today I went walking to enjoy the beautiful sights of fall in South Arkansas. It is just stunning. If my camera loves me I will take pictures soon of all the beautiful fall colorage (is that a word?) *laughs*. I came in took a shower and got ready to go the bank. As you all know, or if not I am telling you now, I am unemployed and my unemployment came in today and so I went to the bank to put it in my account. Me, mom, and Reese pull up and I see this little girl whom I recognize but do not truely recognize till I get out. It is my favorite customer from when I worked at Dollar General and Super Foods and her momma! They are like family, I have seen BreAnna (the little girl) grow from three years old to she is ten now. Mrs. Melina (her mom) and her husband knew my dad so that is how I know the family so well. They were getting to their car, and she called me over and we talked for a good ten minutes she handed me a recent picture of BreAnn and $20. She said, "GOD just told me to hand this too you, I miss seeing you so much." BreAnn was not in school because she is running a 101 fever, poor babygirl. Ya'll be praying for her. I need to post her Halloween picture from last year. It is of me and her at my old grocery store, her grandmother made her a fairy outfit and I dressed up as Alice Cullen from Twilight.

I went to Walmart today and bought a few things. I bought toliet tissue, Combos (I am addicted to pretzels), loaf of wheat bread, and a ring that says "Love is Patient, Love is Kind" on it. It is absloutely beautiful. I came home bought two Beth Moore bible studies. I love her so much, yall should check her out. Welcome my two new followers! What a blessing to have you!
I know this is gonna be short but I will write more later on, I love you and Keep SMiling.!

Me and my worrying...

2009-10-12T18:06:00.000-07:00

Matthew 6:27-29 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don't work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. (NLT)

Hey everyone, how is everyone on this cold (well its cold here) Monday night? I am doing okay I guess, just have alot on my mind. I am also taking a break from studying for my Socail Problems class midterm, joy joy joy. Okay, I have a series of questions and I want you all to answer them either comment them or email them: booknerd4christ@gmail.com. Here goes....

1. My blog I think the world of, and I am constantly shocked at the outpour of love ya'll have given me. My question is this: Do you think I should change anything about my blog?

2. Any topics you wish I would talk about or you would like my opinon on?

3. Are there certain topics you want me to keep away from? I would hate to hurt any of yall's feelings!

4. I know I am young, I am 24 for the ones who do not know, do you think I am too young to be talking about the trails and tribulations I have had in my life?

5. I am working on pictures, are there any in paticular you want of my life?

6. If I shut my blog down would we all still keep in touch through email? I do not plan on shutting it down I am just curious.

7. Any comments or suggestions for my blog as more advanced bloggers, is there anything I can do to make it better? Keep it the same? Just delete it? Its ya'll call!

8. Lastly, I do not know if some of yall notice but at the end of every blog I say that I love you and Keep Smiling. Do you want me to stop saying that to yall.

Thanks so much, Lindsey.

A Change in Pace.

2009-10-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." – John 14:1-4

Hey Everyone, I hope everyone is doing well! I know 99% of yall do not know me personally and were sent emails by me to come to my blog. Which I love all the postive feedback I have gotten from ya'll. Ya'll have been wonderful. No, this is not a blog to say I am closing my blog this is a blog saying I am changing contact emails you can reach me at. The email you guys have is my personal email for my bills, school work, my writing, and etc. This email is the one I want ya'll and only ya'll to contact me: booknerd4christ@gmail.com. Whole lot shorter huh? Feel free to email me anything, anytime. I will be having some more people responding to my emails from my yahoo and as they come through I will be directing them to this addy as well. I hope you guys understand. I love yall and Keep Smiling.

Things in the world of Lindsey

2009-10-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

How we thank God, who gives us victory over sin and death through Jesus Christ our Lord!1 Corinthians 15:57 (New Living Translation)

What is in my purse?

Lets see.. Pink Flat Wallet, Arkansas Razorbacks phone holder, journal, pink calender, bookmark, The Pearl by John Steinbeck, travel size Dove hairspray, hairbrush, CG compact base in Creamy Natural, Mary Kay Compact I got for my birthday, Jurty Duty letter, Sonic straw, Love my lips lipstick in Creme Mauve Delight, Bath and Body Works Lotion in Brown Sugar and Fig best fall scent, Mary Kay Lipstick in Pink Passion, Carmax, Shinylicious in Cola Float, Great Value Iced Tea Peach 5 stick pack, Doctor Burts Bee's Res-Q Ointment, Burt's Bees Hand Salve, Germx, Midol, 5 tampons, keys: house, LKT (Lorna) love LDM (me), pink flip flop, a scraecrow head, beaded Lindsey, Bestie that is a Ladybug (that is from Robbie whom has the other half). 5 pens, Tynoel, Buy one Pepsi get one Free, post its, eye glass cleaner, and my sunglasses.

What is my style?

Comfort! I am a plus size woman, I wear a size 18/20. I try my best to look wonderful when I go out. Unless I am just running to my local grocery store or the Walmart here. I usually love jeans, I love jeans. I also own leggings, and capris in the summer and one pair of shorts. If I am wearing something plain I try to dress it up with acessories such as a ring or a braclet. My makeup is a must, Robbie still kids about the time I wore makeup when we went to clean out her car. I am adictted to ballet flats, I got use to wearing them on my days off from work and now where I go I wear them. I try to be fashionable. I can not stand to tight of clothes. I also love high heels and being five foot four that is good too unless your hunny or friends are the same heigh or shorter. My hair is shorter now so I usually spike out the ends of it and spray with hairspray. I wash my hair daily, and I take a bath daily. My apperance means alot to me, because one I am studying to be a counselor and two I just feel better about myself.

Ten Things I love:
1. GOD
2. Family
3. Friends
4. My books
5. Chinese Foods
6. Bible Study
7. Mint Choc Ice Cream
8. Laughing
9. The Wizard of Oz
10. My Future

Things I dislike:
1. Satan
2. The word "hate".
3. Romance Novels
4. Twitter (I am so sorry but I am not into it)
5. Math
6. Finding the cutest outfit and its not in my size :(
7. People picking on folks
8. Painting my nails
9. My desktop, I want a laptop
10. My dad not being around.

My Top 5 Purfumes:

1. PINK Fresh and Clean
2. Bath and Body Works: Moonlight Path
3. Mary Kay: Velocity
4. Victoria Secert: Dream Angels (Knock off is what I have)
5. Bath and Body Works Brown Sugar and Fig

My Top 5 Favorite Colors:

1. Pink
2. Kelly Green
3. Black
4. Purple
5. Blue

Take Up Your Cross and Walk With Me!

2009-10-11T14:55:00.000-07:00

Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”—Romans 10:9-13

I was requested to do a blog on my walk with GOD, I promised to do this yesterday but my day was swamped and by the time I got home I was warn plum straight out. But, I did keep my promise I did do it this weekend. How is everyone before I start? I hope all is wonderful with everyone and everyone is having a safe weekend. My salavation story is very hard for me to tell but I am more than happy to tell you. I will be sheading a few tears as I give it.

I was fifteen years old a high school freshman, and I had everything I could imagine. I had an amazing best friend, Lorna. Had other friends whom I adored, was in band, hung out with my friends. I had watched for the first time the movie "The Craft". I was going through this, "I do not care attitude", "I will put a spell on you attitude". In the process of doing that I started hanging around a different bunch of girls. I did not start the drinking or smoking that they did, but I did however pick up a habit that I really till this day come in conflict with of not doing. That was cutting. I will always remember my first time, I was in my history class and the guy who still picks on me till this day (LAMEO) was embarssing me and the teacher just ignored him actted like he was doing nothing. I asked to go the rest room. I sit there crying, embarssed, I rampaged in my pockets and all I could find was a pack of gum and a paper clip. I remember unravling that paper clip and even though it was not that big of something to just slice my arm. I remember scrapping my arm with it. It hurt really bad, but I let it go. It seemed like everytime I was made fun of: I would ask to go to the bathroom and cut. Cut with mostly paper clips sometimes staples. This was in April almost May, and no one knew what I was going through at all. I had told Lorna because I wore long sleeves nearly every time I spent the night to spend the night with her. She told our counselor at the school, and she told my parents. My parents were pissed for lack of better words. And, till this day my mom always tells me to think. During that weekend, she invited to go to her revial at her church and they were talking about death in the Bible. I remember getting on my hands and knees sobbing like a mess I thought for so long that if I ended my life that I would make so many people's lives better. Like my familes, Lornas, my other friends. I am so glad that night I decided I did not want to die and I wanted to be one of his own children. I think back now to what on earth was I thinking? I would of missed out on Lorna's son being born, the last few years of Lornas life, my dads life fulfilling, me being a counselor myself. I guess this is one reason I want to be a counselor so bad.

Eight Years Later....
I still have struggles to be strong not to worry. But, as I got older I dropped the attitude of "The Craft" but I added to I wanted to be one of his children. I want to be a mission to all not only by my counseling but by my blog as well. It can be a two in one deal. I am not saying I am perfect, or I do not make mistakes but I am so very blessed that my best friend saved my life that night. I read my bible three times a day, I enjoy it my bibles expect one is written in with notes and highlights. I want to travel and do missions. When a girl or boy comes to says I want to kill myself I am so sick of living, I know exactly what they are going through. If a girl says my best friend just died... I have been there hunny. My blog is my testimony of how GOD works in all our lives. I am so blessed to have my blog and that GOD gave me that second chance. And, I think Lorna everyday for telling on me, not just to the counselor but my ultimate FATHER. I guess that is why she is so close in my heart. I wish I could of saved her's but I know that I have so much to tell Dakota when he gets older about how his momma was my lifesaver. And, why is my blog have its title? Because if you KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE SON.... he will never ever leave you or forsake you. Oh, how I love each and everyone of you.

"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke uponyou and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Matthew 11:28

I love you and Keep Smiling... I will write more later.

Missing you guys!

2009-10-09T22:08:00.000-07:00

Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD. - Leviticus 19:18

I am taking care of some request be more than happy to post more I do not mind answering them at all. That makes my day when you guys ask. Oh, by the way I have missed you guys the old readers and welcome aboard new readers of my blog!

For the ones that requested pictures: I am working on them my camera is being a meanie. I will be posting some pictures of what Robbie looks like, a better pic of me and my sister how we look now, of me and my mom, my school I attend, what Meredith and Russell look like, Joshua (whom will have a blog in November all about him), and I am thinking about posting some younger pictures of me like high school memories. I am working on it and I am not ignoring your cry for the pictures. :)

What are the top five things that describe your life, personality, passions, how God wired you?

My Life:
Adventerous: My life is never a dull moment I am always doing something. Either writing, taking a photograph, reading, counseling, fighting, loving, on the phone, school work, trying to find a job. It is always something. And, you never know what I will say next.
Stressful: As you have read, my father died five years ago in January it will be. And, I believe it to be MY responability to be the glue of this family. So stressful.
Exciting: Even when I am crying I smile. I try to make the best out of everything. There are days that are a challenge but I try to make everyday the best day possible. Because you never know it will be your last one.
Warm: I try to be an inspiration to others even though I am the one that needs to be taking probably most of the advice.
God-sent: I feel so loved and honored that GOD gave me life. It took my parents 14 years to have me, my mom suffered three miscarriages and one of which was twins. They told my parents that they will have a hard time getting pregant and come to find out my mom could carry girls and not boys. Hence: Me and Christie.

Personality:
Bubbly: Like I said I love to smile. When I worked at the grocery store I worked at I had an older gentlemen that use to come in the store and he called me "Bubbles". I said whys that? He said even though you might not wanna be here you always make your customers feel so welcome and warm when they see you. Your not afraid to go that extra mile.
Honest: I am always honest. Even though it hurts sometimes I try to be honest.
Hard headed: Yes I admit I want my way sometimes. I want to be right, I hate being told I am wrong.
Understanding: Even though so many people have run me over in my life I am always willing to give them that second chance. I always admit to my mistakes and know that every human does so that is why I understand so well I guess.
Loving: I am told by my friends I polled I am loving. As you see I always tell ya'll I love yall and keep smiling. It is because I do love yall so very much, because on the road of life we are all on this road together. And, honestly you never know some of yall may never hear I love you but by me and if I am responable for that. Good! The reason why I say keep smiling its because usually when you say I love you a smile comes on your face, am I right?

My Passions:

People: Most of you found out about my blog from an email I sent out. I love people, I like observing, talking, giving advice. I guess that is why GOD gave me the gift of counseling. My father was the same way he loved everyone. At his funeral they joked he was the un-offical greeting at Walmart here in my town. I love knowing about people, where they come from, their lives, their goals and loves.
Psychology: As you know this is one of my two majors in college. I love knowing not only people but why people think the way they do, why are people so mean or nice, why do others label themselves as better? I love learning the human mind.
My Faith: I will write blog tomorrow about how I became a Christian. But, I could of easily become atheist after my father died. I was that clinical depressed, but instead of blaming GOD for my father dying I praised him for giving him health again, and well probably a good fishing hole too (laughs). But, I enjoy reading my Bible...I read it three times a day. Morning. Afternoon. And Bed Time. I love learning something new everytime I open it. I love learning about GOD's love for us.
Learning new things: I have never been the kinda person to just sit back and let others do things for me. I want to learn, I want to Microbiology not because my degree because I want too. I want to take sign lanauge because I want too. The only thing I am scared of is learning to drive, but I know I can do it. I want to learn so many things. I took every history class at my old college not because I had to because I wanted too. I went to visit the professor in July and he said he is thinking about offering a "Introduction to Law" class. I told him to sign me up if he does and its online Id be there.
The Arts: Music, Photography, Books. I love to read (book review coming soon) my dad used to joke with people when I was younger that him and my mother never found me in the toys but in the books. I was reading on a high school level at age nine. I will always remember I was tweleve years old at my local libary and I wanted to read "Carrie" by Stephen King. The libarian said, "Dennis she is too young for this". "Sweetheart, the childrens books are over here." I looked right at her and said, "I have already read them all." My dad just laughed and said "The girl wants to read, let her read". Thats why my dad never complained if I wanted to buy a new book. Mom's a different story.
So, heres the question I promised to answer. I hope everyone is well, and I have missed yall I will write more soon. I love ya'll with all my heart. And Keep Smiling.

GOD of Wonders hear my cry!

2009-10-05T14:11:00.000-07:00

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:28-30

Dear GOD,

Oh how I love thee! Thank you for today, the breathe I just took, and the chair I sit in. Above All Thank You! Thank you for my family, for giving me a wonderful father who now joins you in heaven. He is a true blessing and I will care on his legacy of living life to the fullest. Thank you for my mother, yet hard as nails and rocks you gave her to me. She is a pistol and I pray that you keep her safe and show her the ways to live life and give her the strength. Thank you for my beautiful sister - as opposite as me and her are thank you for giving her to my parents. I pray that she seeks you in all that she does. Thank you Lord, for Cody and Reese whom have made my beautiful sister smile again. I pray that her and Cody seek you in their engagment, marriage, and all that they do. Protect little Reese, as he plays outside and as he plays with Salem. I pray that his seziures will not take him out of this world. Lord keep him safe. Lord, thank you so ever so much for sending Salem to our family he has brought laughter back into this house when it was so empty after daddy died. Thank you! Lord, I pray for my best friends Meredith and Russell. I pray that you put your love and your hands on the both of them and keep them safe. I pray to you that Russell finds a job, that one thing will be less stressful on them. I pray Lord you give Meredith the strength this year to grieve over loosing her father. Give her the courage to know that it will never better but it will be easier because you are her true FATHER and if she always keeps her eyes on you she will never be alone. I pray for their marriage, their future children, and their families. I pray that raise their children as wonderful and happily as they both plan too. Let them be healthy, strong, and GOD loving children. Dear Lord of Wonders, I pray for Robbie. I pray that Robbie as she goes to graduate school on Thursday. Give her to strength she can do all things if she seeks you first. Guard her heart, and protect her safe not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. I pray for her family, and keep them all safe and let them seek you in all their decesions they make. I rise Robbie up too you and lead her not to the path of tempetation. Lord, I pray for Lorna's family. I know that it is not easy for them right now, and perhaps it will never be. But, I left everyone of them up to you. Put your hands all around them. I pray that Dakota feels his mother's love all around him. And, know that he will indeed see her again. Lord, I pray for my friends in Magnolia. Some of them know you and some of them do not. I pray for the one's that do not find GOD's love in me or anyone else they pass and choose to pick up their cross and follow you as well. I pray for the ones who are Christian's. I pray as they work hard this week, as they prepare for the days ahead. Give them another day Lord. Let them know I love them all, and even though I have not seen them or probably will not see them as much. Let them know I love them and I am praying for them today Lord. Dear Lord, watch over Joshua. He is going through alot right now, he is working full time and going to school. He needs you Lord, I know he is a Christian but give him one more day LORD. Give him the drive that not only do I believe in him, but you believe in him. I pray for the man I was with for three years and you know who he is. I forgive him, Lord! I can not do this anymore to myself, I need to stop blaming myself for the pain he caused. The reason I cry at night is not because I am scared, it is because I feel like I am still being punished for the sin(s) that I did when I was with him. Oh, Lord I fall on my knees please forgive me. I want to scream, I want to punch something, but I know that is not the answer. Lord, I hide my face in so much shame because of him. I am scared to trust because of him, Oh Father please forgive me. Forgive me, for I do not want to walk around in shame or doubt anymore. I do not like to worry if people are talking about me because of him. My heartbreaks for him, how can a Christian man do this to someone? It is not my place to judge him, but Father I ask to protect him and his family. And, even though he might not see he did wrong....forgive him as well. I plan on being the stronger woman and forgive him, for I know you have forgiven me. Lord, I pray for our troops in the services keep them strong, and let them turn to you and return home to us safely. Protect the wives, the children, the mothers, the fathers, who have to wait everyday to know that if they son or daughter made it another day on this earth. Lord, protect their hearts. Lord, I pray for my wonderful readers. Most of which, I do not know in "real-life" but in your heart and eyes we are all brothers and sisters. I love them all so much. That is why I tell them at the end of every blog I love them. Becuase I truely do, and you never know that might be the only time they hear it in their life. Lord, I am drying my eyes and opening my ears to you and know that you have me in the palms of your hands. I pray that I will be a good counselor, a good student, a good wife, mother, best friend, blogger, girlfriend, and strength to the world. Forgive me Lord when I have fallen, help me back up. Dust me off and put me back on the trail of life. Even though I know it is a very long path and I may get scared time and time again. I know that you are always with me, when I stop to take a nap you guard me as I sleep. When I stop to eat, your there having food with me. I know you are with me always. Thank you, for sending your SON to die on the cross for us. I plan to Keep My Eyes On The SON, and never loose track of him. That is why I named my blog this because even though we all get lonely or scared, your always with us. Either one step ahead of us or one step behind us. Oh, I love you and thank you for making me the person I am and will become. Thank you for my tears I cry and the laugh I have. Give my dad a hug for me and tell him I love him. With all my love, Lindsey.

Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

A few questions to you readers.

2009-10-02T19:12:00.000-07:00

Ecclesiastes 3. 1-8 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

1. Do you like the fact I open up with a Bible Verse or would you like it at the end? I have read alot of blogs and it varies. I want to know what you guys think!

2. Any request? Like... you wanna know something in paticular about me I have not done or said yet? I will be writing about personal stuff?

3. Is there any subjects you wish I did not discuss? I dont wanna step any of ya'lls toes!

4. Do you want more pictures from my personal life? Like of my family or friends?

5. Lastly, do you want me to post prayer request that I have gotten from my town or from friends or anything?

I love you and Keep Smiling!

Beautiful Weather is Finally here!

2009-09-30T14:22:00.000-07:00

I have chosen the way of truth; I have set my heart on your laws.— Psalm 119:30

Howdy everyone! How is everyone doing? I hope all is wonderful in you guys cornor of the world. Today I got my wonderful "The Wizard of Oz" 70th specail editoin. Well... I had meationed I pre-ordered my Wizard of Oz from Amazon I canceled yesterday before it was shipped praise the Lord. I went to Walmart yesterday to drop mom's medcine off so I could come back and get it today. Well.. I have a guilityness of looking the movies and the books when I go to do that. First stop was to the movies...they had the Wizard of Oz 2 disc specail editoin I read the back of it. Okay the ONLY reason I am buying this movie, which I already have the 3 disc specail edtion that came out four years ago I wanna say is because on this one has "The Dreamer of Oz" - an autobiography of L. Frank Baum and John Ritter played him on it. On the back of this Walmart exclusive and only it had it on there! And it was only $15! Lets see am I gonna spend $50 dollar on a movie I already own or am I gonna spend $15 yes I spent $15. I also stopped by the books... Patrick Swayze's book him and his wife wrote together is out. That will be my next mission when I get job is buy that book. Its not expensive its just I need to save my money. I am trying so hard to save money and find a job but it is so hard! I just got done watching "The Dreamer of Oz" with a Pzone from Pizza Hut and cold Diet Dr. Pepper. Wonderful afternoon.

Today on the calender it is..... September 30 is … National Mud Pack Day. Also known as Mud Pies.
Did any of yall when you were younger make mudpies? Me and Christie sure enough did. My parents used to stack our firewood in the backyard in between these two trees and me and Christie made our fort there. We got our moms old bucket and fell it with water and get grass, weeds, mud and act like we were cooking. I remember one time I brought my moms old fairy tale book out there to act like it was a cookbook. Well... needless to say it rained that night and me and Christie got out butts torn up for that. But I have alot of fun memories of mud pies when I was little. I just thought I would share some information with yall and let yall know I am doing well. And my back pain has gone away for now (knock on wood). I will write more later. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Its been three years and we still miss you babygirl.

2009-09-27T11:37:00.003-07:00

A man that hath friends must show himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.Prov 18:24 New King James Version

Lorna Kay Pennington 1985 - 2006 Lorna Kay Pennington, 21, of Fordyce, died Wednesday September 27, 2006 in Camden. She was born in Warren, AR on March 25, 1985. Lorna was a homemaker and a member of the Temple Baptist Church in Fordyce. She is survived by her parents Myzell & Janet Thompson of Fordyce, Ar; her husband James Michael Pennington of Fordyce, AR; a son Dakota Raye Pennington of Fordyce, AR; a brother, Christopher Thompson of Magnolia, AR; four sisters, Laura Herrington of Rison, AR, Leslie Hesselbein of Dover, AR, Renee Reaves of Fordyce, AR, Lana Massey of Camden, AR; and her grandmother, Ivanette Williams of Fordyce, AR. Funeral services are 2:00 pm Friday September 29, 2006 at the Benton Funeral Home Chapel. Burial in Wheeler Cemetery, with the Rev. Mike McEuen & Rev. Bobby Hartgen officiating. Arrangements by Benton Funeral Home of Fordyce.

As I meationed, there was gonna be a time in September I wrote a blog about someone so close to my heart. Well...today is that day. Lorna was my childhood best friend, she was my rock when I needed to cry, my laugh when I needed a laugh, she would sing when she comforted, and she was my date when no one else would take me. I met Lorna in second grade, we got the same teacher and we set right beside one another. We both were shy, our moms knew one another and what got us to talking was we had shirts that nearly matched. I will always remember her smile. When she smiled she smiled with her whole face. We instantly became friends, we slept over at each others house, exchanged Christmas presents, shared books. She was my world. I would spend the night every night after Christmas with her and enjoyed all the wonderful goodies her momma made. I still say the reason why I am hypoglycemic is because of Momma Janet's Butterfinger Cake. Me and Lorna were close. We looked completly different...she had blonde hair I had my black, she was skinny and well I am from from it...she had hazel eyes and I had blue. We had alot of funny times...for example: on our 13th Halloween I ended up not spending the night with her we had a plan. We got our parents to rent horror movies we stayed on the phone. Well, we both rented "Carrie" we saved that for last. I will never forget when the hand pops from the grave Lorna screamed so loud in the phone I think I went deaf. So, till this day I can not watch that movie. I think Lorna slept with her Bible that night. We were each other's Junior prom dates, because we both didnt have dates. She always knew how to make me laugh. When i hear the songs: "Friends" by Micheal W. Smith I think of her. During her senior year she started a guy I really didnt like, she changed...not for the better. She started excluding me, she got really hateful, we fell apart. But we still would talk and have good times together just not the same. The plans we had to evolve around him and his schedule. I miss her deeply, spite the fact we were not that close at the end. She knows I love her more than anything in this world. She is good company up there. She was seven months pregant when she died, no they did not save the baby. She did however leave a handsome legacy behind, her son, Dakota. I look at his pictures, I have not seen him in a while, I know Leslie is gonna raise him in a wonderful Christian atmosphere. And, I know he is gonna grow up knowing all about his momma.

This picture I attached is one of me and Lorna at our Senior Night. They joked on Senior Night that me and Lorna would be the old ladies in the nursing home in electric wheelchairs chasing one another. I have promised myself that if I was to put in a home my first U-turn in my electric chair will be dedicated to her. Lorna and I were about the same height. Our sophomore year we had every class together but two. And heres the funny thing...those two classes...we were right next door to one another. I guess they knew they could not seperate us. We took Drama together our senior year and had a blast. She was beautiful inside and out. She could fisty and she could be sweet as a cupcake. I still see her family from time to time and I do not stop but nothing to stop and give a hug. I know I am welcome to her house anytime its just hard.

Me and Lorna have a classmate named, Derrick Sims. And me and him from

time to time since we got out of high school. About a month ago he sent me this picture that he has hanging in his house. He said he bought it a few weeks before Lorna died. Look very closely at it. When I met Lorna when I was younger her hair used to be that color. Exactly that color. That is the Lorna I know hair. I say it looks just like her. I am determined to find out the name of that painting and get one and put it in my future home. It scares me how much it looks like her, from the smile to the belly button. Its Lorna. Derrick, if you are reading this thank you so much for sending this to me.

So in conclusion, I just wanted to let you guys know about my Lorna and how much she means to me. I love you all and Keep Smiling.

Hair Cut and Retail Therapy.

2009-09-25T18:17:00.000-07:00

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
— Psalm 23:5

I know its been a few days since I wrote in my blog and I am so sorry for that I been swamped with school work, some personal drama with men (of course!), and working on getting to feeling better. Well, I am feeling a tad bit better I have started my period ( I know TMI) but that might be the reasoning behind my pain I was expering but I am still going to the doctor soon. I decided on Wenesday I was once and for long going to cut my hair. Well.... not me personally...but you guys know what I am talking about. It is in fact short, its in the shape of a bob and with spikey ends. I love it! The main reason I cut it is because I love my long I do, but it was so thick and straightening it took almost an hour and a half. Yes, craziness. With this I put some hairspray, bursh it lets go to town. I tried a different hair dresser this time around and she re-opened a shop that was once run by my old hair dresser. Her shop is AMAZING! It has crosses everyone, she has her bible open for everyone to read. She even has a sign on her door that says if you choose to use profainity you must leave now. My favorite thing was that she was so warm she wants me to come up and there anytime since I live close to her shop and talk to her. Me and Robbie are thinking about going to her church for Bible Study she invited us. Ya'll would love her shop.

On Thursday, I went to Magnolia with Robbie as usual (which I won't this Thursday) but we had a blast .. somewhat. Well, we got there and it was sprinkling and we were gonna go eat Pizza Hut first but we saw there was a Factory Connection near by it and they had a 75% off Summer and Spring clothing. Okay, for those who do not know I hardly wear long sleeves but I have ALOT of them. So, this was my chance. Heres what I all got...

1- black low v-neck blouse will have to wear a cami under.
1- kelly green (2nd favorite color) v-neck puffy sleeve top
1- purple short sleeve mock turtleneck!
1- grey leggings ( I have black)
1- brown leggings
1- black and white cheeckered scarf
3- pairs of earrings (3 pck deal)
1- necklace
1 - ring with peacock colors on it
How much did I spend? $100? Nope try - $40! Yes you see $40! I really did not have the money to splurge but well... I think I deserve to treat myself from time to time. I told Robbie when I get a job we are soooo coming back. I wore today my gray leggings and purple top with my necklace and earrings. I just wish I was not a chunky monkey. And, buying plus size clothes are hard that are cute and affordable. I wear a size 18/20 I know I might not look it but I do. And Robbie is bigger than me and at this FC she got a pair of pants for $10! The lady said they just been having a good sale and they are gonna have this sale for a while I was like yea!! So happy about that. My mom likes everything I got but the scarf. Try to explain they are in style but what do I get? An eye roll. Then we went to Pizza Hut....well...lets just say me being hypoglycemic I got sweet tea (didnt want it but Robbie ordered it for me) I wanted Diet Dr Pepper or Coke or Pepsi. Whatever. Diet. But this tea tasted like it had four cups of sugar in it. I got so sick I hardly ate anything, threw up, was getting dizzy. So, we went to campus I got me a cold Sprite Zero (Diet Sprite) it calmed my stomatch some. And, Robbie had to go to class and then I went to watch the free showing of "My Sisters Keeper". Oh my lordie....I cried the whole way through. Great Movie. Will be buying it. We left campus, went to Taco Bell (it tasted so good after being sick) and a cold DIET DR PEPPER! We went to Walmart to get gas and I went in I been craving cupcakes on this period and Robbie found a red velvet (my favorite cake) JUMBO cupcake. Yes...I ... admit... I bought it. The best $2.50 I ever spent that was for sure. That was my days. And I hope you all are doing wonderful. And, I love you and Keep SMiling.

Tag: 50 Things I want to do before I die.

2009-09-22T23:13:00.000-07:00

Isaiah 40:31 31 But those who wait for Yahweh will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint.

1. Throw a huge party and invite every one of your friends.
2. Skydive.
3. Tell someone the story of your life, sparing no details. (working on that one with you guys)
4. Learn how to take a compliment.
5. Send a message in a bottle.
6. Fall deeply in love -- helplessly and unconditionally.
7. Go to Walden Pond and read Thoreau while drifting in a canoe.
8. Teach someone illiterate to read.
9. Spend a night in a haunted house -- by yourself.
10. Sleep under the stars.
11. Accept yourself for who you are.
12. Visit the Holy Land.
13. Marry.
14. Fire a gun.
15. befriend a stranger
16. raise a baby
17. not to disappoint my family
18. be respected and admired
19. make more friends
20. Find my soulmate
21. Befriend someone lonely
22. Kiss in the rain
23. Visit the Hollywood Walk of Fame
24. Receive a love letter (not email)
25. Regular yoga
26. Visit Australia
27. Ride a camel in the desert
28. Take a road trip across the U.S.
29. Attend A Superbowl Game
30. Get my Masters Degree
31. Learn CPR
32. Eat Caviar
33. Go on a Cruise
34. Take horseback riding lessons.
35. Ride in a hot air balloon
36. Sleep in an expensive hotel and order room-service in bed.
37. See the Statue of Liberty.
38. Wear a thong and then burn it.
39. Grow flowers in a garden.
40. See a Broadway play.
41. Learn to drive a freaking car and get my License.
42. Visit 20 US states
43. Backpack in Ireland
44. Drive a convertible with the top down and music blaring
45. Host an outdoor barbeque
46. Taste the finest wine
47. Have a dog named Daisy.
48. Go to a Razorbacks game.
49. Be the best Christian I can be.
50. Forgive the people who hurt me and tell them thanks for making me stronger to their face.

God is Great, Diet Dr. Pepper is Good, and People are Crazy!

2009-09-21T16:51:00.000-07:00

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you (Luke 6:27-28).

Yes...I am poking fun of the country song, but in reality to me its true. This afternoon I got a phone call from my wonderful bestie, Meredith and which I was not alarmed because we talk everyday more than once a day and also I called her. Well, she has a blog a very sweet, wonderful INNOCENT blog and she got a little suprise this morning on her blog. Someone left a rude comment about her and insulting the great state of Arkansas. Now, it was from an annoynomus poster. I said to her, that is proof in the pudding that person is scared. It was sent at eight this morning... I do not know about yall but my happy butt was still in bed. Well, I am not making my blog private but she is setting hers to it. Which I do not blame and she deleted the comment. In the words of Stephaine Tanner off Full House, "How Rude!". Folks come on, what happend to loving your neighbor as you love yourself. That might be the bananas in the banana pudding they do not love themselves. I am so sorry what happend to my Mer and just thought I would vent on how rude that was of whomever it was. If you want Meredith is on my followers go show her some love because that was not called for at all. I love you Mer!

Well what else have I done today, sleep, school work, bible study, sleep. My kidneys are still hurting like mad it is looping around to hurt on my ovaries and yes my period is about to start in a few days but this has been hurting since the last month in July. The only thing that knocks out the pain is extra strength tynoel or a pain relaxer my mom gives me. So, being comfy is a must in my book....times like these I wish I had a laptop. I slept more than I should these past few days but it just hurts to move or walk a long time. So my daily walking has slacked off and two it rained a flood last week so I been kinda out of routine for the past week or so. Right now in my Bible I am reading about relationships. All kinds of relationships: marriages, friendshipships, enemies..you get where I am going with this. I believe GOD put it on my heart to send emails to each and everyone of you you guys. I love you all so very much. Ya'll have been a huge blessing and part of my life.

Okay, I finished the Elizabeth Taylor biography today...I sure hope the author is not gonna read this. Well, it seemed like just a typical Elizabeth Taylor, it was like the author copied and pasted stuff from different places on the web and said BAM heres a bio. So...I give it two out of five stars. I know I am sorry but it was not that great of a book. Now, I am starting new books...here are my reads.

1. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. I been wanting to see the movie since

I saw the tralier for the movie. Kinda before than actually if I think about it. I have only read the introduction and the first chapter... so far I am liking it. I am all about time travel, I love "The Time Machine" by H.G. Wells which believe it or not his birthday is today. So happy birthday H.G Wells whereever you are. Lets hope heaven. I bought this last week I wanna say Thursday because I had to go get mom's medcine from Walmart and my Walmart here in my bump in the road finally got it! Me and Robbie looked at Magnolia and they never had it and they finally got it here so now I am gonna be reading it. It took everything in me to put it down to go to bed last night. But, I think its gonna be a great read, if any of yall have read it or seen the movie leave me some comment love and let me know. I would love to know how this book or movie is. Onto book numero dos.

2. Her Husband: Ted Hughes and Sylvia Plath--A Marriage (Paperback). by Diane Middlebrook

I got this book about a year ago at Barnes and Nobles for about four dollars, yes I am huge sucker for bargain books. I think Sylvia Plath had a lot of issues. I think she needed to put into a psych ward, got some good drugs, and a daily hug. If you do not know the story of her well here goes. She was a famous writer and well put this lightly she stuck her head in a burning hot oven and killed herself. See now needed some major good drugs and a hug. I have read her book, "The Bell Jar" absloutely amazing, very sad but it is worth reading. So, the reason why I bought this book besides hello four dollars who would not wanna buy this thing and well I am a fan of hers. This books looks to me anyway to say, "What went wrong?" And as a psychology major I am all about what went wrong. So we shall see what we find out in the book of a marriage of hers.

3. Lastly.... THE WIDOW OF THE SOUTH by Robert Hicks.

Okay, I randomly bought this book at Walmart one Thursday when I was with Robbie and well... dare I say it. It has some romance it. I can not believe Robbie wanted me to buy this thing. Okay, if its bad its gonna be bad anyway I look at it. The reason why I bought it is okay good points. 1. South - well I am southern lady and south is good probably talks about things I can relate too or at least know what they are talking about. 2. War - I hate the sight of blood but love to read war novels. Suprising there? Well, maybe its because I am not seeing in person just my minds eye. But, Robbie why this book?! I was wanting to read "Julie and Julia."Okay, I am gonna read it last and we shall see if I like it and wanna keep it in my book section or toss it and give it to Robbie who wanted the blasted thing to begin with. *Laughs*

Well, this all for today I hope ya'll are doing well. Had a wonderful Monday and an amazing week ahead of you. I love you so much and Keep Smiling.

Quotes I find that are fun!

2009-09-20T17:56:00.000-07:00

Today's Verse
Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. Romans 8:23

Carrie: The fact is, sometimes it's really hard to walk in a single woman's shoes. That's why we need really special ones now and then to make the walk a little more fun. Sex and the City

We do not quit playing because we grow old, we grow old because we quit playing.Oliver Wendell Holmes

The greatness comes not when things go always good for you. But the greatness comes when you're really tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments, when sadness comes. Because only if you've been in the deepest valley can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.Richard Milhouse Nixon

If you can make a girl laugh - you can make her do anything.Marilyn Monroe

Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great.Mark Twain

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.Colin Raye

Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same. CourtneyJo Wright

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.Marilyn Monroe

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most

Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.Albert Einstein

"A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others" — L. Frank Baum (The Wonderful Wizard of Oz)

"Some people without brains do an awful lot of talking, don't you think?" — L. Frank Baum (The Wizard of Oz)

"Never give up. No one knows what's going to happen next." — L. Frank Baum

“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

Life is like an onion; you peel off one layer at a time and sometimes you weep. ----Carl Sandburg

If you stop struggling, then you stop life. (Huey Newton)

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on. ----- Robert Frost

If you're going through hell, keep going. ~Winston Churchill

We acquire the strength we have overcome. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. ~Author Unknown

Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He's going to be up all night anyway. ~Mary C. Crowley

People who do not understand themselves have a craving for understanding. ~Wilhelm Stekel

Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward. ~Kurt Vonnegut

This one is my favorite quote and I am trying so hard to live by it:

Carrie : Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous. --- Its the last line of the series Sex and the City.

Adventures of Lindsey and Robbie.

2009-09-20T12:54:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 24:1717 Don’t rejoice when your enemy falls. Don’t let your heart be glad when he is overthrown.

Okay guys and gals, I know I have not wrote in two days and for that I am deeply sorry. It is just so much is going on in my life that I want to scream sometimes. For about a two months I have had pain in my back looped around to where my ovaries are its stronger than menstural cramp pain. The only thing that knocks out the pain, is extra strength tynoel. I would go to the doctor but one a doctor cost money and two I have my annual papsmear done in two weeks so if only can hold out till then. YUCK! Well....yesterday me and my friend Robbie went to Magnolia. We were planning on going to the fair there and maybe go out for supper. Well...change of plans we go by the fair and it is muddy I mean MUDDY so we decided we are gonna go ride around. We on our way to Magnolia here about the "Great Mule Ride". Well lets just say we turned down the wrong road and ended up in the mule ride with all the other cars, buggies, carts..you name it. The reason why this is so funny is because one we did not plan this and two she was almost out of gas and no where to turn around unless we wanted to use someones yard. We survied and got to Murphy Oil to fill up in the nick of time. That will be twenty mins I laughed so hard till we both cried. The adventures of me and Robbie have oh my my. After that lovely adventure we went to get gas like I meationed and then we went to eat Chinese. I LOVE CHINESE! Espically Chen Chen's in Magnolia. Super nice people, quiet atomsphere, word of wise: Verzion doesnt have good signal in there though. We (me and Robbie) have a tradiation we always get a fortune cookie and eat it in car on our way of leaving. We window shopped some, we went to Dollar Tree I bought me some Halloween stationary stuff and Robbie has a weakness for snowglobes so she bought her four snowglobes... for a dollar a pecie can you really bet it? We went to Walmart and be shocker I came out empty handed! We also looked around at Catos and Payless now that made us depressed we just needed a pocket full of money. We got bored and had a little of cash on us and at 2:30 we decided to go see the new Madea movie. Oh my heavens if you need a good laugh...GO! It was a great movie maybe when we come back we get to see Julie and Julia if it is not stopped by then. We decided after the movie to make one more loop through Magnolia and we came home. I took a well deserved two hour nap. I will write more later but my pains are hurting and I will write more I LOVE YOU! And, Keep Smiling.

Happy Anniversity Mom and Daddy!

2009-09-17T15:21:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

This is a younger picture of my parents I think I was either a baby or really young. My parents if my dad was still alive would be thirty eight years. They met when my mother was the eighth grade, and my dad had graduated high school that May. They met each other on a blind date in November. My mom used to tell me she could not stand my dad on their first date because she confused his sense of humor for cockyness. And my dad said about her that she was so quiet if she said BOO! she would jump into the next town. But they dated, five long years and were head over heals one another. They were married: September 17, 1971 at the home of Bro. Mac Smith with a few close friends. My dad was a wonderful man, he was funny, smart, understandble but stern. My parents were pleased to know to have me and Christie. We were the sparkles of his eye and momma was the smile on his face. It took them fourteen years and four miscarriages later just to have me. Today I took mom out for lunch (supper too filled the both of us up!) at Woods in Camden. Really good food! I know if my dad was still alive he would of done it or they would of went somewhere to eat. I miss my daddy everyday I can not imagine the pain my mom goes through. We (me and mom) were talking today at lunch about how we think daddy should just walk through the door like he went to walmart, or he is in the back taking a nap, and if we are in the back part of the house he should be in living room watching tv or sleeping in his recliner, not gone. I say I look like my dad! So many people agree with me but momma and a few others say me and her (mom) look a lot a like. I will post a picture of me and Christie on the bottom here. Ya'll let me know. I wanted you guys know that today is a specail to me and my family. And, finally show you guys of my handsome daddy and my beautiful momma! Here are me and Christie!

WARNING: Older picture its like two years old but I cant find some recent ones. She has some but I don't. But, I thought I would show you faces with pictures so if I say, "Momma" or "Daddy" or even "Christie" you'll know who I am talking about. Christie looks a little bit different...tanner... and gained soem college weight! I will post some newer ones at a later time. But this is my family. I am glad you decide to read this blog. I love you and Keep SMiling!

Why Do I Have A Blog?

2009-09-16T12:07:00.000-07:00

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.John 15:13

Hey everyone, I hope everyone is doing well and is not sick with the flu my word there is a lot of flu going around my poor sister has got it now and is suffering. So...be praying for her. I just thought I would write a quick blog before I go run some errands and get back to school work. BLAH! Now, I have been asked to do this blog by an important friend of mine whom I adore. She got me into blogging me, and I thank her everyday for it. It is such an amazing feeling that GOD put on my heart one night to send most of you guys emails and said GO! Here is the reasoning behind my blog.

1. Matthew 28:18-20 (The Great Commission) when HE said, "And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. 19Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: 20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen." I believe that my blog will shine a light on that there are still good, hard-working, honest, for true Christians out there. And, you never know this could be a place where someone comes to get away from life or troubles and I send them email or one of you sends an email out about my blog someone might find it and could change their life. I sure hope so one day.
2. This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. John 15:12-15. I hope and pray that I make new friends through this that you guys no matter what the problem is you can come to me. Send me a comment, an email (prettyblueeyesnpink@yahoo.com), or facebook message. That is why in my signature to yall is I love you and Keep Smiling. Because as Christian's we are suppose to love everyone. And, what usual happens when someone says I love you.... you smile! So that is the story behind my signature.
3. Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in the LORD, lovingkindness shall surround him.Psalm 32:10. I like any human being have bad days... days I want to stay in bed...days that I want to just curl up with a good book and read...and not have a care in the world. But you guys are part of my world if you read this. So, there will be days that I will be sad or upset or something sad will be written on my blog. Like as a warning, I will be writing about my dad...its my parents wedding anniversty and so I will be a little sad tomorrow. I tend to vent on here too, but it is okay because I know you guys do not mind it all. I know you guys have me in your prayers and I have yall in mine.
4. Romans 3:27 (King James Version)
27Where is boasting then? It is excluded. By what law? of works? Nay: but by the law of faith. I do not set out to boast about my life, the things GOD has given me. Because those things can be taken from us in a heartbeat. They should be the sparkle of your eye, not for everyone to be like, "Oh I wish I had that nice of a house or I wish I could take that vacation." I think it is amazing alot of you get to go and do things and we all love hearing about it. I love talking about my life and telling you guys about it but, it blows my mind with folks who seem to have it all. But, I sit here and think do they really have it all or do they pretend to? Do they have it all and not have GOD in their hearts? Because, you can have all the riches in the world but not have GOD in your life that just blows my mind!

I am so blessed and thankful for each and everyone of you, I hope and pray that you are well. Amd, if you have a prayer request post it below. Even if it is something so small, do not fear or worry I'm here. I might be only 24 years old but I am here. I love you guys so much and Keep Smiling. :)

Rain Rain Go Away!

2009-09-15T17:56:00.001-07:00

My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest. (Exodus 33:14)

How is everyone? I am doing pretty good, minus the sore lower back, and I am feeling incridibly blessed. Today yet again in SA (South Arkansas) it is raining. My day started off okay and I got up went walking did not walk as much as I hoped to but it is a good way to start a morning and praise the LORD it did not start raining on me. I also went to the bank took care of some busincess, went to get me and mom lunch and came home this rain just makes you want to stay in bed and do nothing at all sometimes. I also have talked to my wonderful bestie today she is my sunshine alot of times, I think I will keep her. No one has voted on the Bible Study idea so me and her have decided to do one just the two of us. If you guys wanna do one at a later time that is perfectly fine. We plan on doing, Esther: It is tough being a woman by Beth Moore. I absloutely love Beth Moore and her ministry. I also have played with Salem and Reese some, which are like my little babies they are spoiled rotten guys, I promise. Okay, I wrote a blog a while back entitled: To Cut the Hair or Not to Cut the Hair that is the question? I am sure you guys are wondering what did I end up doing. Well, I decided .... (drum rolls) I decided not to cut it . If my camera was to act right I would post a recent picture of me with straighten hair and my Mary Kay make up but since its not you just have to bare with me till my sister comes home and can help figure out what is wrong.
So, has everyone heard about this Kayne West and Taylor Swift drama? Okay, I feel so bad for Taylor I would of been mortifed. Its all over the interent now, that is what I think Kayne was planning on doing. And, second, this is just my opinon yes it is very sad Micheal Jackson has died. But, come on people lets move on there is more to life then this man. There are more people dying than just him. Like, Patrick Swayze I hardly have seen anything on his death. My prayers are with both of these familes its just sicking its been almost a month and Micheal Jackson is still blowing up our screens.
Thursday I will not be posting until later than usual, it my parents thirty-eighth wedding anniversty if my handsome daddy was still alive. I know the cementary will be too mushy so I am taking my mommy out to eat fish (for her) and shrimp (for me) so she will not be so alone. I know my dad would of taken her somewhere so I am gonna do the good daughter deed and take care of momma! I will write a blog about my parents that day including a younger picture of them. There is a long overdue debate who I look like? I say momma, majority of folks say my dad. I know I ACT like my dad, very funny, love to talk, really forgiving. So... I will let you guys be the judge!
I am gonna run for now, might post something fun later... I love you and Keep Smiling!

Rest in Peace.. Patrick Swayze

2009-09-15T12:52:00.000-07:00

They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.Revelation 12:11

How is everyone? This will be a short blog but I will write more later... Patrick Swayze, 57, actor, dancer, director passed away last night at home.

Now you are no longer suffering we will deeply miss you and our prayers are with your family. We love you! Keep Smiling and I love you guys... I will write more later.

Rain on a Sunday afternoon.

2009-09-13T14:45:00.000-07:00

Acts 14:17 Nevertheless he left not himself without witness, in that he did good, and gave us rain from heaven, and fruitful seasons, filling our hearts with food and gladness.

How is everyone? Well, here in South Arkansas it is currently raining. No thunder. Just rain. This is the kind of weather that makes you wanna ball up your favorite person and just cuddle. Well, since I do not have a favorite person near by my blanket and my computer will have to do for now. How is everyone else weather? Please guys let me know about the Bible Study idea I posted about. I have two votes so far from people who do not read my blog well one techinally does. I am also taking a break from my Social Problems homework. It depresses me that there is so much going on in the world around us and we never stop to think and look at it. One of my favorite quotes is off the movie, Ferris Bullers Day Off it goes a little like this. Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. I completely agree with this statement. It is so hard to believe my sister will be twenty in January, she should still be a baby. We should still be playing dress up, finger painting or me teaching her to write her name. I do however have to admit that since my dad has died me and her have gotten a lot closer. Yes, we argue and yes, we are two total polar opposites but I feel so blessed to have a sister. I could not imagine what being an only child is like. My mom is one of three children she's the baby. She has a brother whom lives in South Arkansas who is a truck driver and a older sister who died before I was born in a truck hitting her head on and killing her and her infant daughter. My dad was one of six children. Big Famly. Im suprised he did not want a big family himself. Mickey is my dads brother who works in a lumber mill. Jeff he is a math professor in Texas. Anita is in Texas as well and is having some back trouble be praing for her. Patsy was my aunt, I never got met her and my dad did not talk about her much. Erstine is also an aunt I never got to met. But, my Aunt Patsy and Erstine both had children who are closer to my parents age instead of me calling them Jean or Ricky I say Aunt Jean and Uncle Ricky. My dad's family is pretty close, I hardly see my moms family. My dads parents died before me and Christie were born, and my moms stepdad died when I young. And, her mother died four months before my dad died. One day I hope to have two or three children of my own. I am gonna run for now, I have alot of work to do that is due soon. I love you and Keep Smiling.

National Pet Memorial Day

2009-09-12T12:53:00.000-07:00

As soon as he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. And Saul took him that day and would not let him return to his father's house anymore. Then Jonathan made a covenant with David, because he loved him as his own soul.1 Samuel 18:1-3

Yes, its me again I am sorry I write so much. I just enjoy it . I found on a google either last week or the week before a list of everyday of the month has a certain day. If you want me to look certain dates for you leave a comment and I will look it up for you. I will show you what somedays that are important to me:

July 20th-My Birthday- Ugly Truck Contest Day- I dont even own a truck.

March 8th-Dads Birthday-Be Nasty Day- I find this funny because my dad was a jokester.

May 4th-Moms Birthday-National Candied Orange Peel Day- Well mom does like candy orange slices.

January 26th-Christies Birthday- Opposite Day - Well me and her are opposites does that count?

January 18th- Robbies Birthday- Winnie the Pooh Day- Intresting she likes Winnie the Pooh.

August 30th- Merediths Birthday - National Toasted Marshmallow Day. Smores anyone?

March 25th- Lorna's Birthday- Pecan Day and Waffle Day. Lorna did like Waffles.

The reason why the title of this blog is what is because that is what today's date thing says. I have had quiet a few pets that went to pet heaven. My longest living pet would probably be, Copper, my dashaund I had. Copper was named after the dog in the Fox and the Hound. He was giving to me for my third birthday and he was my world when I was a little girl. He died when I was nineteen so he had a great life. We have also had fish which have died and gone to fish heaven. We have had four guinea pigs, not all at the same time. Me and Christie got addicted to the guinea pig phase when Doctor Dolittle came out in theaters. We now have Salem who is our very spoiled cat who stays in constant viewing. I do not know if I meationed to ya'll but Christie has a dog she shares with her fiance, Cody. His name is Reese. Reese is my world, he always cheers me when I see him. He is very very smart. He looks like a Reese cup that is why he is named Reese. He is an applehead chiqua (sp?). I am a die hard Arkansas Razorbacks fan so the other day when I was in Wal-mart I bought him a collar bandana to wear. I said you know Reese they say in the bible "As for me my household we will serve the LORD". Well, not only do we do that but we love the Razorbacks if I have anything to do with it. I better marry a man that loves them as much as I do or Im in a heap of trouble. I will post a picture of Reese.

He's a little bit bigger than that now this was taken when he first came here. If you are wondering what he is laying its the top of Salems carrier. Thats all we had till Christie bought him a bed. He is VERY spoiled. He knows who everyone is. Examples:

Momma- Christie

Daddy- Cody

Auntie Windsey- Duh me.

Grammy- My mom or Cody's mom

Bubba- Salem.

He knows who Robbie is and some other folks. He just brightens my day I joke with Christie and say he is like my little Toto. I know why now Toto followed Dorothy everywhere there was food in that basket lol. I sure do love him though. Well, back to school work. I love you and keep smiling.

Prayer Request Form

2009-09-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits:Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases,Who redeems your life from destruction,Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,Who satisfies your mouth with good things,So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's. Psalms 103: 2-5

Please put a prayer request or requests in the comment box please. And, I will be praying for them. Everyone be praying for Waldo like I meationed in the blog before. Also, Robbie's father will be having laser eye surgery on Wenesday at 1:15PM. She might be having surgery herself in December, so lift these two in prayer for me. I love you and keep smiling.

Catch-up day.

2009-09-12T09:12:00.000-07:00

Today's Verse
For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age...— Titus 2:11-12

How is everyone? I missed ya'll.Yes, I know that I did not write yesterday. I had alot of Social Problems work I needed to work on and my kidneys are starting to give me some trouble. Don't worry, if they keep up after my school payment gets taken out of my checking account I will be going to the doctor because this has been going on since June. Welcome new and old followers. In my book its still morning so Good Morning! Alot has happend as of Thursday night and Friday day. But, I will not post about that wonderful thing until/if it happens. Everyone I know some of ya'll are not from Arkansas but Waldo's school, it was abonded burned down last night so please be praying for that community. I know this a day late better be a day late than not doing it all! Where were you guys on 9/11/01? I was in my Biology class and we were done for the day we were just waitting on the bell to ring. It never rung. Another teacher came into the class room to tell the teacher to dismiss and send us to second period and they will explain. My second period was with my friend, Bonnie (I will write a blog about her in Ocotober). And, we were to stay there all day but get released for lunch. Blessed, I was in Civics (Government) and there was a TV in there. The teacher we had was famous for college-type lectures and he told us of what happend. He said, "For once and so many years I will not be lecturing to you today. Today we will sit in silence." I am gonna run for now, I need to work on some school work but I will be writing more later. I promise. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Fun Facts about Lindsey!

2009-09-10T10:19:00.000-07:00

The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out.
— Proverbs 10:9

I am compassionate and good at being able to see things from anothers point of view.
I am generous and will do just about anything for the people I love.
I am artistic, crafty and very creative.
I am sensitive to others feelings/emotions and am good at picking up on nonverbal cues regarding peoples moods/emotions. I am bubbly and vivacious (most of the time).I am loyal to those I love.
I am spiritual.
I try to lead a spiritual path.
That I LOVE avocados now.
I always pay my library fines.
I genuinely love spending time with my family.
That I still have an imagination.
That I love costume jewelry more than expensive jewelry.
That my happiness is more important than money to me.
I’m not a jealous person.
don’t need to spend money to have fun.
I’m good at trivia games, like Jeopardy, Trivial Pursuit, Cash Cab, etc.
My love of animals.
How I look in (most) pictures.
I like to read.
I am good with people.
I am a good counselor.
I am silly and fun.
I smile and laugh a lot.
I am not snobby!
I can’t stand snobs!
I love life, and all the unexpectedness of it.
I am a one of a kind, you’ll never meet anyone quite like me.
My love of reading.
Not that I necessarily look down upon people who don’t like to read, but I just simply don’t understand them.
I learn through reading, I escape through reading, and I think that I would be a dramatically different person had I not been a book-lover.
i have a wide range of music genres that i listen to.
i’m not ashamed to cry.
i forgive people and always give second chances.
i’m there to listen to people when they need to vent and i give advice when they ask for it.
i’m not at all racist.
I usually walk fast, and have unknowingly left people behind until they pointed it out to me.
I would like to write a book someday.
I like to make people laugh.
Consequently, I hate going to the dentist.
I read at least 40 books a year.
I am a nightowl.
Growing up my favorite teachers were always my English teachers.
My favorite fruit is fresh pineapple.
I really like putting lotion on my feet.
I hate facing problems - so I usually runaway from them.
I always get home sick when I travel.
I get headache from people smoking around me.
i have size 9 feet.
i like shoes.at the momment, i’m pretty happy with my life.
Had my tonsils taken out.
Green is my favourite colour.
I can't stand rap.
I am addicted to Diet Coke and Diet Dr. Pepper.
I hate the smell of vinegar.
I love all kinds of hats.
I hate superficial and false people.
I love surprises.
i have the bestest friends in the world.
I cannot and will not function without a cup of coffee in the morning.
I walk while reading a book.
I read Shakespeare's sonnets out loud to myself if I'm stressed out.
When I was ten years old my father asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I said "English teacher."
I love spicy food.
The only food too spicy for me is a habanero pepper all by itself.
I wish on stars.
I like sleeping.
I like burning candles.
I don't want to relive high school.
I love pictures.
Flowers make me happy.
I never dyed my hair.
I hate being lonley.
I'll never get sick of Disney.
I love music.
I like forehead kisses.
I’m a big kid at heart.
I hate people who pick on others who can’t fight back.
I think people who abuse dogs should be thrown off a high bridge, (and land on a bed of jagged rocks.)
I am a great friend.
If a guy can make me laugh he is halfway there.

I love you and Keep Smiling. I will write more later. :)

Beautiful Wenesday and rain.

2009-09-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

Then he said to them, “Go your way. Eat the fat and drink sweet wine and send portions to anyone who has nothing ready, for this day is holy to our Lord. And do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”—Nehemiah 8:10

Okay guys and gals, how is everyone? I hope everyone is well and nothing is going wrong. Well, I got to thinking about a few things. How about we do a bible study? A Beth Moore bible study? I meationed this lightly in my what are you reading tag. But, I really want to do something with you guys! I will post book covers, and ya'll let me know what yall think on them? I can order mine when we get done voting! I can start as soon or as late ya'll want me too. I can do it different days of the week to work around people schedule. Whenever is fine with me. Keep Smiling. I love you. Okay here are some options....

Book One: Esther: It’s Tough Being a Woman - Member Book.

Book Two: Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed: A Study of David

Why do I want to be a Christian Counselor?

2009-09-08T15:46:00.000-07:00

James 5:12 But above all things, my brethren, swear not, neither by heaven, neither by the earth, neither by any other oath: but let your yea be yea; and your nay, nay; lest ye fall into condemnation.

Well.. I was in college during my third year and I was majoring in English. I did not do good in those classes none the less I confused a passion for reading for the mistake of a love for something. Yes, there are two different meanings. Over that summer I prayed for GOD to show me what needed to be in my life. And, if I will give my ex boyfriend of three years any props or kudos I will give him this. He said, "All your life you have given people advice or been a mentor any some kind of program." "You would be a great counselor, it will be alot of work but I can see you doing that." So, I was like what kind of degree would I need. The degree my school offers is a Bachelors of Arts in Psychology and Sociology and then you go into and get a Masters from them in Clinical and Mental Counseling. That is what I plan on doing, right now I am taking a class every semester till I get to go back in the fall at my old school so I could get my GPA up and finish what I need to do here. Here recently I got to thinking and researching about the Masters my school offers and to additon to the mental and clinical counseling they have School Psychology and it is only a semester longer so why not get both? Intresting huh? So, I am thinking about getting a double Bachelors, a double Masters, maybe one day a double Doctrine? Now, I have a few people about this dream I have of my dream clinic so I am going to share it with you.....

H.E.L.P Clinic (Having Everyday Love Possible)- See the HELP in there.

It will be house, like me and you live in and the living room would be a waitting room and there will be a kitchen and in the dining room area it would be a table and chairs and food in the fridge. There will be a televison in the waitting room with actually good stuff on. My reposents will have a bowel of quotes, scriptures, and hymn lines in there you must take one. It could make your day :). There will be the master bedroom which will be my office. It will be nice and comfy no lay down on the couch and how does that make you feel stuff. You tell me from your heart. There will be an extra bedroom which would consit of a queen size bed, big enough for anyone. It would also have a baby bed and all the things for a baby: changing table, diapers, wipes, toys for all ages. The reason for the room? Because what if someone is being abused, or neglected they will always have a home here. They get to be taken of. Their safe here. Why a house? Because no one I do not think NO ONE wants be forced to go to a clinic where they do not know anyone. There will be a third bedroom just in case the client who is going through a tough time needs someone there with them. Either me or an older child. I would not mind it all being there for you or any of my clients. When I get my Masters and a steady job I will work on this as soon as GOD puts that chance in my hands. I strive for the better tomorrow not just for me but for the lives of everyone in my life.
I feel so blessed because I get to share my dream or dreams with you guys. You guys have been such wonderful blessings. I love you and Keep Smiling.

To Cut The Hair or Not Cut The Hair is the Question of the day.

2009-09-08T12:31:00.001-07:00

And above all things have fervent charity among yourselves: for charity shall cover the multitude of sins.
1 Peter 4:8

Well, Okay everyone I have a problem. Not the usual ones (laughs). My hair is medium length it falls into my back it is a little bit longer than what is on my profile picture. I was thinking, I have gotten my hair cut every single time in the past two years with the guys I was with broken up with. I got my haircut. I know I did not at all plan it like that. I am debating on cutting it. It is beautiful hair, I love long hair but it takes forever to dry and style and meationed that is just half of it. I love my color of my hair I do not plan on coloring it, I get tons of compliments on how pretty and black it is for someone so far and blue eyes. So, no reason to change the color. Let me show you guys some pictures of what I am thinking:

Three Options:

Option One: Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen off Twilight) I love Alice on Twilight :)

Option 2: Kate Gosselin Hair. Note on these pictures I am not changing the color of my hair just the style.

Kate Three Kimberly Locke hair. I really like the Ashley Greene and this one. But, I will let you guys vote. And, if you have any suggestions I am open to them. Look at my picture now and see what you guys think. I will write more later. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Top 5's

2009-09-07T21:05:00.000-07:00

For he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things.
— Psalm 107:9

Pick your five "Five Toys That Most Remind You of Your Childhood": Light Bright, Teddy Rupxin, Cabbage Patch Dolls, My Joe Bear, and Operation.
Pick your five "5 favorite books": The Wizard of Oz series, The Bell Jar, The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, The Lovely Bones, and Cinderella
Last things you did: EATEN/DRANK/LISTENED TO/WATCHED/BOUGHT: Eat: Watermelon Drank: Lemonade Listened to: Sex and the City Watched: Sex and the CIty Bought: Reese Blast
Five things I don't eat . . .: Anchioves, Spinach, Sauerkrat, Squid, and Butterscotch Pudding
Last 5 films you watched... be honest!!: The Wizard of Oz, Ferris Bullers Day Off, Hook, The Panic Room, and Heidi.
Five things you would put in a trap if you wanted to catch me.: Piles of books (including my Bible), Chinese Food, Cold Diet Dr Pepper, My friends, and a laptop with interent.
Favorite movies of all time: The Wizard of Oz, PollyAnna, Cinderella, The Neverending Story, and Young Sherlock Holmes
5 Things i don't leave the house without! Purse, wallet, lotion, inkpens, and gum
5 Things I Could Grab from Where I'm Sitting: No cheating! Fart Putty, Post-its, My Senior Ring, Paper Clips, and earrings.
5 Things I'm Addicted To: Diet Coke, Diet Dr. Pepper, Chinese Food, My cell phone, blogging.
5 Things That Terrify Me: Carrie (the horror movie), Carries mother (horror movie), Snakes, Bugs, and Vomit.
Top Five People I Want To Punch In The Face: The Hills cast, Paris Hilton, Prez Hilton, Taylor Laurent, and Oprah.
Greatest Cereals Of All Time: Special K red berries, Specail K fruit and yougart, Cherrios (with cut up banana), Lucky Charms, and Frosted Flakes.
Things I WOULD immediately blow HUGE dollars on if I won the lottery: Pay off school loan, buy me a car, donate to charties, get my own place, and rest in bank.
My top 5 Favorite Songs (At the moment) I run to you by: Lady Antebellum, Arise my love by Newsboys, Love Story by Taylor Swift, Live like you were dyin' by Tim McGraw, and Friends by Micheal W. Smith.
My Favorite Candy! : Sour Patch Kids, Reese Peanut Butter Cups, York Peppermint Patty, Starburst, and Heath Bars.
THINGS I WANT RIGHT NOW! A hug, A job in Counseling, My degrees, My own house, and some Chinese food.
Your dream future : 1 JOB / 1 CITY / 1 CAR / 1 HUSBAND or WIFE / 1 PET: Job: Christian Counselor, City: Anywhere away from here, Car: Ford Fusion, Husband: Sweet, Senestive, Christian Man, and a pet puppy named Daisy.
5 Favorite Smells: Fresh cut grass, Moonlight Path by BBW, Bella by MK, Velocity MK, and Cut hay.
Five things that always cheer me up: GOD, my friends, my family, learning something new, and a new book :)
5 Things I Want To Learn: To drive, play acoustic guitar, bungee jump, dance, and vantrilquist.
Places I want to visit: Paris, Italy, London, Georgia, and Flordia.
Things you hate doing! Dishes, not having a job, crying, straighteing my hair, and painting my toe nails.
5 things that remind you of your best friend (Meredith Editon): Mary Kay, Pink Cadallic, Steel Magnolias, Bubbles, and Bak Bak.
5 things that remind you of your best friend (Robbie Editon): Teaching, Butterflies, Purple, Mustang, and Chinese.
Top 5 Websites you Visit : Google, Blogger, Yahoo Mail, Facebook, and school website.
Top 5 Things that can be found in your room : Piles of books, tripod, clarinet, candy dish, and computer.
5 TV Characters I Wish Were Real So I Could Hang Out With Them: Rory Gilmore, Carrie Bradshaw, Meg Griffin, Rose Nyland, and Julia Sugarbaker.
5 Films Released The Year You Were Born (this will make you feel either REALLY young or REALLY old)Back to the Future, The Goonies, The Breakfast Club,E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial, Young Sherlock Holmes.
5 States you have been to (Airports don't count): Louisana, Missouri, Texas, New Mexico
five things in my makeup kit Mary Kay Pink Diamonds Lip Gloss, Mary Kay Pink Passionfruit lip stick, Mary Kay eyeshadows, Mary Kay Sweet Rasian Lip Gloss, and Mary Kay Shell Lipstick.
5 things i use every day: Shampoo, Body Wash, Purfume, Lotion, and hair moouse.
Must haves in my dream home: A huge libary, an office, comfy bed, vanity, and a dog for company.
Things I want to do before i die: Be a great christian counselor, be a good mother, a stronger christian daily, bungee jump, and change a life.
5 "things I have wanted to be when I grow up: A Occupational Therapist, A Journalist, A English Teacher, An actress, and Christian Counselor.
Who would play you, your love interest, your best friend, a parent and your worst enemy in a movie about your life? Me: Ashley Greene (Alice off Twilight), Love intrest: Trace Adkins, Best Friend: Julia Roberts (Meredith) RoseAnne (Robbie), Parent: Sean Connery, and Worst Enemy: Chris Farley.

Followers!

2009-09-07T15:37:00.001-07:00

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

Okay guys, I figured out how to put my followers back on my page so if you want to follow me. Feel free too. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Tag: What is your favorite movie?

2009-09-07T11:39:00.000-07:00

Yes indeed, My favorite movie is "The Wizard of Oz". Has been for twenty years now. Not only do I love the movie, I have all the Oz books, and every Oz movie ever made. Later on this month they will be putting out the 70th anniversity edition and being the Oz nerd I am I have already pre-ordered my copy. My mom let me watch this movie at a very young age and I have fond memories of my father reading me the story. Who is my favorite character you might ask? The Scarecrow is my favorite character, because I relate to him. In every book I read I find one character I relate too. The Scarecrow in this case is because he is smarter than he thinks he is. And, he has three best friends that will help along the way. We all have friends that help him. I also have read Gregory Maguire's, Wicked Triology. Makes you think differently of the Wicked Witch theory. Here is some trivia for you: Did you know that in the books the shoes are not ruby but silver? So, growing up I didnt want ruby slippers I wanted silver! This year, March to be exact me and Robbie went to Branson as a girl's getting away weekend. We had a blast: went shopping, went to the Titanic musem, Ripleys Believe it or not, enjoyed watching it snow while we were in our hot tub indoors, and met some amazing airbrushers. But... why am I telling you all this? For Christmas I asked mom for a emerald green ring it did not have to be real but just emerald green. So, me and Robbie went shopping got a bunch of stuff like I got a sign in my room that says "Yellow Brick Road Blvd". But, the last place we went to was this little gift shop I can not remember the name of it to save my soul. And, Robbie was looking at jewelery and she hollared (well not scream) Lindsey, come here! So, I went over to her and she knew bad I wanted a emerald ring. She found one! I was like, "Robbie it is not gonna fit". Well, everyone it fit and it was only $10! I bought it no questions asked. So, everyday on my right hand since I bought it (yes it does the finger green only downfall) I wear it. It reminds me of the love I have for this beloved movie. And, like I said I love ballet flats... just so happens I have a red sequin pair I barely wear, and a pair of silver ones I need to replace. So call me a nerd.... if you wish. Now, I am going to share with you my favorite quote from the book, "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz".

"She threw her arms around the Lion's neck and kissed him, patting his big head tenderly. Then she kissed the Tin Woodman, who was weeping in a way most dangerous to his joints. But she hugged the soft, stuffed body of the Scarecrow in her arms instead of kissing his painted face, and found she was crying herself at this sorrowful parting from her loving comrades."

Isn't that just beautifuly written, I always thought it was werid she never kissed the Scarecrow. If you were to miss him most of all, wouldn't you of kissed him goodbye. Oh well. I just thought I would do a tag I got requested to do, and hope you enjoy learning more about me. I will write more later I promise. I love you and Keep Smiling.

September Childhood Cancer Awareness Month

2009-09-06T18:39:00.000-07:00

You shall serve the Lord your God, and he will bless your bread and your water, and I will take sickness away from among you.
—Exodus 23:25

Here some random facts I got about this subject:

This year, over 9,000 children will be diagnosed with cancer.

Cancer is the leading cause of death among children.

Over 1500 children died of cancer in 2005.
Children tend to develop different types of cancer than adults.

The National Childrens Cancer Society - This is a website worth reading more about.

Types of Childhood Cancer

Children can suffer from several types of cancer, such as
Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia
Bone cancer
brain and spinal cord cancer
Ewing's Sarcoma
Hodgkin's Lymphoma
Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma
Neuroblastoma
Osteosracoma
Retinoblastoma
Rhabdomyosarcoma
Wilm's Tumor

Childhood cancer is not a single disease, but rather many different types that fall into 12 major categories. Common adult cancers are extremely rare in children, yet many cancers are almost exclusively found in children.

Today, up to 75% of the children with cancer can be cured, yet, some forms of childhood cancers have proven so resistant to treatment that, in spite of research, a cure is illusive.Childhood leukemia (making up the largest group of childhood cancers) was once a certain death sentence, but now can be cured almost 80% of the time.On the average, 1 in every 4 elementary school has a child with cancer. The average high school has two students who are a current or former cancer patient. In the U.S., about 46 children and adolescents are diagnosed with cancer every weekday.One in every 330 Americans will develop cancer by the age of 20. On the average, 12,500 children and adolescents in the U.S. are diagnosed with cancer each year.On average a treatment for childhood cancer diagnosis is two years.Cancer treatment can cause serious side effects that may last a lifetime.Research on the emotional impact of childhood cancer finds that parents and siblings report even greater longterm emotional impacts than the diagnosed child.

Lets Keep Our Prayers For Our Children and The Children of this world.

This is all for now, I love you all and Keep Smiling.

How deep is my soul.

2009-09-05T13:28:00.000-07:00

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."Proverbs 3:5-6

Hello everyone, as you all seen I did not write yesterday. I am currently going through alot right now, and you guys and this blog are being a great comfort. This month is very hard for me and so will be January. Later on this month I will be telling you more about it. Right now, I just need everyones prayers and sweet words. I'm getting over a broken heart, I am very senstive to things dealing with romantic love. I have burned time and time again not just by men by people in general. And GOD, you guys, my other friends,Meredith, and Robbie have all been wonderful helps its just my mind is going ninty to nothing at the moment. I am very emotional about what all is going on in my life. And, the only thing to be true is that I am going to be okay. In time. So, if there are days that I am not strong it is not because I do not want to be. Its because I'm scared I have gone through so much in twenty-four years it is unreal. I will give you the quick version and I will explain more in later blogs I promise. There will be one of a very specail person in my life in about two weeks. So stay tuned. In the past few years I have lost my grandmother (moms mother), four months later I loose my father, and a year to date of my grandma dying my best friend of fourteen years dies tragically (she is the blog I will write about soon). After my father died: I started to smoke, well I did smoke for about month and I felt clinically and emotionally depressed. But, I had to be strong for everyone but me. I had to put on a smile for everyone I knew and know. My father was so young and so wonderful I would of never guessed January 25th would of been has last. I had to be strong for my mother because she had lost her mother and then do a 180 and looses her husband of forever. And, like I meationed my father died a day before Christies birthday I had to be strong for her. She was a daddys girl since she was born: she was the tomboy, the not afraid to get dirty one. So, I had to be strong for her. Everytime I cried I felt guility and at times I still do. And, in July of that year I started dating a guy who was 15 years older than me. I will not name his name because I do not need him contacting me. But, we dated three years three long years. We met online, and he was from Arkansas so we met up he and I hit it off because I love to read and we were both Christians. I ended up loosing my virginity to him because I was told repeatedly that we were to be married and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. I believed him, he was everything I ever wanted in a man. So I thought... after we spent a year and a half together he started to change. Which meant he went out did his own thing, he moved to South Carolina for a job, he and I had occasions he'd yell at me like I was a dog, I ask why was it me. Why did I stay with this moron? Because I thought I was in love, and for the sin I commited one time with him. He holds secerts that no one else knows. He admitted to me finally he cheated me on the whole three years we were together and he never loved me at all. Heartbreaking. Then in May of this year I get in another relationship with a great man, I will not down him. We broke up two weeks, it still hurts because I truely care for this man. But, I know why I think it ended sour... I was expecting him to change my problems, clinging to him, worrying so much because I thought in my mind he could fix those things instead of giving it all to GOD. I feel so horrible I did that to him, we still talk once a week. He still makes me laugh, yes even still cry. But, I am willing to let him go and let GOD take care of it. But, I wish nothing but the best for him. There are still alot of things I need to work on like learning to drive (please I beg do not make fun of me for this), work on me (my health should come first and I do not let it alot of times), and get to dependent instead of co-dependent. I admit these faults, and as of today I feel like a new woman sharing all these things with you guys its like I am talking to a new branch of people. I am so glad I started blogging it has been such a blessing to know that I am gonna be okay. And, that GOD does conquer all evil and pain. I love you all so much! I am learning that everyday that love is not about feeling something it is a personal choice you choose to do. Its knowing that even though some of us do not know each other real life that does not mean I do not love you all and want nothing but the best for you all. Thank you for reading my blog you guys do not have to. I need to get off here I will write a more upbeat later I just thought I would let you guys know I am alive and okay. I love you all so very much and Keep Smiling.

Rainy day turned into beauty

2009-09-03T15:10:00.000-07:00

1 John 4:18:There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Hello everyone, How is everyone? I hope all is well and things are going great. I am sitting at a computer lab waitting on Robbie to get out of her class and thought I would update everyone on my life. I am also procrasting over Social Problems homework, but I am ahead in the class so no worries. I spent the night with Meredith last night which we had alot of fun. Just talking, catching up, and of course there is always Mary Kay. I ended up buying some lip gloss and a beautiful lipstick, proceeds towards the lipstick go to stop Domestic Violence which I am a stronger supporter of. We went and ate at Bentleys which was pretty good. Just being girls and hung out. This morning she took me to a local resturant there we met Robbie so I could ride to class with her and hang out with her. Robbie and Meredith got to met each other if it was not raining I know they would of talked longer. Well, we got to Magnolia and ate breakfast at McDonalds YUMO! I was craving their sausage for about a week now. Once we got to the school I got a coffoe (I am sucker for coffoe), and Robbie went to buy her remaing school books. Two of which they still do not have! Oh my peanut butter and jelly! And, it is the second week of school you would think they would have them by now. Well, we head upstairs work on school work some and talk. We left to get lunch - deli sandwiches from Walmart. I recommend the Roast Beef YUMO its on an onion roll so you might wanna have some gum nearby. I got a new book, The Widow of the South.. look intresting and here is a big shocker it has some romance in it. Yes, I know I am as shocked as you are. So, we went riding for a little while ended up in the middle no where just thought we would get out for a little bit. And, here I am back on campus with a brownie and pineapple smoothie waitting on her. I feel so blessed. Tell me about yalls day? Anybody get rained on? I sure hope not. Im gonna keep this short I MIGHT write more later. I love you and Keep Smiling.

Waitting on my sweet Meredith!

2009-09-02T11:01:00.000-07:00

I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. - Proverbs 8:17

Well... I promised that I would write before I left to go to Meredith's for the night and right indy I got it done. Well, I went to moms doctor appointment with her. She has lost 17 pounds woo hoo momma! Blood pressure was good, blood was a little thick but doctor said its not a huge deal. Everyone watch out the flu bug is here, I saw more kids come in that the nurses said have the flu. I am glad things checked out good with my mom, I tend to worry sometimes about her because afterall she is the only parent I have left. Just got done eatting some fried chicken, who does not love fried chicken? Well, unless your vegan, vegeterian, or allergic... but that is a different story for a different time. It will be late tomorrow when I write. My friend, Robbie is in grad school (GO ROBBIE!) getting her Masters in Teaching, and so she will not be by herself on the way home I have voultered to be there for her. Everyone keep her in your prayers she is paying this all on her, and these payments monthly are not cheap by no stretch of the word. I am so proud of her! I straightened my hair with my new straighter I showed off late last night I give it 5 out of 5 stars it works wonderful! I hope everyone is having a blessed and wonderful day. How do you guys like the new layout, I figured out how you can change it and well I found that one and feel in love. It will change from time to time for now I really do love that one. How is everyone today? Tell me your thoughts, your opinons, what ya mad about that I can help you breathe over? (Giggles). Today's fashion for me lets see: What am I wearing: Pink studded top more fushia than pink, dark jeans that are boot cut, gold ballet flats, and obviously bra and panties. Just so yall know I obessed with ballet flats, I only need a few more colors but I love them super comfy. For being five four and not very cornated perfect shoe to wear. Im pumped to be spending the night with Meredith. She is a wonderful bestie, she and her husband, Russell live in Bentonville and she is my Mary Kay consultent! They have been married for almost two years, she has a blog you guys should check her out she is an awesome christian woman whom I call my sister. If you guys want her blog address ask away I know she will love to hear from you. She recently in Febuary to be exact lost her father to a brain tumor. So, prayers for her are much needed. Look what the kitty dragged... my cat! Salem scared me he rubbed up by my foot I guess he wants me to say hi. Salem has a funny story of how he got into this house. My sister, Christie always wanted when I say always thats a bit light she came out of the womb wanting a cat. And, we had Copper our dashaund who is now in heaven and we had guniea pigs, and fish. You get the point? No kitty. Well, my beautiful and wonderful father died a day before Christie's sixteenth birthday. And, in June of that year my mom went to see my dad while I was in my summer class and out of the woods hears meowing and out darts Salem. He lands, I put on my grave, my parents monument. He jumps and wines for my momma he had a cut lip and was like a bag of little bones. Well, my mommy being the big softy she is brought the bogger home. He now has no cut lip, weighs 15 pounds, sleeps with momma, and all the food and water and the occasionaly treat he and stand. Oh by the way, he loves fried chicken he must be southern and member of the Martin family. Why the name Salem? That is the name of the cementary where my father is buried, just seems fitting right. Well, I am gonna get off here and make sure I have everything for tonight. I love you guys and Keep Smiling. Lindsey!

Tag: Products I use everyday

2009-09-01T22:38:00.000-07:00

Today (September 1, 2009) I bought me a new hair straightner when I went to Walmart today. I love the color espically bright red. My wonderful bestie, Meredith has named my hair straightner Dorothy, after my love for "The Wizard of Oz". Pretty right?

Secondly I use Dove Pro-Age Aerosel hairspray this month because my hair is so super thick and if I wanna straighten my hair and add just a little bit of volume this is what I use.

Onto my makeup, my wonderful bestie sells Mary Kay and so I was given a gift of Mary Kay products for my birthday. These are the things I use:

On my eyes : Crystalline, Hazelnut, and Ivy Garden Eyeliner: since I have a natural black eyeliner under my eyes I do not use much eyeliner. My mascara I use is CoverGirl's Lashblast in Very Black

Lips: Lipstick: Shell Lip Liner: Dusty Pink Lip Gloss: Sweet Raisin

Face: Mary Kay® Full-Coverage Foundation in Ivory 104

Blush: CoverGirl in Natural Shimmer.

Shampoo for right now I am going through a trail test to see which one I like the best I am right now using Dove Daily Moisture Shampoo and Conditoner.

My body wash I use is also Dove, since I have such sensative skin this is what I am using Dove Pro-Age body wash. I love this stuff!

My deoderant you guessed it Dove Fresh. It works really well for me since I have such sensative skin.

I guess that is all just thought I would share, if you want reviews I will be more than happy to do them. Keep Smiling and I love you!

A Beautiful Day on the First Day of September

2009-09-01T13:11:00.000-07:00

Psalms 149:4 For the LORD takes delight in his people; he crowns the humble with salvation.

I do not know about you guys where you all are at in the world but here in South Arkansas it was beautiful today. Breathetaking. I decided to get out for a little while to run a few errands: went to the bank and went to Walmart. Now, I am back home enjoying a needs to be a little colder Diet Coke and typing to you wonderful people who read this thing. I hope everyone of you is having a wonderful day. I want you all to know that I love you and that if you need anything at all I am always here. I am not a great writer by no stretch of the word but I enjoy people, and that means you guys! Wenesday night I will not be posting anything I will be spending the night with Meredith but I will write some before I leave. Let us hope! I went walking again this morning and I have been for about a week now and it starts my morning off right. I wish you guys all lived by and we could go walking together. I know some or all of you have jobs but I just think its getting to be fall and that means pretty weather. The picture on here is of what my wallpaper is on my computer if you want a copy of it email me I will send it too you. My favorite times of the year are fall and spring. Even though I am summer baby (July 20th is my birthday) I love colder months. When my dad was alive he used to joke I kept my room so cold I could hang meat in here. Well... yes I do love cold. I wear short sleeves nearly all year, yes I do have a FEW long sleeve tops but hardly wear them. If I wear them I do not wear a jacket. Has everyones kids started school already? Do you ever wish you could back to high school? Sometimes I do, yes I will admit. But, I would change so much. I was picked on alot in high school for my weight, me being a "nerd". But, if I could go back and tell those kids where to go. I will talk more about my high school experiences in another blog and about someone very special to my heart. What activites were you guys in? I was a "band geek" I played clarinet, I still have it around here somewhere I just need some reeds and maybe play again someday.I got my junior year, too much drama and wanted to start drama classes. I was in drama, we did mini plays and I was in everyone of them. I enjoy actting it makes me pretend I am someone else be a sneaky little devil. I was also in the Writers Club, we were a club that got together on Fridays at lunch brought poems, short stories, whatever we wrote and shared it with the group. I was part of this all four years of my high school years. I enjoy writing to you guys, I know ya'll dont know me hardly but you guys are awesome and thank you for responding to my emails. Okay heres something for you today I have a few questions for you all: What is your favorite bible verse? I have shared mine Joshua 1:9. Now its your turn. Two, Is there a blog you guys want me to do in paticular I have a few ideas but you guys come before my thoughts. And, lastly guys you notice I changed back to the light background of the layout than the dark. Which do you guys perfer the dark or the light? I like the light a little bit more. It will grow on me. Well, I am gonna get off here for a little while. Yall write me, comment, email, let me know if I can change anything. I love you and keep smiling!

Duggar Family Expecting 19th Child

2009-09-01T10:49:00.000-07:00

Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.(Psalms 127:3-5 ESV)

Yes, you heard right Duggar mom is having yet another baby. According to THV (Little Rock news station) says she is due March 18, 2010. Yikes! Nineteen kids? Can you guys imagine. I am not a mother, I am however a godmother I am thinking what if I was godmother to 19 kids? Can you imagine the grocery bill? I understand with their show on TLC they get help through that and get paid for doing the show but lets say your an average Joe. Who would want 19 kids on the way society is going now? I do give this family all the kudos in the world because they do set high marks for their children. A good hard-working Christian family. Josh, the oldest Duggar son is married a beautiful woman named Anna and their baby is due October 18, 2009. I am just shocked thats all, I love children. I want to have two or three when GOD puts that special man into my life but nineteen I do not think I could have that many. I just thought I would post this short little post about what I just read/heard. I hope everyone is doing well and I will write more later I promise. Love yall tons and Keep Smiling!

TAG: What Am I currently reading?

2009-08-31T13:42:00.001-07:00

Like I have meationed I love to read. I thought I would share what I am reading. Be warned I read more than one book at a time. So, bare with me.

Book One:

Elizabeth by: J. Randy Taraborrelli. I am a fan of Elizabeth Taylor's. She has the most beautiful blue eyes I think I have ever seen. I got this book at my sisters university at the bookstore. They had a lot of books marked down believe it or not this book its a massive read was only a $1. Yes you heard me a $1. So, I am gonna start reading it today. I will keep you guys informed if it is any good. Which I must say it looks intresting there are a few pictures. But, to me I am not huge on pictures in a book. If anyone has this book feel free to let me know if it is any good. Next book...

Book Two:

Understanding Social Problems 6th editon by: Mooney, Knox, and Schacht. Like I meationed I am studying to be a Christian Counselor and my class I am taking this semester is called Social Problems. It might be the total nerd factor of me but this book is not half bad. It is well written, and alot of defintion. My first unit is over chapters one through five. I guess I need to be working on it somemore. I have some stuff tomorrow, I am almost done just have to do few more things. It talks about things that are going on in our society. From child abuse, drug problems, to even prostituion. I know I was shocked that was in there but sure nelly it is. I will in this class till December until I start my next class in January. So, prayers for me this semester with this class. :)

Book Three: Last one I promise

Esther: It's Tough Being a Woman by Beth Moore. I am doing some reading in Esther in my bible and I was wondering do any of you ladies like to start a bible study doing this book? I have it already and it is you guys call. We can do it any night of the week, my schedule will work with you guys. If some can do it Monday nights I do it with that bunch on Mondays on whatever night you guys you want I am more than welcome. Or, here is another thought how about I write my notes and my "bird eye view" and send you guys notes from me. And, you guys send back your notes and views. We do a lesson a week that way we can spread this book for all its worth. I have flipped through it, it looks like a wonderful book! I absloutly adore Beth Moore. But, you guys have another book in mind please I am open for all opionons outlooks, everything there is to offer. Let me know.

I love you guys and keep on smiling. :) With all my love.

I am so rude I have not introduced myself :)

2009-08-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

Hello one and all to my blog! My name is Lindsey Denise Martin and I am 24 years old. I live in a very small town of about five thousand people. I live at home with my mom, my younger sister- when she is home for the weekends and holidays, and a cat named Salem. I am currently unemployed which I dislike with a passion and a student. I am in school studying to be a Christian Counselor, I want to be make a difference in the lives of people by sharing GOD's word and love. My father passed away January 25, 2005 of a massive heart attack. He was a wonderful man, I am not just saying that because he was my father I am saying because he was a light to everyone. He spoke to people he did not know, he laughed even though he was hurting, and he was never afraid to go that extra mile. I guess that is where I get my love for people and the well-being of others. I am not very tall I stand at five foot four inches and weigh way too much than I should. I have medium length black hair and big dark blue eyes. There is nearly always a smile on face unless things are not going to planned. I suffer from a disease called hypoglycemia. For those who do not know what that is it simply means low glucose concentration in the blood. Believe me its not fun. I have to watch how much sweet I eat and I need to eat ever four hours. I am an addict (yes I will admit it) to Diet Coke and Diet Dr Pepper. I am told I am a city girl, I did not know how to make deer steak until a friend of mine showed me how and nearly passed out over the blood. I guess GOD did not want to be a nurse or doctor huh? I love to laugh! Laughing is the cure for pretty much everything. I do not smoke, makes my head hurt. My favorite colors would have to be pink, green, and ruby red. If you want to contact me my email is prettyblueeyesnpink@yahoo.com I will email you back as soon as I can. I promise. Oh, and I do not make promises I do not intend on keeping. My favorite bible verse is Joshua 1:9 - Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.(KJV). I love to read, okay love might be a little to light. I read alot, mostly fiction but I have recently gotten into the kick of biographies. I do not do romances novels, sorry you guys. I have about a one thousand books and yes I have read nearly all of them. I will post a reading list later of books I plan on reading it will consit of fifty or so books. My best friends name is Meredith and Robbie, we have been each others rocks for awhile now. I enjoying writing, I always have. Either it be novels, plays, or poems. Im pretty much an open book. If you have any questions be feel free to email me or comment or whatever. Everyone I hope you are having a wonderful and blessed day. All my love, Lindsey.

Bible verses to live by

2009-08-30T19:11:00.000-07:00

Like I meationed I am a Christian and I wish to share a few Bible verses that give me some comfort to know that GOD is always with us and no matter the situation we should always turn to the Bible for answers and not that of the common man's answers.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."Proverbs 3:5-6

So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.Isaiah 41:10

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint."Isaiah 40:31 (KJV)

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.1 Timothy 4:12

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me then you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD,"and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."Jeremiah 29:11-14

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.John 13:34
May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you.1 Thessalonians 3:12

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is life not more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life.Matthew 6:25-27

Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your soul. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.Matthew 11:28-30

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.John 8:13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Thoughts on Sunday

2009-08-30T17:30:00.000-07:00

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."Deuteronomy 31:6

Facebook. Myspace. Twitter. Youtube. All these places have followers, members, subscribers, and fans of. But whatever happend to be a fan or such of Christ. I understand we all have a freedom of speech, of religon, and a freedom of choice - I chose to stand for Christ. I have gotten a few emails from people, random people who ask me why on earth do I do bible verses as my status messages. I DON'T do it for attention, me get comment hits, but I do it because you never ever know who will be seeing it and that might the only glimpse of GOD or the Bible they see in a day. If my bible passages offend you - I'm sorry but I will not stop posting them. As a Christian I have not saying I am perfect I do not make mistakes, what I am saying is simply this. I love GOD and everything and everyone he has put into my life and the ones he is yet to bring into my life. As a Christian I am not ashamed of who I am or who I will be come. Romans 3:23: For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God. Sinned meaning that I have made mistakes, bad judgement, regrets. But I know in the end of the day GOD loves me none of the less. I know this is not the greatest of notes but I want you all to know that GOD loves you too. GOD forgives you every single day and no matter what happends he is always there beside you. GOD is like the wind, you can not see him but you can feel him all around. You should see GOD in everything from the tinyest of flowers to the birds in the tree. I got an email the other day from someone in the Little Rock network who can view my page she wanted me to pray for her and she told me her situation. Let me tell you this was longer than a one page email. Never knew the girl from Adam but she saw my status messages from the day and the weeks I have started. She said that it gave her hope and she had a feeling from within that told her that she should email me for a prayer request. I am glad to say I been praying for her. I hope if she reads this note she knows that I am indeed doing that. Even though I am going through my own scarifces in my life. I am never ever to busy to stop and pray for someone I know or do not know. "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express" (Romans 8:26). I wish that our nation would turn its choice making, our decesions, our commitments not only towards that of our president but also turn to GOD because in the end he is true LEADER. I will not sit here and stay my opinon as president. That is a totally different subject on a different hand for a different day. I am proud to be an American. I am proud of apple pie, fish fries, four wheelers, and helpping your common man. Alot of today's society is to worried about one thing: money. Money can not buy happiness. Money can not buy you into heaven. Money you can not take to heaven with you. Proverbs 16:8- Better is a little with righteousness than great income with injustice. I would like to challenge each everyone of you who read this note to tell someone, anyone, it can be me or your husband, boyfriend, fiance, dog, cat whatever tell them that you love them. Because let me tell you something folks. You never ever know when will be your last. If I had know my fathers last day was Jan. 25, 2005 I would of stayed home from school to be with him. My dad was a beautiful, warm, loveable man whom I admire and miss every single day. But, I learn daily not only would my father want me to be like him but be stronger. Keep striving for a better tomorrow, do not let one day go without saying I love you to the ones you do. My father believed in PUSHing. For those who do not know what that means. PUSH means simply this... Praying Until Something Happens. God never ever closes a door without opening a window. But, do not stare at that window to long because that window can close at any minute. This verse I am about to share is one of my favorites. John 14:1-3:"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. I am writing this note because well its been on my heart and I believe that it is time. If I was to leave this earth tonight, tomorrow, or tomorrow night I do not want my words left unspoken. I have a family whom I love none of us our perfect if you say oh my family and I do not fight I am sadly to say your probably lying. Every family has disagreements. I have the most wonderful friends I tell them daily how much I love them and that they are family to me. Never Give UP! I am indeed taking my own advice when I say do not worry because believe me folks I am a worry wart. But these past few days GOD has shown me so much in his beautiful word. (Philippians 4:6-8 KJV):(6) Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. (7) And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (8) Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things {are} honest, whatsoever things {are} just, whatsoever things {are} pure, whatsoever things {are} lovely, whatsoever things {are} of good report; if {there be} any virtue, and if {there be} any praise, think on these things. GOD showed me that verse the other night when I was reading in my alone time. He showed me that do not just come to GOD with your problem but come to him with everything. Everything meaning anywhere from GOD I do not know what to wear today to LORD, me and my best friend are at each others throats. From the smallest of small to the biggest of big. Have Courage. (Psalm 27:14 KJV) Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. I am gonna sign off on this note I hope you all read this if not it is okay too. I love you all so very much and keep on being STRONG. Stay True Reliing Nothing but GOD. Send me emails of prayer request I do not care how long or short the email that is what I am here for. All my love.